Yeah, Father Satan saved my ass. Again.
Basically I lost sight of the path. I got wrapped up in this guy, Dillion, that I fell in love with. He basically took me away from the world and controlled me to the point I wasn't even thinking about Father anymore. And when I did talk about 'satanic' things, Dillion would get extremely pissed. He cut me off from all my friends, and if I did go see them, I had to keep it a secret. My uncle was worried that Dillion was controlling me, but I didnt see it that way, I was blinded by love and loyalty.
But Dillion made my cry. Alot. And I just dont cry. I'm not that type of person. And I always had this feeling around him, its hard to explain, but I felt like I needed to be aggressive to him. So about a month ago he tells me he needs to take a break because I'm mentally abusive. Obviously I was tore up. But I thought wed be together again since he said it was a break, so I waited. Five days later my dad tells me Dillion has a new gf. I just couldnt take it. I really didnt want to live at that point. But everytime I would think about ending it, this comforting warmth would just stop me. and last friday night i begged Father to help me get Dillion back. And I knew he was listening. I could just feel it, you know? The very next night, the very first guy I ever had a serious relationship with hit me up on fb.
It was like Father knew what I needed. Because this guy is pretty much everything I ever needed. Ive already told him about Spiritual Satanism, something I never came out and told Dillion, and he's totally cool with it, even interested in it. He doesn't make me feel like I need to be aggressive at all, I feel perfectly calm and safe with him. And he's not the least bit controlling. It just feels... right.
And I just found out yesterday that my ex, Dillion, he's a jew. Yup.
So thank you Father for once again saving me from my stupid decisions and getting me back on the correct path!
HAIL FATHER SATAN!
Basically I lost sight of the path. I got wrapped up in this guy, Dillion, that I fell in love with. He basically took me away from the world and controlled me to the point I wasn't even thinking about Father anymore. And when I did talk about 'satanic' things, Dillion would get extremely pissed. He cut me off from all my friends, and if I did go see them, I had to keep it a secret. My uncle was worried that Dillion was controlling me, but I didnt see it that way, I was blinded by love and loyalty.
But Dillion made my cry. Alot. And I just dont cry. I'm not that type of person. And I always had this feeling around him, its hard to explain, but I felt like I needed to be aggressive to him. So about a month ago he tells me he needs to take a break because I'm mentally abusive. Obviously I was tore up. But I thought wed be together again since he said it was a break, so I waited. Five days later my dad tells me Dillion has a new gf. I just couldnt take it. I really didnt want to live at that point. But everytime I would think about ending it, this comforting warmth would just stop me. and last friday night i begged Father to help me get Dillion back. And I knew he was listening. I could just feel it, you know? The very next night, the very first guy I ever had a serious relationship with hit me up on fb.
It was like Father knew what I needed. Because this guy is pretty much everything I ever needed. Ive already told him about Spiritual Satanism, something I never came out and told Dillion, and he's totally cool with it, even interested in it. He doesn't make me feel like I need to be aggressive at all, I feel perfectly calm and safe with him. And he's not the least bit controlling. It just feels... right.
And I just found out yesterday that my ex, Dillion, he's a jew. Yup.
So thank you Father for once again saving me from my stupid decisions and getting me back on the correct path!
HAIL FATHER SATAN!
