Understanding irrational feelings: ambition or delusion?

[Henu the Great]

Ah, an interesting problem. I wish I could help you, but for me it's pretty clear cut. Just work your ass off and the fruits of the labor will show as a result.

Maybe there are methods to "sync" both the rational and irrational mind better, maybe it's "just" meditation. I dunno, but 8 fold path is the one thing that makes sense for me and that's what I'm going to do without any fancy talk about it.

Basically putting the work in and collecting the paycheck, but on a soul level.

 

[NinRick]

I think you are insane.. however, only when you doubt your path and actions. Who cares whether or not this is „irrational“ or „delusional“. Your soul desired it for eons, so you do not really care about whether or not it is rational or not, because this is something way deeper.
Hasn’t it become something simpler, like an instinct?
Just like a bird flys for the first time, and a fish swims, you want to accomplish this goal.. each and every live time.. no matter what, or how long it takes and how slim the chances are.. I think this is wonderful!

This is a part of you already, it bestows you strength. Be happy for having such a unfathomable desire, other people freeze in their tracks, as they have no desire, you are the opposite.

Don’t become a half-assed person. Don’t neglect your dreams, as you would neglect yourself.
Stay original, stay true to yourself!
Do really want to let all your effort go to waste? The effort of so many life times? Of your very essence?

HAHA don’t make laugh!

Relatively recently I also have found my goal: to become a Demon of Satan!
If anyone would tell me that this is impossible, I would tell them „fuck you, I‘ll show you!“
I am of Satan already, All I need to do is to become stronger now, simple isn’t it?
Once I reached it, I will kneel down in front of Satan, raise my arms and tell him that I was always of him, and that this shall be now forever and for all eternities. I‘ll pledge my eternal, true and unconditional loyalty towards him and only him. After all, this is the only way to survive, so in the end, it is something very natural, because it ensures your own eternal survival.

I have no idea about your goal, but I wish you good luck! Don’t doubt yourself!