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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "chalchiuhnenetzin" <jaguarcat2002@... wrote:
Thank you. I'm glad you found it helpful.
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], eremoslukos8@ wrote:
@ chalchiuhnenetzin: what you wrote to "corinne", however long ago it was, and what it was concerning being different, at this minute,found to be very inspiring. Word for word, just what FATHER wanted me to hear.
Thank you Father Satan for Speaking to me, You are a loving God, and a good friend!!!
HAIL SATAN!!!
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Date: Fri, 24 Dec 2010 06:03:33
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Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: yule fool
First of all, quit beating yourself up! No more of this "damn me!" stuff, OK? You're still a newbie for one thing and there's an enormous amount of information you still have to learn. Even those of us who have been doing it for years are still nowhere close to knowing all we need to know; it's a long path, far from easy, and takes a lot of work and study. Knowledge and the ability to put it to "perfect" practical use comes over time.
When it comes to holidays/sacred days, I'm not the best of the lot either. Never have been and it's an effort for me because I'm just not into celebrations for the most part. I find if I keep things small and light I do better; the grand gesture is great but we can't all do it and we can't always do it.
Look at it this way: you've gained some knowledge about Yuletide this year, now as it draws nearer in 2011, you can actually plan what you want to do ahead of time. Same for the other sacred days.
Just take things as they come and you will soon notice a progression and that you are steadily learning and growing. If you make a mistake from time to time, so be it. This isn't xianity; we learn a tremendous amount by doing then we can build on that and also learn not to repeat the mistakes.
Here's an example from my own experience: Know how I learned to do the Mer-Ka-Ba Meditation? I had to do it with the written instructions/illustrations on my lap which definitely broke concentration. Nevertheless it worked [I could feel and see it, even then] although it was nothing compared with what it does once memorized and done properly. It just illustrates that sometimes we have to take baby steps first in some things.
Hope that helped a little.
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Corinne" <corinneransbottom@ wrote:
Damn me! damn my ignorance and selfishness! I have been having a very intense couple of weeks and now everyone's celebrating and im looking around finding out what all the hubbub is about. now that ive figured it out i feel like i want to stab myself with a fork! how could i sit here wanting to be a satanist and not remember these days?! when i first discovered the site i read nearly %100 of all links, pages and what not but forgot these days were special. what can i do? make it up to him? i feel like a selfish prick, someone tell me what i can do, or at least make it up to him. i can almost feel the disappointment, like a weight on my shoulders. i feel like i should just crawl under a rock and die, i feel so selfish.