whenemmafallsinlove
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- Aug 10, 2023
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I have been raped and groomed since the age of 4 by my mother's boyfriend. No one knows that except my friends. I even tried to tell my mother but she didn't believed it. I am scared about the society too. That man is also very powerful so my voice will be shut down. I feel nothing towards him, I don't hate him. I hate no one in my life. I just feel that there is no justice. That man has wisdom and he is cunning, he does meditation, it feels like God is always on his side because he had survived death countless times whether it's his accident or operation. He has wealth, a respected position in the society and a great family. What about me? I have trauma and a lot of pain that I can't ease. It's like I am angry at my fate, if there is a God, why does he allows things like these to happen? I have been dealing with thus since I just 4 years old. What was my fault? Why me? And I know there are more miserable people like me in this world but my pain hurts me a lot too. Is the fate of life is to be sad and life is a constant cycle of pain amd we need to escape it by following the right path? Why do humans like him exist? Everything works according to God's plan right? Then why? I just feel hopeless in all matters. I had no control over those situations. I just can't feel okay. It's always haunting me. It's like something is always behind me that takes away all the happiness or light. If one thing would be different, will everything be different today? Was I bad person in my past life and it's the karma of that life? I hope someone provide me clarity.