What to do?

[Ionlyseedaylight]

I feel so sad and overwhelmed. I don't feel the will to continue my life and I don't find joy in the things I used to love. I feel so tired. I had fever for days so it might be a case too. A part of me is desperate for human connection and another part just wants peace by myself. I want to feel happy and satisfied with my life. It hurts so so much.

 

[Power of Justice [JG]]

I feel so sad and overwhelmed. I don't feel the will to continue my life and I don't find joy in the things I used to love. I feel so tired. I had fever for days so it might be a case too. A part of me is desperate for human connection and another part just wants peace by myself. I want to feel happy and satisfied with my life. It hurts so so much.

What are your goals in life?

 

[Soul Wings]

I feel so sad and overwhelmed. I don't feel the will to continue my life and I don't find joy in the things I used to love. I feel so tired. I had fever for days so it might be a case too. A part of me is desperate for human connection and another part just wants peace by myself. I want to feel happy and satisfied with my life. It hurts so so much.

TW: Suicide/depression themes.

I have a lot to say my friend and I hope I can help a little.
I was similar where you are, roughly 5 years ago.
I was so unhappy that, every other week, I was planning some kind of suicide. I felt so unlovable and disgusting. I thought about self-harm. I would often look into the mirror and just cry as a pure gutteral reaction. I was emotionally crucifying myself.
Everything I did felt like no achievement, all the food I ate tasted like cardboard. The phone rang. My body was so heavy I couldn't bring myself to answer it. I slept every waking hour I had away. Why clean myself or look after myself when no one will see or love my body anyway? That is all highly summarised, and probably understated, but you get the idea, I don't want to be dramatic.

I do not feel this badly much anymore, though, of course, there are days where I am still melancholy. That will never go. It is part of the human experience and living in a jewish controlled society (new world order).

There was one logical sentiment that changed my life. This came from my psychologist. Something you don't actually need the Gods to show you, that you can understand to be true.
That - no matter how bad things are - there will always, ALWAYS be the future to change things for the better.

The main problem with loneliness is we don't see past the small circle of people we already know. I had so many fucking toxic people in my life, in my work, in relationships, even in my own fucking family. I thought this was all in store for me in life. That every man would grope my sacred body, comment on my fucking body, spit on my womanhood, no one would ever love me.
Now, there's something very wrong here.

Unfortunately, toxic people will always be toxic, you have to consciously make the choice that you want to cut people out and get away. Whether that's at work or family. Find new people that accept you for your quirks and flaws, friends, or something else. Find a new family, people who accept you. Otherwise, I am telling you now, you will never escape the cycle of being lonely. You have to break the chains, or you will forever remain a slave to your own loneliness and depression.

Force yourself to problem solve. Force yourself out of your comfort zone. You are bad at socialising and making friends? Start practicing online. Start with text if you have to. Forums, chat programs, discord, reddit, whatever. Find a community. Then, buy yourself a mic (you can get a shit 20$ headset or whatever) and start voice chatting with people. Voice chat with as many people as you can. You can use VR chat as a good entry level for this. You will find this will, in small part, help you socialise in reality.

Don't have money, a job or feel like you're failing in that regard? Research videos on CVs, resumes, interview questions. Find mentors online. Many people will help you without asking for payment. Careervidz on youtube for example, helped me practice interview questions and get my current job.

Want a partner? Putting yourself out there helps with this. Making friends helps with this because you learn how to develop meaningful relationships. Have fun practicing flirting in your own way. For example, if you like girls, they like being complimented on things other than their beauty (intelligence or quirky interests for example). If you like guys, honestly you could probably say anything and they would like it because it is direct and flattering lol.

The Gods are here guiding you to your own initiative and problem solving. Its up to you. Step by step you can climb up out of this jewish muck and into your own divine light. And if Satan is beside you too? You're unstoppable.

 

[Sunny]

Do not make stress chronic because it will affect the physical body very badly. It will drain your energy, damage you and cause biochemical malfunctions. If the mind is not healthy, the body cannot be healthy.

Don't commit suicide because it is wrong. Do you want to lose everything? Of course not, and so find the solution to your problems and improve your life.

To every problem there is a solution. If you search, you find.