Something I’ve wondered about others who’ve meditated a while. I’ve been meditating for years and I’ve advanced a lot and have made much progress in personal development. One thing I never bothered working on cause for the most part it hasn’t bothered me much is my incredible shyness and social anxiety. I’m not the greatest with connecting with others and having conversation. I’m kind of awkward I think.
I was talking to some folks the other day and my meek demeanor seemed to really irritate them. They were strong and forthright. And my opposite disposition made them behave so superior to me. After this encounter, I thought huh? This isn’t the first time I’ve encountered such a person. This happens routinely when ever I do step out and encounter strangers. It happens so frequently it makes me question my own soul strength. Like why I do I find it so hard to insert myself into the world? I’m more comfortable to just be in my own space. And in the real world, people instinctively try to steamroll over me. I wonder is shyness or meekness a sign of a weak soul. I’ve always been this way. But I don’t feel weak at all and in fact I should note though my demeanor makes people try and take advantage of me or push me around it NEVER works. I feel like I’m impossible to push around. I do feel I have strength of spirit from years of meditation. But it’s not sensed by others on first impressions. It’s only after a while do I get respect. Most often my reserved demeanor makes others not want to bother with me unless they have to. I’m told regularly I’m attractive but girls usually are disinterested based on my meek personality I believe. Which is fine but it just makes me curious. Why do people see so little in me and underestimate me so much? I just wonder if the two are correlated. My shyness and strength of soul. It’s ironic cause as people get to know me, I often get compliments on my mental fortitude and strength. But it takes a while to be noticed.
Others have this situation?
I’m in the throws of some difficult projects at the moment that I didn’t question my ability to accomplish until recently. Now I’m questioning it all.
I was talking to some folks the other day and my meek demeanor seemed to really irritate them. They were strong and forthright. And my opposite disposition made them behave so superior to me. After this encounter, I thought huh? This isn’t the first time I’ve encountered such a person. This happens routinely when ever I do step out and encounter strangers. It happens so frequently it makes me question my own soul strength. Like why I do I find it so hard to insert myself into the world? I’m more comfortable to just be in my own space. And in the real world, people instinctively try to steamroll over me. I wonder is shyness or meekness a sign of a weak soul. I’ve always been this way. But I don’t feel weak at all and in fact I should note though my demeanor makes people try and take advantage of me or push me around it NEVER works. I feel like I’m impossible to push around. I do feel I have strength of spirit from years of meditation. But it’s not sensed by others on first impressions. It’s only after a while do I get respect. Most often my reserved demeanor makes others not want to bother with me unless they have to. I’m told regularly I’m attractive but girls usually are disinterested based on my meek personality I believe. Which is fine but it just makes me curious. Why do people see so little in me and underestimate me so much? I just wonder if the two are correlated. My shyness and strength of soul. It’s ironic cause as people get to know me, I often get compliments on my mental fortitude and strength. But it takes a while to be noticed.
Others have this situation?
I’m in the throws of some difficult projects at the moment that I didn’t question my ability to accomplish until recently. Now I’m questioning it all.