Your choices will only harm you, or they will only heal you. Satan and Jos respect such choices. But my opinion about transsexuality is that it is a matter of meaning. Feminine and masculine energies have manifested in our bodies as they should and our body has taken shape. But it is common to think that this is not the case due to lifestyle and external influences.
If you love Shaitan and respect him, surely he loves you on some level.
When you've meditated enough on your focus, square the Sun.
Transsexuality is the destruction of one's ego and one's identity, so while you can present yourself as you want, keep in mind that this is a lie.
Use this lie to your advantage (if you can see something inside that can benefit you).
Conscious false truths help you get a foothold on things, but after a certain point no one will need them anymore.