Catalincata94
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Last night i did the final RTR (for the first time)and then waited like 30 mins and then i did my meditations then i tried to sleep but i keept talking in my mind but didn't managed to shut the fuck up so i stayed in bed for 4 hours talking to my self (sometimes also the voice was talking to me) then i managed to sleep some what but not much maybe 2-3 hours.
So i thought i should do AUM 108x for 40 days o.o
But i also have to do other rituals
Like aura of protection
Final RTR
Isa for binding my aunt because she prays for me but this only when moon starts waning
And i thought about doing surya for cleaning because my vizualization isn't so good
But i think i will do today AUM and will leave the isa for later but some brother and sister of ours said that i'm never going to lern to do a binding if i don't do it well because i i woried about that i may think about the ritual and may back fire at me because i sometimes i think about the ritual but jut for a few seconds and then i think about something else and focus on other things. So hope it's all right if i leave it for later after i center my thoughts with AUM. Or what else would be good to stop tinking so much?
But i also have a problem with the voice that keps talking to me but i don't know for sure if its a disease (like schizoprhenia) or the enemies but it moustly talks about ss, trying to frighten me and leave ss because sometimes like "your not suposed to be here" and other stuffs that i can't remember because i ignor it.
It also talks to me when i doing workings and before a working it tels me "i won't let you do it i will talk to you".
So i thought i should do AUM 108x for 40 days o.o
But i also have to do other rituals
Like aura of protection
Final RTR
Isa for binding my aunt because she prays for me but this only when moon starts waning
And i thought about doing surya for cleaning because my vizualization isn't so good
But i think i will do today AUM and will leave the isa for later but some brother and sister of ours said that i'm never going to lern to do a binding if i don't do it well because i i woried about that i may think about the ritual and may back fire at me because i sometimes i think about the ritual but jut for a few seconds and then i think about something else and focus on other things. So hope it's all right if i leave it for later after i center my thoughts with AUM. Or what else would be good to stop tinking so much?
But i also have a problem with the voice that keps talking to me but i don't know for sure if its a disease (like schizoprhenia) or the enemies but it moustly talks about ss, trying to frighten me and leave ss because sometimes like "your not suposed to be here" and other stuffs that i can't remember because i ignor it.
It also talks to me when i doing workings and before a working it tels me "i won't let you do it i will talk to you".