Hi everybody,
I am a Satanist and a member here since about 12 years and I have a question.
I started with Autogenic training when I was 14 years old and discovered that I could move things without touching them. Later on I began Transzendental Meditation and had spontaneous OBEs. At that time I was a student at the university and my major was Quatum Physics.
But then one night I was bored and I just wanted to leave my body for good. So I relaxed and then concentrated all my energy between my eyes. I saw this huge dark space surrounding me, but suddenly there was a blue ray like a laser beam, that raced towards me. I tried to avoid it, but it was too late. This beam hit me in the middle of my forehead.
I immediately got up and looked in the mirror, but there was absolutely nothing! So, I went to sleep and tried to forget the whole thing.
But then there was the new day and I found out, that all my mental powers were gone. When I read a book I could not remember the beginning of the book page when I reached the end of the page. My energies, my concentration everything was gone.
Well over the years I discovered that I have certain powers in my hands and used them to enforce my concentration. I exercise three hours a day, but I am still losing energy fast.
This problem keeps me from making any real progress
Is there something I can do to fix this problem?
I am a Satanist and a member here since about 12 years and I have a question.
I started with Autogenic training when I was 14 years old and discovered that I could move things without touching them. Later on I began Transzendental Meditation and had spontaneous OBEs. At that time I was a student at the university and my major was Quatum Physics.
But then one night I was bored and I just wanted to leave my body for good. So I relaxed and then concentrated all my energy between my eyes. I saw this huge dark space surrounding me, but suddenly there was a blue ray like a laser beam, that raced towards me. I tried to avoid it, but it was too late. This beam hit me in the middle of my forehead.
I immediately got up and looked in the mirror, but there was absolutely nothing! So, I went to sleep and tried to forget the whole thing.
But then there was the new day and I found out, that all my mental powers were gone. When I read a book I could not remember the beginning of the book page when I reached the end of the page. My energies, my concentration everything was gone.
Well over the years I discovered that I have certain powers in my hands and used them to enforce my concentration. I exercise three hours a day, but I am still losing energy fast.
This problem keeps me from making any real progress
Is there something I can do to fix this problem?