I have noticed that for the past week or two I have been a bit stumped with my Spiritual Journey. I have been consistently doing my 6 month program and my daily morning and night aura Cleanse and Strengthen, yet I feel this strange feeling of tiredness/hate. It as if meditation has become a chore and not something I truly enjoy doing. It doesn't happen all the time, sometimes I do like meditating, but many times, it feels as if the meditations doesn't do much for me. I always remind myself of the long lasting effect in the future and how this will benefit me and that is what brings me to do the meditations every day. A Spiritual Stump is very normal event to happen but it still makes me feel as if Im betraying the Gods and am not putting in my full effort. If anyone has any advice of how to deal with these harsh emotions, I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you and HAIL SATAN!!!!!
We all feel this from time to time. Advancement isn’t linear. One day you’ll feel bliss, happy, and high in bioelectricity and another you might feel tired, bored, headache, etc.
What helps is, to be understanding and don’t be harsh on yourself or worry about it too much.
Don’t push yourself, and have easy days where you meditate a bit less in intensity/time.
Also, relax, enjoy it, and don’t think too much about results/future/ideals.
Meditation is relaxing, enjoyable, calming, empowering, and blissful.
So it’s important to let go of all worries, doubts, and thinking and just enjoy the present moment of meditation.
How does your chakra feel when you’re cleaning it?, etc.
Make it easy for yourself, if you’re seeing meditation as a chore and burden you might get distracted by high-dopamine time-wasting activities and procrastinate, which will lead to doing meditations later, staying up late, and over all mental turmoil.
If meditation as a task, is in your head it torments you, when it’s already done it’s a good feeling that you already did what you had to do, so don’t procrastinate and do it first thing in the morning or when you can and an hour or so before getting ready for bed.
Perfectionism will hurt you, don’t try to do the perfect meditation session, sometimes good enough or you did your best for the energy you had at that day is all you need.
Also, there’s no such thing as you betraying the Gods or whatever. Shame/guilt is a cunt and will destroy you if you let it so throw it in the garbage bin and be understanding and realistic towards yourself.
The Gods understand everything and more, they are not a sadistic Jesus Christ that’ll whip you if you don’t pray or something.
Play the long game, and to play the long game you shouldn’t be harsh on yourself regarding these things. Take a breath, relax, and do what needs to be done.
