I wish Maxine would have written more about mental illness in regards to Satanism. I'm very interested in the causes of things like bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and psychosis in general, as well as what someone who has one of these diagnoses should do as they pursue godhead. I know on one of the power meditations pages she says to not proceed with some of the meditations (the opening chakras) if you are on psychiatric medications, but she doesn't say what will happen if you do, nor does she specify a type of psychiatric medication.
I am diagnosed bipolar--have been for over a decade--and I am currently on a monthly Invega injection (antipsychotic) and 200 mg daily of Lamictal (an anti-epileptic prescribed to me as a mood stabilizer). I'm just starting to do the power meditations, and I'm wondering how much my situation will affect my progress/journey. Rather than depression, my main problem if I'm off of meds has been manic episodes where I either become delusional and impulsive, at worst, or I lose track of time and live in fantasy land (not eating/bathing and instead live in my head) at best. These manic episodes are usually preceded and accompanied by insomnia.
My psychiatrist is pretty cool, though. He even let me try going med-free recently, although this was before I decided to get into any sort of meditations. The attempt failed, with me becoming insomniac and unable to function (eat, bathe, etc.) once the Invega was out of my system, experiencing a mixture of anxiety and an inability to tune out "voices" (not sure how much were imagined and how much were actual entities). We hadn't even touched my Lamictal yet, as we were weaning me one med at a time. Eventually, I got sick of the "voices" pestering me, and I volunteered to go back on the Invega so I could go back to living a normal life. I was very sad in making this decision. However, I am on a low dose of Invega (78 mg, the second to lowest dose) and my psychiatrist is even willing to let me be on the lowest dose (39 mg). For reference, most psychiatrists don't let a patient go below 117 mg with Invega. He lets me keep Ambien and a low-dose prescription of Zyprexa on hand for emergencies, particularly for when I experience insomnia that could lead into mania (unfortunately, neither of these really helped during my recent episode, hence why I volunteered to go back on my injection).
I am now doing void meditations (something which I now see I should have started doing long ago), aura cleansing, chakra alignment and spinning, breath of fire, and I've even been so bold as to start the opening the soul/opening the chakras, despite the warning not to proceed while on psychiatric meds without the okay from a physician. It didn't say why, or what type of psychiatric med, and I doubted my psychiatrist would care, doubting he would understand it (if anything, he'd probably think "meditation" and be like, "yeah, meditation is good!" lol).
So if too little energy causes depression, what causes mania? Too much energy? How does one address that (especially if it's episodic)? How should one proceed with awakening kundalini in a situation like mine? And how/when to wean off of meds?
I am diagnosed bipolar--have been for over a decade--and I am currently on a monthly Invega injection (antipsychotic) and 200 mg daily of Lamictal (an anti-epileptic prescribed to me as a mood stabilizer). I'm just starting to do the power meditations, and I'm wondering how much my situation will affect my progress/journey. Rather than depression, my main problem if I'm off of meds has been manic episodes where I either become delusional and impulsive, at worst, or I lose track of time and live in fantasy land (not eating/bathing and instead live in my head) at best. These manic episodes are usually preceded and accompanied by insomnia.
My psychiatrist is pretty cool, though. He even let me try going med-free recently, although this was before I decided to get into any sort of meditations. The attempt failed, with me becoming insomniac and unable to function (eat, bathe, etc.) once the Invega was out of my system, experiencing a mixture of anxiety and an inability to tune out "voices" (not sure how much were imagined and how much were actual entities). We hadn't even touched my Lamictal yet, as we were weaning me one med at a time. Eventually, I got sick of the "voices" pestering me, and I volunteered to go back on the Invega so I could go back to living a normal life. I was very sad in making this decision. However, I am on a low dose of Invega (78 mg, the second to lowest dose) and my psychiatrist is even willing to let me be on the lowest dose (39 mg). For reference, most psychiatrists don't let a patient go below 117 mg with Invega. He lets me keep Ambien and a low-dose prescription of Zyprexa on hand for emergencies, particularly for when I experience insomnia that could lead into mania (unfortunately, neither of these really helped during my recent episode, hence why I volunteered to go back on my injection).
I am now doing void meditations (something which I now see I should have started doing long ago), aura cleansing, chakra alignment and spinning, breath of fire, and I've even been so bold as to start the opening the soul/opening the chakras, despite the warning not to proceed while on psychiatric meds without the okay from a physician. It didn't say why, or what type of psychiatric med, and I doubted my psychiatrist would care, doubting he would understand it (if anything, he'd probably think "meditation" and be like, "yeah, meditation is good!" lol).
So if too little energy causes depression, what causes mania? Too much energy? How does one address that (especially if it's episodic)? How should one proceed with awakening kundalini in a situation like mine? And how/when to wean off of meds?