Satan_is_our_Father666
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I'd like to share something about this Goddess that the recent events in my life have lead me to believe as true.
The first time I met her (very briefly as I was a newborn SS, still surprised I managed to see Her) was during Samhain 2002. I had asked Father for a succubus as loves and guide, so I mistakenly thought my guide (Guardian Demon in fact) was Her for a rather long time (deluded, I know, don't tell me).
After a LOT I managed to understand the one I saw looked and kind of felt a lot like the one described in the JoS and I persuaded myself after some trick and error that I had met a Goetic Demoness instead of a succubus.
Happy as fuck, I tried to mentally call Her and finally 'felt' something right away. It was almost a bridge between me and Her but too short, so I couldn't reach Her.
The same week I decided I needed to perform the summoning ritual and see what it would lead to.
I recently described what happened the first night and the following month in another reply in my 'Air' topic, but long story short, I observed technology unexplainably failing everywhere I went. Machinery shutting down not to start again, fried circuits, glitches, you name it.
Not being able to tell much from my interaction with Demons yet, I assumed this 'negative effect' was to be interpreted as a "no, I'm not your Guardian" from Leraje's part and decided I had been wrong in thinking so, assuming I had had my chance and that now I was being told off somehow.
I wrote numerous entries in diaries, second guessing my conclusions, doubting myself and telling myself I was being an idiot, not even being able to tell who my Guardian Demon was. Meanwhile, a ton of signs and proof was telling me She was indeed my Guardian, that I'd be a fool not to grasp the fact.
Lately, I started understanding Her a little better, between my self turmoil prior to learning which my dominant Element is, practicing a lot with my aura and chakras, but in the end I got the message. Maybe I have more than one Guardian (I know it's a possibility) but I swear I'll do my best to stop disappointing Her.
The update for today, and it may be very well a reference to my latest self questioning and discoveries (special thanks to GhostintheMachine and Stormblood who provided some great examples and explanation of possibilities I had ignored), is that I think Leraje rules a lot over machinery/technology (basically all that runs on electricity) than She is given credit.
Personally, I'll add, I think my specific experience with failing technology was an answer to something that is deeply bothering me (namely the presence of 5G towers, much more diffused than I thought) and my constant thinking of a way to dispose of this threat. (PS. The lightning in my workplace just failed, another hint from Leraje to confirm all I said holds truth.)
Hope you find this helpful, do let me know if you feel the same or otherwise.
HAIL SATAN! HAIL LERAJE! HAIL ZEUS! HAIL ALL THE GODS OF HELL!
Proud to be a Gentile!
The first time I met her (very briefly as I was a newborn SS, still surprised I managed to see Her) was during Samhain 2002. I had asked Father for a succubus as loves and guide, so I mistakenly thought my guide (Guardian Demon in fact) was Her for a rather long time (deluded, I know, don't tell me).
After a LOT I managed to understand the one I saw looked and kind of felt a lot like the one described in the JoS and I persuaded myself after some trick and error that I had met a Goetic Demoness instead of a succubus.
Happy as fuck, I tried to mentally call Her and finally 'felt' something right away. It was almost a bridge between me and Her but too short, so I couldn't reach Her.
The same week I decided I needed to perform the summoning ritual and see what it would lead to.
I recently described what happened the first night and the following month in another reply in my 'Air' topic, but long story short, I observed technology unexplainably failing everywhere I went. Machinery shutting down not to start again, fried circuits, glitches, you name it.
Not being able to tell much from my interaction with Demons yet, I assumed this 'negative effect' was to be interpreted as a "no, I'm not your Guardian" from Leraje's part and decided I had been wrong in thinking so, assuming I had had my chance and that now I was being told off somehow.
I wrote numerous entries in diaries, second guessing my conclusions, doubting myself and telling myself I was being an idiot, not even being able to tell who my Guardian Demon was. Meanwhile, a ton of signs and proof was telling me She was indeed my Guardian, that I'd be a fool not to grasp the fact.
Lately, I started understanding Her a little better, between my self turmoil prior to learning which my dominant Element is, practicing a lot with my aura and chakras, but in the end I got the message. Maybe I have more than one Guardian (I know it's a possibility) but I swear I'll do my best to stop disappointing Her.
The update for today, and it may be very well a reference to my latest self questioning and discoveries (special thanks to GhostintheMachine and Stormblood who provided some great examples and explanation of possibilities I had ignored), is that I think Leraje rules a lot over machinery/technology (basically all that runs on electricity) than She is given credit.
Personally, I'll add, I think my specific experience with failing technology was an answer to something that is deeply bothering me (namely the presence of 5G towers, much more diffused than I thought) and my constant thinking of a way to dispose of this threat. (PS. The lightning in my workplace just failed, another hint from Leraje to confirm all I said holds truth.)
Hope you find this helpful, do let me know if you feel the same or otherwise.
HAIL SATAN! HAIL LERAJE! HAIL ZEUS! HAIL ALL THE GODS OF HELL!
Proud to be a Gentile!