Sunny said:
You don't need a spell for that. Simply use your intellect correctly, and your intuition if and when you have developed it.
See what you want and what you can do with your life. Do not think too much because it is simply useless. Work hard instead.
Control your mind and you will achieve a lot in life, otherwise nothing. How wonderful the mind is, how horrible it can become if misused and mismanaged.
Be careful with habits and overthinking. Too much thinking is an excellent waste of time, like movies and video games. Habits, bad ones, are even worse.
Thinking has its importance, but if done too much and repetitively, it is useless and you become a broken information processor. And if done when it is not to be done, as in meditation, study or otherwise, it is a huge hindrance.
-Sun Sun Sunny
Hey, thank you very much for the reply. I can't disagree about overthinking, and it is indeed one of my biggest weaknesses as a person.
However, the reason I am so terribly troubled is because there are a few options for me and I'm not sure which path to follow - and whatever I decide, I will definitely need more education about it and I am afraid of wasting even more time of my life in making the wrong choices.
Whenever I write, or draw, I feel very good. However, my vocabulary is rather poor (both in English and my native language) and I haven't read that many books to enrichen my vocabulary, as well as my ability as a writer.
As for drawing, I definitely need to practice a lot but even if I get good at it, will I be able to eventually sustain myself financially through that? What if I fail? All that effort and time will go to waste and I'll be again at step zero.
Graphic design is another thing that I enjoy, but I just had a short seminar about it. I need more education, and the truth is that working at an office at someone else's business is... well, it's not something that I would enjoy. But it's the safest bet.
I know that being a freelancer is also choice, yet again I don't know if I would enjoy it. And what if I study it, only to realize I don't like it in the end?
I like creating (drawing, writing) but people say that if you make your hobby your job, you will no longer enjoy it. (Some people who have done that, have said so). Then, there are others who have done that, and say the opposite.
What am I supposed to do? I don't want to take a risk in choosing something I'm not sure I would like OR choosing something I'm not sure that I'll succeed with... It is also very difficult to believe that I will be able to succeed in something when everyone around me says it's impossible. Even if I start practicing, doubts will keep coming up and I will even need to hide the fact that I'm practicing so that I don't hear their disapproval and discouragement.
And what if my likings and dislikings are just illusions based on my influences while being a child or something? How can I ever be certain that I'm walking on the right path career-wise?