AquarianSoul
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- Oct 24, 2024
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Last year in October I began meditating after getting married to a girl not in my race (Latina).
After getting married which I was reluctant to do, I started feeling deep stress and a voice came to me telling me to meditate.
I suppose I had been accidentally charging my kundalini for a few months prior by flexing my kegels, and feeling an energy flow over my eyes.
Anyway the meditation took off fast — and before I knew it I was writing passages about miscegenation and understanding the Natural Law of our world.
Now I knew I needed to divorce, but I was in love.
I kept meditating and disappearing for most of the day.
I began to have visions of going back to Europe and discovering my ancestry (North Western European - Germanic).
I began feeling called to “save the White race.”
I started coordinating meetings with Whites to discuss what could we do.
I began having visions of diagrams about tribalism and fraternity.
The visions set off a storm and before I knew it I was in Europe meeting tons of germanics from England to Sweden and beyond.
We celebrated midsommer. We made plans to change the world. To charge out like the fellowship towards Mordor.
I went through a deep spiritual awakening and made a pledge to a higher spiritual force (which now I understand to be Satan/Odin — prior I was only knowing it to be Odin) to “raise up these men” who I was with. I even channeled the deep voice of Odin a couple times during sauna meditation — he came out once and lovingly mocked me for my miscegenation saying “What are you doing, laddie?”
My kundalini super activated and I could charge my body— my physicality changed completely.
It felt for a month that I was ahead of all time; and as I had realizations about the world, the world seemed to change in response — As I began awakening to my racism; it seemed others were awakening and beginning to take action.
This is just part of the whirlwind I went through with my spiritual awakening.
It’s culminated to now; having divorced and then left my family (I have no children) behind to follow the voice’s guidance to go across the world and start something new, uninhibited by all the family and friend andropoda of my old life.
I took a new name; I left in secret; I encountered wild bureaucratic dangers and was guided through it all by the voice.
The voice was supposedly leading me to meet the men behind the voice on a boat, but they never showed up to a meeting the voices were planning for me across the world. I had my doubts each day that they would really meet, but they carried on guiding me to the meeting.
They tell me now this was all to help me to get to this next stage where the real work begins, which is building a fraternity and businesses with my fellow Aryan brothers.
Have I interacted with the trickster element of the gods to advance myself? Did I time travel? Did I change timelines? How unusual is this - for one’s life to entirely change? The voice tells me I’m on the path and helps me to choose right from wrong and abstain from bad behavior like masturbation and pre marital intercourse.
I repeatedly ask the voice for help in finding a wise mentor. There are a few on the horizon, a Druid and some other “shamans”, but since finding JoS, I thought may be a mentor is here.
I suppose I must mention I am completely sober and open to any advice. I had been a technology entrepreneur in my twenties and I burned my spirit on both ends to be successful, just work eat sleep — and I think my soul craved spiritual recovery so much that it launched me further than I could have ever imagined, once I finally began to follow a spiritual path.
A year prior to this spiritual awakening I wrote a book on the nature of the soul and how to fill it with masculine energy through correct action and perspective. That was pure divine inspiration that hit me while I was trying to write a book on “masculinity”. I was quitting the effort after a few months when suddenly later that day the new book on the soul came to me in a dream.
Any way… any thoughts or advice, such as, what is this voice? I will appreciate it in this odd time of change in my life.
After getting married which I was reluctant to do, I started feeling deep stress and a voice came to me telling me to meditate.
I suppose I had been accidentally charging my kundalini for a few months prior by flexing my kegels, and feeling an energy flow over my eyes.
Anyway the meditation took off fast — and before I knew it I was writing passages about miscegenation and understanding the Natural Law of our world.
Now I knew I needed to divorce, but I was in love.
I kept meditating and disappearing for most of the day.
I began to have visions of going back to Europe and discovering my ancestry (North Western European - Germanic).
I began feeling called to “save the White race.”
I started coordinating meetings with Whites to discuss what could we do.
I began having visions of diagrams about tribalism and fraternity.
The visions set off a storm and before I knew it I was in Europe meeting tons of germanics from England to Sweden and beyond.
We celebrated midsommer. We made plans to change the world. To charge out like the fellowship towards Mordor.
I went through a deep spiritual awakening and made a pledge to a higher spiritual force (which now I understand to be Satan/Odin — prior I was only knowing it to be Odin) to “raise up these men” who I was with. I even channeled the deep voice of Odin a couple times during sauna meditation — he came out once and lovingly mocked me for my miscegenation saying “What are you doing, laddie?”
My kundalini super activated and I could charge my body— my physicality changed completely.
It felt for a month that I was ahead of all time; and as I had realizations about the world, the world seemed to change in response — As I began awakening to my racism; it seemed others were awakening and beginning to take action.
This is just part of the whirlwind I went through with my spiritual awakening.
It’s culminated to now; having divorced and then left my family (I have no children) behind to follow the voice’s guidance to go across the world and start something new, uninhibited by all the family and friend andropoda of my old life.
I took a new name; I left in secret; I encountered wild bureaucratic dangers and was guided through it all by the voice.
The voice was supposedly leading me to meet the men behind the voice on a boat, but they never showed up to a meeting the voices were planning for me across the world. I had my doubts each day that they would really meet, but they carried on guiding me to the meeting.
They tell me now this was all to help me to get to this next stage where the real work begins, which is building a fraternity and businesses with my fellow Aryan brothers.
Have I interacted with the trickster element of the gods to advance myself? Did I time travel? Did I change timelines? How unusual is this - for one’s life to entirely change? The voice tells me I’m on the path and helps me to choose right from wrong and abstain from bad behavior like masturbation and pre marital intercourse.
I repeatedly ask the voice for help in finding a wise mentor. There are a few on the horizon, a Druid and some other “shamans”, but since finding JoS, I thought may be a mentor is here.
I suppose I must mention I am completely sober and open to any advice. I had been a technology entrepreneur in my twenties and I burned my spirit on both ends to be successful, just work eat sleep — and I think my soul craved spiritual recovery so much that it launched me further than I could have ever imagined, once I finally began to follow a spiritual path.
A year prior to this spiritual awakening I wrote a book on the nature of the soul and how to fill it with masculine energy through correct action and perspective. That was pure divine inspiration that hit me while I was trying to write a book on “masculinity”. I was quitting the effort after a few months when suddenly later that day the new book on the soul came to me in a dream.
Any way… any thoughts or advice, such as, what is this voice? I will appreciate it in this odd time of change in my life.