So first of all let me tell everyone my level spiritually i'm new and i'm on day 24 of the 40 day meditation program.
so i am still opening my chakras.
and i do the final RTR everyday.
So yesterday when i layed on the bed before going to sleep my thoughts were everywhere so i decided to do void meditation with my eyes closed which resulted in a meditative sleepy state and then i saw white like i though that they wanted to scare me like they did when i opened my third eye and then i saw a white woman with black eyes all black their was no any white in the eyes and then i opened my eyes and closed it again so it goes away and then my brain and the top half of my skull vibrated like a drum or a bell and then i started hearing some quite sounds in my head and then a sound saying something which i don't really remember it was in an alien languge it was something like ZENNungrmkgwiii and then some weird words and then it said "What's up?" "What's up?" "What's up?" but this was in my first language which is Arabic and then it said "You went in it" in Arabic too and then it said "You are going to regret it" it said it alot of time these 2 and then i started affirming that i'm fully safe and protected in everyway and did some aura of protection and then felt asleep with axiaty. So that's the threatening part and here comes the abduction.
So after a couple of hours later that's from what i remember i found my self dreaming of someone talking to me on a Movie theater screen his body and face was taking the entire screen like journalists and then after a couple of seconds later. i saw 3 small round ufos outside the window they started pulling me or putting me back very slowly and i saw all that when my eyes are closed and then i got an Adrenalin rush which made me wake up and open my eyes and i started shaking and sweating very hard. i sweated as it's like 80 degrees Celsius. And then i stayed on the bed for a little bit very confused and terrified i don't know why i even felt it right now when i wrote it. and then i started raging and saying where's satan? where is the demons? which are supposed to be protecting me as the SS said btw no demon talked with me and i never felt them or any of this and i guess they are just ignoring me or something like that and then i got thoughts to stop the final RTR and the meditation or atleast the final RTR and then i started saying fuck the goyim that was their decision to be stupid sheep and that it's Satan's job to fight the enemy and free them from the enemy not mine and I'm still saying this and their is a big chance that i will stop doing the final RTR like i don't want to wake up in a ufo full of greys tomorrow or what do you all think. Even i feel that they had me with them today i don't really feel good right now.
And btw i woke up at 2AM and i'm still awake until now and i'm asking about what to do and how to deal with this problem because i really don't know how to talk with Satan and the demons.
And I AM A DEDICATED SATANIST like you all.
i guess all the protection i have is created by me.
and i see 3 numbers like each other which you all say that it's from the enemy like 222 333 444 555 777 888 999 etc. that's the only form of communication which i got. AND YOU ALL SAY THAT ITS FROM THE ENEMY
And why is the enemy trying so hard on me?
and why not aleast a demon showed up in my dreams?
and right now when tell me that the demons are protecting me it's like saying to a xian that the angles are protecting him but he never sees them and i will never believe anything which i didn't see from now on.
and i even might leave SS. i guess that's just an army which is created to fight the jews nothing more.
and i even think that the jews created SS to trap the gentiles and turn them in goym i'm very confused right now
and i know that most of the answers will be like Don't panic as long as you are dedicated you are safe. it's like telling a Muslim as long as you are a Muslim and you blow your self up you will be going to the 7th heaven.
and i'm going to re do the dedication for the third time just in case satan didn't notice it. btw i don't have access to any physical tools.
so i hope that i will get help for you all.
so i am still opening my chakras.
and i do the final RTR everyday.
So yesterday when i layed on the bed before going to sleep my thoughts were everywhere so i decided to do void meditation with my eyes closed which resulted in a meditative sleepy state and then i saw white like i though that they wanted to scare me like they did when i opened my third eye and then i saw a white woman with black eyes all black their was no any white in the eyes and then i opened my eyes and closed it again so it goes away and then my brain and the top half of my skull vibrated like a drum or a bell and then i started hearing some quite sounds in my head and then a sound saying something which i don't really remember it was in an alien languge it was something like ZENNungrmkgwiii and then some weird words and then it said "What's up?" "What's up?" "What's up?" but this was in my first language which is Arabic and then it said "You went in it" in Arabic too and then it said "You are going to regret it" it said it alot of time these 2 and then i started affirming that i'm fully safe and protected in everyway and did some aura of protection and then felt asleep with axiaty. So that's the threatening part and here comes the abduction.
So after a couple of hours later that's from what i remember i found my self dreaming of someone talking to me on a Movie theater screen his body and face was taking the entire screen like journalists and then after a couple of seconds later. i saw 3 small round ufos outside the window they started pulling me or putting me back very slowly and i saw all that when my eyes are closed and then i got an Adrenalin rush which made me wake up and open my eyes and i started shaking and sweating very hard. i sweated as it's like 80 degrees Celsius. And then i stayed on the bed for a little bit very confused and terrified i don't know why i even felt it right now when i wrote it. and then i started raging and saying where's satan? where is the demons? which are supposed to be protecting me as the SS said btw no demon talked with me and i never felt them or any of this and i guess they are just ignoring me or something like that and then i got thoughts to stop the final RTR and the meditation or atleast the final RTR and then i started saying fuck the goyim that was their decision to be stupid sheep and that it's Satan's job to fight the enemy and free them from the enemy not mine and I'm still saying this and their is a big chance that i will stop doing the final RTR like i don't want to wake up in a ufo full of greys tomorrow or what do you all think. Even i feel that they had me with them today i don't really feel good right now.
And btw i woke up at 2AM and i'm still awake until now and i'm asking about what to do and how to deal with this problem because i really don't know how to talk with Satan and the demons.
And I AM A DEDICATED SATANIST like you all.
i guess all the protection i have is created by me.
and i see 3 numbers like each other which you all say that it's from the enemy like 222 333 444 555 777 888 999 etc. that's the only form of communication which i got. AND YOU ALL SAY THAT ITS FROM THE ENEMY
And why is the enemy trying so hard on me?
and why not aleast a demon showed up in my dreams?
and right now when tell me that the demons are protecting me it's like saying to a xian that the angles are protecting him but he never sees them and i will never believe anything which i didn't see from now on.
and i even might leave SS. i guess that's just an army which is created to fight the jews nothing more.
and i even think that the jews created SS to trap the gentiles and turn them in goym i'm very confused right now
and i know that most of the answers will be like Don't panic as long as you are dedicated you are safe. it's like telling a Muslim as long as you are a Muslim and you blow your self up you will be going to the 7th heaven.
and i'm going to re do the dedication for the third time just in case satan didn't notice it. btw i don't have access to any physical tools.
so i hope that i will get help for you all.