Hi brothers and sisters for soo long am strugling with meditation and ather isue like RTR's concerning about spiritual satanism but on my life situation every day is tough than yesterday, i was escaped from islam fucking god due to their enslave worshiping with no significant. Now doing every thing deeded for satanist but am feel nothing and the life goes harder and harder, sometime am askin my self why i was born here on this suffering earth? is it because of the game played with the mother and father? My mother was dead but some time am blame to them why they were make me to be here?
You know guys on my side it's better to be unborn tha to came to suffer on this earth,
Sometime am asking my self, my prayer for satan is gone? Satan can hear me or he ignore me, the demon/ass of hell and gods see me or they leave me along?
When am thinking that isues am fortunately discouraged to continue with even RTR and other programs but after sometime when my head come down and stress of life removed, i don't know what causes this for me to take my phone and to search again what is going on on Jos forum sometime am delete all files because am feeling that i just loose time but after sometime i download it again on jos website, so i don't know what to do or what is going on.
My fellow please i neede your opinion obout this and what shall i do?
You know guys on my side it's better to be unborn tha to came to suffer on this earth,
Sometime am asking my self, my prayer for satan is gone? Satan can hear me or he ignore me, the demon/ass of hell and gods see me or they leave me along?
When am thinking that isues am fortunately discouraged to continue with even RTR and other programs but after sometime when my head come down and stress of life removed, i don't know what causes this for me to take my phone and to search again what is going on on Jos forum sometime am delete all files because am feeling that i just loose time but after sometime i download it again on jos website, so i don't know what to do or what is going on.
My fellow please i neede your opinion obout this and what shall i do?