slyscorpion said:
MrIntrepid said:
Oh, I know. Made the mistake of letting two jews get close to me and through those connections they were able to almost bring me down to their level. It's not fun having enemy entities referring to you as "shemuel" or "kal el" (the latter confused me initially but it means the same thing as shemuel, voice of 'god.') They were hooked onto me for years and as I got more serious with the RTRs, they got more aggressive toward me, then when I started doing the reverse tetra they attempted to make me visualize my own chakras being destroyed.
I don't think many other SS will have to go through any of this because what caused my vulnerability was me being mentally weak, stupid and far too willing to attempt to be kind to people. It's taken me three separate 40 day workings, months of yoga, not skipping the final RTR for at least four months and only missing a single day of the last five of HP Cobra's warfare schedules to shake these things off of me and I'm still not done yet. It's ridiculous that you can be so deeply involved in the fight and yet be subconsciously riding the fence if you have energy ties to the wrong entities.
Been lurking for a while on the forum and had sufficient inspiration to stop being a fucking idiot. I am still tainted to some degree, but I'm working on it. Nothing worth doing is ever easy, I suppose. Not totally sure why I went on this tangent but if there is a lesson to be had it's that the enemy will do just about anything to kill, turn or drive SS insane and these things can be very sly. There's a lot more to the story but for the sake of concision I'll leave it here.
Also you have to get all the energy of your soul not just the links. The energy attracts those entities and you don't want it in you anyways.
I'll put that working to good use, just need to finish the last 40 day working I started. What happened was that I was so far gone mentally I had to do a bunch of stuff just to realize what my problems were, then I did undo a lot of the damage. Funnily enough, my plans were to break whatever connection I still had to the enemy but I wasn't sure what the best way o do it was so this is very convenient.
The feeling you get when that energy is inside of you I would describe as spiritual lethargy. It's a constant weight on your chakras because these entities love aura ripping you however they can, in my experience being focused on the heart chakra to influence your emotions, sacral to induce perversions and I'm not sure about this one but there was also a pineal "ache" during attacks. Traumas and phobias are whipped up into something much larger than they would be otherwise just for the sake of control.
Also since you brought up the sexual aspect of it, I did have a Wiccan boyfriend who spiritually was stronger than me at the time. He was able to seduce me through magickal means mostly through dreams and the very first thing I said to him was that he was an angel magician, yet I wasn't able to stop myself from wanting him. This next bit is going to sound silly but the guy was a total weeb, influenced in his magickal practice by anime (No, I'm not joking), mentally ill and allowed that corruption to make him feel entitled to abusing others. Several workings later I no longer feel like he's succeeding in his attempts to literally merge on a soul level.
I think what made me vulnerable to all of this in the first place was having grown up Catholic, as a child who was already interested in the occult I subconsciously connected to xian energy. Apparently saying thousands of 'hail marys" and believing in that garbage can leave a real stink behind. Ironically it was a xian radio show by the name of 'unshackled' that made me find the JoS after I heard a story about this 'evil' Satanist astral travelling around cursing people.
And while I may have gone on another tangent, the most important part of the enemy's attempt to bind me was definitely the attempts to drive me to full on schizophrenia. It was basically me being tricked into creating this fantasy world (Why HPS Maxine warns of being overly imaginative, I assume.) where I made 'avatars' of the people I knew so I wouldn't be lonely. Aside from it being effective at restricting my emotional response to things it also served to redirect attention away from the actual problem. In this fantasy world there was a phenomena I refer to as 'The Council' where instead of putting thought to action I would mentally and emotionally drain myself venting to thoughtforms, entities, or otherwise in an imaginary chamber so my energy could then be repurposed by them.
It was that bullshit that stopped me from seeking help on the forum, because I always felt satisfied that the issue was being solved even though it wasn't. I was also convinced that I'd be dismissed as insane if I ever brought any of this up, which was part of the gaslighting and shame game these things love to play. And even as I write this I feel like there's something attempting to intimidate me, but I'm gonna submit it anyway in case any of this sounds familiar to anyone else.
Thanks again, slyscorpion.