Low Priest said:
Once time I did drugs(I'm sober now) I was about 15 and I felt like I experienced multiple selves, which should have been relieving but since I'm negative, it was hell I remember one of my selves committing suicide and being in excruciating terror that I was still here via my other selves. Ever since then ive been stuck in a delusion of life.(maybe because the experience made me hold on to life so hard that I created a delusion of a secure isolated existence
Yeah, drugs do put holes in your Soul and Aura, and what can fill that literal void?! It can take years or lifetimes to just undo that damage alone, before continuing on to improve and advance and empower yourself. Similar can be said for so-called medicines, but I am not a medical/pharmaceutical professional, so I can't advise to not use those; except,
perhaps, to reduce them very, very slowly over a prolonged period of time while doing research and also doing proper meditations carefully and slowly (the Physical and Spiritual Bodies need time to adjust, and doing things too quickly - even for a fit and healthy person - could have damaging effects or worse, or worse still; you don't want to tear your Spiritual muscles, pull your Spiritual hamstring, snap your Spiritual Achilles tendon, so to speak).
Of course, stopping using narcotics should be done straight away; not using them at all should be done already and repeatedly. Once marijuana/cannabis is legalised everywhere, then it will be discovered that cocaine has health benefits...