Time for one long ass post now...
Sure ill just smile and fake happy and everything is better now. Maybe when I was 19. I Dedicated to Satan and started off on a path 13 years ago. All I have done is make shitty situations and be lied too and manipulated by every friend ive ever known.
Aldrick, once I felt your energies and made one huge weird reply about how we should not be alone. It was not about me completely. I wanted to reach out to you too. I told you that we must stop with this bullshit basically. I know that it feels the best to be isolated with our Guardians and Demon friends, but we must step outside of our comfort zone again.
Yeah I have those empath problems sometimes, there were times where I would feel like I will go insane because of the huge amount of other people's bullshit inside of my head. Everyone manipulated me in some way, I felt like crap.
Trying to raise my sexual energy while being full of my dirt and picking it from others was not a good idea. But I am okay now I am saner than ever now, but, I am mad, not gonna lie. The amount of hate and negative feels and thoughts I picked was too damn high. They turned me against myself several times in life, it was hard. I have some self-hate and others almost destroyed me completely.
For few months sexual energy was trying to raise, breaking me as crazy. All my life I felt so alone, I usually was isolated, and when my serpent activated and all this happened, I started feeling the need to finally try something again and to fit in, but bad timing I guess. I pushed things too hard while being totally unbalanced.
I never felt so bad in my life. I never felt so alone. For those few months I felt suffocating sadness and loneliness, I thought I will just kill myself or something, but luckily I had someone from here to look out for me and to reach to me. Now I calmed down and realized how glad I am that I have still someone with me and I will try to be even better friend for him.
Sometimes humans can understand us, rarely, but there are some. Empaths are abused often and played upon, controlled, feared and hard to understand.
People often lack empathy to understand each other, which is why we start acting crazy and hurting each other all the time. Luckly, I can understand people usually, and I can see what is happening with them, reason why I feel and understand your pain. I am really sorry to see someone getting carried away with similar bad emotions. I don't want you to leave us nor for you to be isolated. I care about you and I love you brother, lot of other people do.
Everybody here has a valid point tho. You make mistakes, other people make mistakes, I make mistakes. We all are learning and growing here still. What matters is to understand that we all here are deeply connected and that we love our Gods and our family and that we are trying our best to advance.
Sometimes there are days when we can't do many RTR's also or meditate our ass off. It would be bad for our health in some cases.. but when we can, we should try our best. I will try to be better too. At least one or two RTR's are really good too in my opinion, if done right, and then more if we can. I don't think people stopped doing rituals, just some people are busy during summer time. But I think it's okay to motivate people to do more, lot of people also need motivation, but not to do more than they can. So yeah giving others motivation is fine in my opinion
You have one fatal Pisces influences. But I think you already know that. You tend to be really connected to others and you tend to feel the pain of the world which can be really troublesome. But, don't give more than you can, as this world needs you too. Trust in yourself and in the Gods, trust in your family too, as we are also trying and we will stop this pain in this world soon.
During my lifetimes I always would find a group of people and I also would like to bring people together, people who want to be spiritual and to be closer to our old pagan ways. I remember how often things would go wrong, reaallyyy wrong but also, sometimes it was really good and some people were decent and everything would be fine. So, I think people should stop being all black and white, sometimes having friends from here and talking in private, having groups and covens can be really good. Actually, those groups are devastating to the enemy, reason why enemy is targeting those as crazy, trying to ruin it from the inside. Running groups, covens and even having something like forums like ours is pissing enemy like crazy. We need to be really careful with those things but not to stop it completely. They are trying to manipulate people and to turn them against each other, to make them go insane and to isolate them again.
We here are bringed together in a way, yeah. Even on forums here we are being together and connected. We are connected with group consciousness on some level. I can see it clearly on the Astral how we are connected, it's beautiful. Even those who aren't talkative they are part of the family. This is our home, and our home is big. For some people it's harder to fit in, for some it's easier, but this is all we have.
Adaptation is the key. We should not isolate ourselves and cry somehewhere alone in the corner, letting enemy to manipulate us with the pain in our hearts that we are letting inside.
So brother you need to let that pain go.
Many many others including myself are having hard times and same pain is trying to crush us. Enemy is trying to get us on their side or to destroy us. I am aware of the curse that is put on our family, and I can see it's toxins spreading here on forums too. Your behaviour, your emotions, your thoughts and words are matching as some people had here. I felt the same, wanted to be isolated, cried out loud, wanted to cut off remaining contacts before few weeks, I acted retarded, lost some people or pushed them away from me idk even why actually.
Vibration of the curse I often can feel in our family is matching as vibration of some types of dirts, hang-ups and frustrations, so I think we should pay more attention to this, so we don't end up being manipulated by the enemy and isolated and hurt. Void ofc helps here, cleaning and also to have someone to talk to who can be patient with us.
Sometimes we are troublesome, sometimes others are, but we must all advance, as individuals and as a group. When you see that something is wrong in others, you should help them at least to see it. We should help each other. We should make our family even better and greater. You told me to channel Hitler's energies and I will now. You think Hitler gave up when He saw how He is different and when He saw how hard will it be to fit in? Do you think He gave up from His dreams when he saw how people might hate Him for His every step and how hard it will be? He also had it hard but He didn't gave up. Lot of people hated Him, feared Him, thought bad about our Antichrist. And look at how many people are scared and confused and how many people hate Him now.
He found people similar to Him and they together changed the world. Together, I note, and Gods helped them.
I am weirdo myself, people don't like me often, people will have bad thoughts about this now, but I will try to adapt, but also I must be who I am. I will try my best not to be isolated. Communication is often pain in the ass, finding nice people for us even harder, but we got this bro. Step by step and we all are changing ourselves, our family and our world to the better. Even when our loved ones are attacking us we can look at their souls to see why they did it, and I am sure we will always find some common sense and mutual understanding.
People here don't want you to leave. I actually want to be your friend. Many people want to, they are just afraid and not sure what to do about that. And looking how nasty things can be in private that is to expect. Shael is my friend also so feel free to send him an e-mail and to ask him for mine. You don't even have to answer this all, just saying you shouldn't be alone nor anybody from our family. I know you often push people away because you tend to be scared too sometimes but you can find nice friends and you can be accepted. In time you will find what you need.