Catalincata94
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The worst of all i had suicide atempt what did that do to me? no one want's to be friends with me exept for my family and relatives that's what it did, why did this happen? because i believed i talked to Satan and the Gods that's the truth but no go kill yourself sais what ever i believed or was back then (but not directly it just sugested that only this way i can go to them) but it's still not shutting the fuck up. Was it wrong that i decided to kill myself to go to them, to Satan? because i wanted that (yeah it was wrong). but no i can't do a fuck against this fucking voice if it is a voice or someone else could be anyone. I want it to dissapear.
I can't fucking sleep right, laing for hours in bed or not sleaping at all.
and don't give me sermons i've read enough for now.
why coudn't they do something so i don't try to suicide.
it fuked up my reputation. and can't make friends here.
and i left my friends do you know why? T_T because i wanted to be more closer to you all. because one of my friends was always wearing a cross.
Now i have no one. when i speak now to an SS on twitter doen't sais much to me a few words i write like one page he writes like 3 words.
Getting thoughts in my mind non stop. non stop.
I wanted to say this but ignored it. there is a book about another revelation of the bible or something that i've read some years back. shoun't that also be exposed the fuck out of it? It's the "impersonal life by joseph benner"
After reading it that was the first time i've heard a voice in my mind saing like from that book "Listen and know that i am god" but yeah i didn't liked that and got angry and i replied "No i am god".
I think it's funny now what i've said to that god fucker "i am god" bitch.
So i think that book may be related to this voice.
I can't fucking sleep right, laing for hours in bed or not sleaping at all.
and don't give me sermons i've read enough for now.
why coudn't they do something so i don't try to suicide.
it fuked up my reputation. and can't make friends here.
and i left my friends do you know why? T_T because i wanted to be more closer to you all. because one of my friends was always wearing a cross.
Now i have no one. when i speak now to an SS on twitter doen't sais much to me a few words i write like one page he writes like 3 words.
Getting thoughts in my mind non stop. non stop.
I wanted to say this but ignored it. there is a book about another revelation of the bible or something that i've read some years back. shoun't that also be exposed the fuck out of it? It's the "impersonal life by joseph benner"
After reading it that was the first time i've heard a voice in my mind saing like from that book "Listen and know that i am god" but yeah i didn't liked that and got angry and i replied "No i am god".
I think it's funny now what i've said to that god fucker "i am god" bitch.
So i think that book may be related to this voice.