ktrv
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- Sep 3, 2023
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I love and hate my life as i keep losing track of my path. And motivation being at current lowest i just don’t know what to do.
I have my dreams of becoming a music artist which i’m trying to achive but my financial status and situation is being a huge “wall” preventing me from achieving it.Also i came across a time in my life in which i “have” to choose my future job etc.As i don’t have a rich background i don’t have the comfort to experiment.I’m scared to be honest of what is about to come and did i make the right choice if a let’s say chose music over more paying job.
And all these thinking made me lose all my motivation for anything in life. I feel deeply sad inside and escape from reality by watching content or hanging out and ignoring my life calling. For me it feels like this, but the calendar doesn’t lie months have passed and I still haven’t chosen what will be my answer and the deadline is closer.
I tried something with music and even invested money in it, but unfortunately, it didn’t work out, but also one song doesn’t mean everything, but it costs everything.
My only current comfort in my life is my Lord Satan which helps me feel good even tho i feel like i would want to quit my life.But then i feel like a asshole to the people who have it even worse than me,who have diseases, who have struggles far beyond my perception.Also a BIG BIG BIG thing is i have ADHD which naturally makes me even harder to accomplish anything. Even if I have talent or I’m smart it is a waste in my current hands.
I would like to break the ice and finally achieve my dreams. I would love to be ultra rich, who wouldn’t but that is not my goal. I would like just a happy life with my dreams achieved and my kids, having everything I didn’t have.Even while writing this. I’m losing myself.
At one point when I finally was thinking, I had a grip on life reality struck me like lightning and my world shattered.The only thing keeping me in this world ks my love for my Lord who help me all the way here.
Brothers and sisters I would like any advice possible even small or big. I’m all ears. I tried fighting this on my own, but it just doesn’t work so I need all the help I can get.
I know I may sound like I’m a child or that I’m lazy, but I just wrote the most important parts and not all the struggles…
I have my dreams of becoming a music artist which i’m trying to achive but my financial status and situation is being a huge “wall” preventing me from achieving it.Also i came across a time in my life in which i “have” to choose my future job etc.As i don’t have a rich background i don’t have the comfort to experiment.I’m scared to be honest of what is about to come and did i make the right choice if a let’s say chose music over more paying job.
And all these thinking made me lose all my motivation for anything in life. I feel deeply sad inside and escape from reality by watching content or hanging out and ignoring my life calling. For me it feels like this, but the calendar doesn’t lie months have passed and I still haven’t chosen what will be my answer and the deadline is closer.
I tried something with music and even invested money in it, but unfortunately, it didn’t work out, but also one song doesn’t mean everything, but it costs everything.
My only current comfort in my life is my Lord Satan which helps me feel good even tho i feel like i would want to quit my life.But then i feel like a asshole to the people who have it even worse than me,who have diseases, who have struggles far beyond my perception.Also a BIG BIG BIG thing is i have ADHD which naturally makes me even harder to accomplish anything. Even if I have talent or I’m smart it is a waste in my current hands.
I would like to break the ice and finally achieve my dreams. I would love to be ultra rich, who wouldn’t but that is not my goal. I would like just a happy life with my dreams achieved and my kids, having everything I didn’t have.Even while writing this. I’m losing myself.
At one point when I finally was thinking, I had a grip on life reality struck me like lightning and my world shattered.The only thing keeping me in this world ks my love for my Lord who help me all the way here.
Brothers and sisters I would like any advice possible even small or big. I’m all ears. I tried fighting this on my own, but it just doesn’t work so I need all the help I can get.
I know I may sound like I’m a child or that I’m lazy, but I just wrote the most important parts and not all the struggles…