christinanaybam
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Hello. I am a devotee of Satan and Hekate. Hekate came to me first and then brought to me our loving father, Lucifer. I have become very close to him and look to him with the highest regard. I have spoke with him about this issue. I keep feeling I need to wait just a bit longer. I believe it is in his hands but I'd like to get others opinions on their experiences and their knowledge. Regardless I'll wait until it feels right but the question is still a very good one.
Here goes.
I, like many others, was raised in a godforsaken christian home. I had different experiences than the majority but have found that multitudes of fellow satanists experienced the same things I did. I was approached by 2 different Satans or demons all growing up. One type was malevolent, scorning me, taunting me, telling me I was worthless, scaring me in my sleep, ect. The other one only came to me 3 times as a child. A man who referred to himself as Satan asking me to dedicate to him. My Nani told me this was going to happen and to tell him, No. (So I did.)
Anyways, all growing up was a battle between my interest and natural link to witchcraft and the stories of doom from the church demanding that I throw my evil desires away. (Oh how many time I heard that!)
My books were constantly thrown away!
Needless to say, after 31 years and a whole bunch of crap that would take to long to write, I figured out what was going on. I believed the entity behind Xianity was an evil alien, out to destroy us and trick us. You would not believe how shocked I was when I read other stories of the same theory not weeks after I had came to the conclusion. This was 6 months ago.
Since then, Hekate continued to work closely with me before introducing Lucifer. It was done in a very loving way and if it had been done in any other way, I probably would have freaked out. Since Lucifer has entered my life, I have been able to tell the difference between other spirits compared to xtian entities.
In the past, the presence of xtian entities taunted me relentlessly. My anxiety grew and it could put me into my bed for days. BUT, I now can control them and tell them to leave. I now can decipher the difference.
THERE IS ONE REASON, I AM HOLDING BACK FROM THE DEDICATION RITUAL. One of the warnings on the JoyofSatan site, states that all links and chords to the christian religion must be severed, even subconsciously. I have renounced, spit in it's face, cut chords, you name it, I've done it. I still deal with the xtian demons on occasion though, especially when Mom prays for me and my children! I hate that shit.
Id like to know if when I dedicate, will I be bombarded by Xtian spirits trying to fuck with me. They don't scare me anymore. I want to pre-plan so that I have the time to handle it. I believe that I can but what if...........
My thoughts are that Satan already knows what I've been through and how far I have come. Surely, he'd help me stand up against the piss on ants that would try to afflict me. Maybe they would not come at all.
I'm ready to plunge into this with my whole heart. I've never felt more at home, more loved, or more myself. If you have anything to contribute for me, I look forward to hearing it. Thank you.
Here goes.
I, like many others, was raised in a godforsaken christian home. I had different experiences than the majority but have found that multitudes of fellow satanists experienced the same things I did. I was approached by 2 different Satans or demons all growing up. One type was malevolent, scorning me, taunting me, telling me I was worthless, scaring me in my sleep, ect. The other one only came to me 3 times as a child. A man who referred to himself as Satan asking me to dedicate to him. My Nani told me this was going to happen and to tell him, No. (So I did.)
Anyways, all growing up was a battle between my interest and natural link to witchcraft and the stories of doom from the church demanding that I throw my evil desires away. (Oh how many time I heard that!)
My books were constantly thrown away!
Needless to say, after 31 years and a whole bunch of crap that would take to long to write, I figured out what was going on. I believed the entity behind Xianity was an evil alien, out to destroy us and trick us. You would not believe how shocked I was when I read other stories of the same theory not weeks after I had came to the conclusion. This was 6 months ago.
Since then, Hekate continued to work closely with me before introducing Lucifer. It was done in a very loving way and if it had been done in any other way, I probably would have freaked out. Since Lucifer has entered my life, I have been able to tell the difference between other spirits compared to xtian entities.
In the past, the presence of xtian entities taunted me relentlessly. My anxiety grew and it could put me into my bed for days. BUT, I now can control them and tell them to leave. I now can decipher the difference.
THERE IS ONE REASON, I AM HOLDING BACK FROM THE DEDICATION RITUAL. One of the warnings on the JoyofSatan site, states that all links and chords to the christian religion must be severed, even subconsciously. I have renounced, spit in it's face, cut chords, you name it, I've done it. I still deal with the xtian demons on occasion though, especially when Mom prays for me and my children! I hate that shit.
Id like to know if when I dedicate, will I be bombarded by Xtian spirits trying to fuck with me. They don't scare me anymore. I want to pre-plan so that I have the time to handle it. I believe that I can but what if...........
My thoughts are that Satan already knows what I've been through and how far I have come. Surely, he'd help me stand up against the piss on ants that would try to afflict me. Maybe they would not come at all.
I'm ready to plunge into this with my whole heart. I've never felt more at home, more loved, or more myself. If you have anything to contribute for me, I look forward to hearing it. Thank you.
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