thanks for the support

[Kramer]

I'm almost ready to give up on my life. I thank everyone who supported and advised me. But for me it doesn't make sense for me to try to meditate, vibrate and other things to move forward, if I don't even have the strength to continue living. From the moment I don't even have the strength to live anymore, I clearly don't have the strength to do these things. Even because I don't have any spiritual power, so it would take a long time and I can't take this life anymore. I scream, agonize and beg for help, but in the end I have to do it myself to receive or deserve help. So it doesn't make sense to me, since I don't have the strength for anything anymore. I just can't take this damn life I live anymore. Really thank you for all the support I've had from you.

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

You feeling alone is not part of reality. You are not alone. You have the Gods, and you also have us here. I am a real person writing to you now as you can see.

In my opinion, you should describe your situation first. But I do believe you should focus on physical training first and foremost. I say this because it appears you are feeling weakness that can be solved by physical training. Then, you can do Hatha and Kundalini Yoga.

You feeling this way likely has to do with planetary transits that could be brutal. All the energy you spend on screaming, shouting and begging for help can be put into action. You must know that you are the one that must do this and you already know this.

What areas in your life have collapsed to where you are contemplating suicide? Or is your life well and you are just feeling negative things?

 

[Kramer]

You feeling alone is not part of reality. You are not alone. You have the Gods, and you also have us here. I am a real person writing to you now as you can see.

In my opinion, you should describe your situation first. But I do believe you should focus on physical training first and foremost. I say this because it appears you are feeling weakness that can be solved by physical training. Then, you can do Hatha and Kundalini Yoga.

You feeling this way likely has to do with planetary transits that could be brutal. All the energy you spend on screaming, shouting and begging for help can be put into action. You must know that you are the one that must do this and you already know this.

What areas in your life have collapsed to where you are contemplating suicide? Or is your life well and you are just feeling negative things?

My life is the problem. Hell started from the moment I was born. When I was born I almost died and they had to hospitalize me for 2 months. They had to find veins in my head and pierce them. I was never considered a normal kid, I didn't play with other kids, I just watched from afar, I wasn't interested in other kids. But at that same innocent and childish age, I already had strong crying spells, I spend sleepless nights telling myself that I've always been a failure and that when I grow up I'll continue to be trash. I don't know why I said these things at that age, I just spoke and felt a great pain inside me. As I grew up and had more contact with people, I started to be attacked from the outside, I mean by other people. They said horrible things to me, even to slit my throat and die. That way I started to develop serious depression problems, I tried suicide, but they managed to arrive in time and save me. The situation was so critical that it was dangerous to leave me alone. They destroyed my bedroom door, someone had to stay with me 24 hours a day so I wouldn't try something again. I started to wander around the house every night, back and forth, sometimes in crisis and sometimes without any reaction. After 3 or 4 years, I reached my 18th birthday... E. It seemed that I had changed, gained strength and that strength lasted for a long time, but suddenly I started to remember everything I felt and thought. It's as if life is waking me up and reminding me of the cruel truth of my existence. My home life wasn't very good either. And these last few years.. From 2020 onwards, only more horrible events have been happening. I can't get out of it. Last week I finally got a job after spending 3 years looking for it, but someone from there had the cruelty to lie about me and on my third day of training I lost my job... It was something extremely fast. And it felt like that job was really for me. Everyone around me also believed that because it was clear that this vacancy was for me, but someone took it away from me as quickly as possible. I can't leave the place, I can't conquer absolutely anything in my life, every time I try to meet someone to have at least a friendship, something bad happens. It doesn't matter who it is, when and where it is, the person is going to cause me something very bad at some point. No matter how much I've fought, I've never managed to get out of the place, I've never managed to have at least a short period of time other than this hell I've lived in since I was born. It's like I was born and everything was ready on what my life would be like from start to finish. No matter what I try to do, NOTHING succeeds when done by me. I can't choose anything in my life, I don't even have the right to dream. Well, life already destroys my dream right away. There's no use in me trying anything, not even sweeping the street, because life will take this job away from me right away. The only support I had was my mother, and life took away the only support I had. I am surrounded. It's like my life is being ruled by something much bigger and I'm just a ventriloquist condemned to live by the ropes. I just got tired of living this life.

 

[Endsieg_Enjoyer]

You feeling alone is not part of reality. You are not alone. You have the Gods, and you also have us here. I am a real person writing to you now as you can see.

In my opinion, you should describe your situation first. But I do believe you should focus on physical training first and foremost. I say this because it appears you are feeling weakness that can be solved by physical training. Then, you can do Hatha and Kundalini Yoga.

You feeling this way likely has to do with planetary transits that could be brutal. All the energy you spend on screaming, shouting and begging for help can be put into action. You must know that you are the one that must do this and you already know this.

What areas in your life have collapsed to where you are contemplating suicide? Or is your life well and you are just feeling negative things?

