I've been experiencing moments of emotional indifference. At one point I asked myself if I'm worthy of being a child of the Gods. I was having trouble with adjusting to the name change & even cried because I felt I was straying from Father & practicing cowardice by identifying as Zevist v. Spiritual Satanist.
As I've been adjusting I am better understanding, the names are like how one person can have nicknames or different titles from people from different times in their life. At my core, I am Spiritual Satanist, that shall never change. But I am more accepting now of the name change ToZ but am forever a member of the Joy of Satan.
I am thankful for the forums & Element Temple; to be connected to my siblings, the JG, & out High Priest & Priestess.
I've been experiencing mental/psychological pressure from myself, every time I'd wake up. I would just be missing group ritual or not on time with group happenings. But I remind myself my energy still counts & the God that the ritual is for will most likely acknowledge my ritual & intention.
I need to meditate. Grateful for all of you.
I have great appreciation for my Luciferian/Zevist/Spiritual Satanist family.
I truly am grateful overall.
As I've been adjusting I am better understanding, the names are like how one person can have nicknames or different titles from people from different times in their life. At my core, I am Spiritual Satanist, that shall never change. But I am more accepting now of the name change ToZ but am forever a member of the Joy of Satan.
I am thankful for the forums & Element Temple; to be connected to my siblings, the JG, & out High Priest & Priestess.
I've been experiencing mental/psychological pressure from myself, every time I'd wake up. I would just be missing group ritual or not on time with group happenings. But I remind myself my energy still counts & the God that the ritual is for will most likely acknowledge my ritual & intention.
I need to meditate. Grateful for all of you.
I have great appreciation for my Luciferian/Zevist/Spiritual Satanist family.
I truly am grateful overall.
