Two questions.

[cre84chin]

First, I understand that energy is better when there's light, and that light generally makes everything just work better. My personal preference, however, is generally to avoid the sun whenever possible and to conduct my affairs in the dark. It's not some vampire thing or whatever, I just don't like the sun. Would it be better if I tried to change my habits or just persevere? Second, due to my damned psyche, whenever I start to do a serious working or meditation I always hear this little voice telling me it's a placebo, or a hallucination. Is there any way to prove irrevocably and beyond doubt that what I'm doing is real?

Thank you for your time.

Hail Enki and the True Gods.

 

[Keisha]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "cre84chin" <cre84chin@... wrote:

First, I understand that energy is better when there's light, and that light generally makes everything just work better. My personal preference, however, is generally to avoid the sun whenever possible and to conduct my affairs in the dark. It's not some vampire thing or whatever, I just don't like the sun. Would it be better if I tried to change my habits or just persevere? Second, due to my damned psyche, whenever I start to do a serious working or meditation I always hear this little voice telling me it's a placebo, or a hallucination. Is there any way to prove irrevocably and beyond doubt that what I'm doing is real?

Thank you for your time.

Hail Enki and the True Gods.

you sound exactly like a little me. I have the same issues with the sun, too

 

[nick overholtzer]

i also dont like the sun. i dont like heat and i dont like sweating. there is still light in the shade. shadows made in the sunlight arent as dark as pitch black so there is still light. Well, eventually you might feel something or see something that makes u belive. This one time, i felt something standing over me and nothing was there. It felt so huge it scared me so much i pulled the covers over my head like a child. I slept in the living room that night. Also, dreams are real, not hullucinations. Its your mind sorting information. I think, since you dont know whats happening, ur little voice tries to rationalize it by claiming its a halluicination. There is so much about the mind we dont know about, and there are still very real things that cant be explained by science yet. 1000 years ago, somebody watching a video projection might have thought it was magic or they were hallucinating. You can picture anything you want in your mind, and if you know how to use your brain right, you can feel, smell and touch it. If ur doing shrooms, then ur hallucinating. Just do meditations every day. ull see.
 

To: [email protected]
From: cre84chin@...
Date: Mon, 4 Jan 2010 04:06:20 +0000
Subject: [Teens4Satan] Two questions.

  First, I understand that energy is better when there's light, and that light generally makes everything just work better. My personal preference, however, is generally to avoid the sun whenever possible and to conduct my affairs in the dark. It's not some vampire thing or whatever, I just don't like the sun. Would it be better if I tried to change my habits or just persevere? Second, due to my damned psyche, whenever I start to do a serious working or meditation I always hear this little voice telling me it's a placebo, or a hallucination. Is there any way to prove irrevocably and beyond doubt that what I'm doing is real?

Thank you for your time.

Hail Enki and the True Gods.


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