My life is the problem. Hell started from the moment I was born. When I was born I almost died and they had to hospitalize me for 2 months. They had to find veins in my head and pierce them. I was never considered a normal kid, I didn't play with other kids, I just watched from afar, I wasn't interested in other kids. But at that same innocent and childish age, I already had strong crying spells, I spend sleepless nights telling myself that I've always been a failure and that when I grow up I'll continue to be trash. I don't know why I said these things at that age, I just spoke and felt a great pain inside me. As I grew up and had more contact with people, I started to be attacked from the outside, I mean by other people. They said horrible things to me, even to slit my throat and die. That way I started to develop serious depression problems, I tried suicide, but they managed to arrive in time and save me. The situation was so critical that it was dangerous to leave me alone. They destroyed my bedroom door, someone had to stay with me 24 hours a day so I wouldn't try something again. I started to wander around the house every night, back and forth, sometimes in crisis and sometimes without any reaction. After 3 or 4 years, I reached my 18th birthday... E. It seemed that I had changed, gained strength and that strength lasted for a long time, but suddenly I started to remember everything I felt and thought. It's as if life is waking me up and reminding me of the cruel truth of my existence. My home life wasn't very good either. And these last few years.. From 2020 onwards, only more horrible events have been happening. I can't get out of it. Last week I finally got a job after spending 3 years looking for it, but someone from there had the cruelty to lie about me and on my third day of training I lost my job... It was something extremely fast. And it felt like that job was really for me. Everyone around me also believed that because it was clear that this vacancy was for me, but someone took it away from me as quickly as possible. I can't leave the place, I can't conquer absolutely anything in my life, every time I try to meet someone to have at least a friendship, something bad happens. It doesn't matter who it is, when and where it is, the person is going to cause me something very bad at some point. No matter how much I've fought, I've never managed to get out of the place, I've never managed to have at least a short period of time other than this hell I've lived in since I was born. It's like I was born and everything was ready on what my life would be like from start to finish. No matter what I try to do, NOTHING succeeds when done by me. I can't choose anything in my life, I don't even have the right to dream. Well, life already destroys my dream right away. There's no use in me trying anything, not even sweeping the street, because life will take this job away from me right away. The only support I had was my mother, and life took away the only support I had. I am surrounded. It's like my life is being ruled by something much bigger and I'm just a ventriloquist condemned to live by the ropes. I just got tired of living this life.

I have read of your situation, it seems you are going through some really bad transits and your mindset on the issue isn't helping. You should do the standard ritual to father Satan and state your needs and situation to him, ask him to guide you out of your present situation and promise in return consistent spiritual warfare(frtr). You could also do a ritual with finance daemons(Lucifuge Rofocale, Clauneck, Foras, Bune, Volac, etc...), ask them to help you find a stable job and promise spiritual warfare against the enemy or publicity(make sure to follow through with your promises). You say you have already found you Guardian daemon so consult them on the issue as well. On other posts you talked of getting a daemon lover, if you have one you can talk it over with them and they will also help. It is very important that you believe all will work out as that will manifest for you. I understand not everyone is in the situation to vibrate runes so don't worry about that now. If all you can do per day is frtr, aop and cleansing then do so, it is much better than doing nothing.

You should also consider doing daily affirmations when you wake up and before you go to sleep like "I always have the motivation to meditate", "I have a stable job", etc... Make your own to suit your needs. It might take a while but eventually your affirmations will come true. The gods are here for us when we are in bad situations, there is a reason you found JOS, the last thing they would want is for a dedicated Spiritual Satanist to take their own life. This will not solve any problems and once you reincarnate your problems will be even worse. You were put on the earth to solve your problems in this life. Trust in the gods and know everything will work out in the end, then it will. The gods will help you and invest in you so you can reach your maximum potential. Stop making negative statements about yourself as it will only manifest negative events, if you think these things just ignore it.

https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Ritual.html if you can't get the implements for this than either substitute some or do it mentally, if this can't be done meditate on fathers sigil and state your situation.

https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Prayer.html this should provide adequate protection for now.

https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/HELP.html you should be able to find a god who will help here. Even if you don't hear or sense them during prayer or invocation they are there and can hear you.

Hope this helps and best of luck. You will make it, don't give up.

 

[Endsieg_Enjoyer]

You feeling alone is not part of reality. You are not alone. You have the Gods, and you also have us here. I am a real person writing to you now as you can see.

In my opinion, you should describe your situation first. But I do believe you should focus on physical training first and foremost. I say this because it appears you are feeling weakness that can be solved by physical training. Then, you can do Hatha and Kundalini Yoga.

You feeling this way likely has to do with planetary transits that could be brutal. All the energy you spend on screaming, shouting and begging for help can be put into action. You must know that you are the one that must do this and you already know this.

What areas in your life have collapsed to where you are contemplating suicide? Or is your life well and you are just feeling negative things?

