What do mean "emotional abuse?" Is it something you've done? Or is it unnecessary abuse for no particular reason?
You've been here 5 months and posted a lot of unusual messages ie: claiming abuse, you're not human but in the form of an animal and threatening to do self harm.
You don't seem to know much about the gods or JoS, so I would first suggest you go on and read:
Nothing is going to change in your life until you become aware of your true spiritual nature and then improve your standing with Satan.
Start your spiritual journey with the 40 day empowerment program by HP Hoodedcobra666:
If you have no knowledge of the Gods then pray to Father Satan whilst looking at his picture or sigil. Just pray in your own words from your heart. He will listen.