My life is the problem. Hell started from the moment I was born. When I was born I almost died and they had to hospitalize me for 2 months. They had to find veins in my head and pierce them. I was never considered a normal kid, I didn't play with other kids, I just watched from afar, I wasn't interested in other kids. But at that same innocent and childish age, I already had strong crying spells, I spend sleepless nights telling myself that I've always been a failure and that when I grow up I'll continue to be trash. I don't know why I said these things at that age, I just spoke and felt a great pain inside me. As I grew up and had more contact with people, I started to be attacked from the outside, I mean by other people. They said horrible things to me, even to slit my throat and die. That way I started to develop serious depression problems, I tried suicide, but they managed to arrive in time and save me. The situation was so critical that it was dangerous to leave me alone. They destroyed my bedroom door, someone had to stay with me 24 hours a day so I wouldn't try something again. I started to wander around the house every night, back and forth, sometimes in crisis and sometimes without any reaction. After 3 or 4 years, I reached my 18th birthday... E. It seemed that I had changed, gained strength and that strength lasted for a long time, but suddenly I started to remember everything I felt and thought. It's as if life is waking me up and reminding me of the cruel truth of my existence. My home life wasn't very good either. And these last few years.. From 2020 onwards, only more horrible events have been happening. I can't get out of it. Last week I finally got a job after spending 3 years looking for it, but someone from there had the cruelty to lie about me and on my third day of training I lost my job... It was something extremely fast. And it felt like that job was really for me. Everyone around me also believed that because it was clear that this vacancy was for me, but someone took it away from me as quickly as possible. I can't leave the place, I can't conquer absolutely anything in my life, every time I try to meet someone to have at least a friendship, something bad happens. It doesn't matter who it is, when and where it is, the person is going to cause me something very bad at some point. No matter how much I've fought, I've never managed to get out of the place, I've never managed to have at least a short period of time other than this hell I've lived in since I was born. It's like I was born and everything was ready on what my life would be like from start to finish. No matter what I try to do, NOTHING succeeds when done by me. I can't choose anything in my life, I don't even have the right to dream. Well, life already destroys my dream right away. There's no use in me trying anything, not even sweeping the street, because life will take this job away from me right away. The only support I had was my mother, and life took away the only support I had. I am surrounded. It's like my life is being ruled by something much bigger and I'm just a ventriloquist condemned to live by the ropes. I just got tired of living this life.

I also forgot to mention that their are plenty of online jobs out there that don't require any experience or even skill such as data entry, call center, etc... On a different thread somebody posted a useful link about this but I can't find it, perhaps somebody else can. This would solve your current locations lack of jobs, so consider it as an option. Even if you have to take a really low paid and grueling job in your area it would still be an improvement, think of it as a step toward real wealth, you have to start somewhere.

 

[Dark Blue Eye]

If you want to change your life it's enough to live according to the principles of Spiritual Satanism, then the power will come. If you think all the persons around are mean then this is exactly what you will attract towards you. Let me tell a secret, nobody wants to be angry or mean, most people want to joke and have a little fun when they someone. Some people are really mean, but that's their problem. Some people are in a bad mood, but this can be changed if they meet a person in a good mood. All you need to do is to control your thoughs and stop the negative ones. Is not easy, but is necessary to learn and a base principle in SS

As it said the article about Beelzebul's quote. This kind of struggles can show you how far you can go, if you flip the coin. Image what a charismatic person you will become and how much you will enjoy life in the end, because you worked in that area have a greater understanding. Is a long and hard road, but is rewarding. All you need to do is looking in the mirror and work in the areas where you think you are lacking something

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I'm almost ready to give up on my life. I thank everyone who supported and advised me. But for me it doesn't make sense for me to try to meditate, vibrate and other things to move forward, if I don't even have the strength to continue living. From the moment I don't even have the strength to live anymore, I clearly don't have the strength to do these things. Even because I don't have any spiritual power, so it would take a long time and I can't take this life anymore. I scream, agonize and beg for help, but in the end I have to do it myself to receive or deserve help. So it doesn't make sense to me, since I don't have the strength for anything anymore. I just can't take this damn life I live anymore. Really thank you for all the support I've had from you.

Your current thoughts are based simply on a lack of energy at this current time, not on your total life's potential. In reality, you are so much more to both us, and the Gods, but you cannot see it right now. Regardless, we are sensitive to your suffering, and therefore are trying to be here for you, as much as we can be.

Your perception is is like if I had a car without any gas in the tank, and I claimed it was useless like a rock. In reality, all it needed was some energy. The same is true now, especially if you are not keeping up your spiritual activities.

So please, do not jump to such extreme conclusions. Instead, try out some very basic ways to empower yourself, such as the Breath of Fire.
Similarly, you can chant Sowilo directly into your solar chakra, and program it to improve your optimism. This will work even if you are relatively new. Chant it perhaps 20 or 40 times.

From here, you may feel like you have the energy to continue other activities, such as cleaning, empowerment, and later you can start workings to attract wealth and other conditions. Then, life will not seem so hard anymore, believe me.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

...

It is evident that you had some bad karma against you, but this does not reflect you as much as outside forces. It is not you who is at fault, but these other people who attacked you. However, you still need to clear out this trauma from your soul.

All of these meditation activities directly change your fate in life, that is why we are asking you to please try them. Your life you have been subject to much negative energy, but now you finally have the chance to turn that around. Therefore, do not give up now, especially if you are still a beginner in your abilities!

When I look at your situation, I am now glad that you can recognize people supporting you. To me, this seems like a positive thing, where you finally have the positive people around you, which you deserve. Many people here do read and empathize with you, especially the Gods.