Dalacos said:
So to start with this is what I can gather about myself and my background which may give some perspective. Also just wanted to say if this should go into health I am sorry I'll repost there if asked too. Anyways I grew up with a dad who can't control his temper. He jumps around screaming yelling and loves loves loves fighting. Now granted he never took his physical aggression out on me as much as he wanted but only because my mom, for all her issues, protected me from that; but he really regrets not being able to. He always says I never got spanked and put in my place enough as a kid (in regards to any of my 'rebellious nature') along with the 'fact' (in his mind it is a fact) "some 'smart' people on the internet made you not believe in god so fuck off with that bullshit they brainwashed you". Which is just funny from an outsider standpoint. However I seem to not be able to express my rage. I was always meek and preferred words to violence unless it was a game. I never liked to physically hurt someone if it was serious. Im sure that was turn the other cheek programming, but it is on such a level i cant seem to really feel rage or for that matter emotions very deeply. I am not a sociopath because I felt them very very deeply once its just now its like numb. Sorta dull even. Are there any workings that will help. I assume Satanma along with Munka will help for sure but anything else that will really help. Could it be from my throat Chakra being blocked or even a deep seeded psychological recursion loop?
Hello Sweetie. You are young and of a passive personality.
You see what youll learn is no one respects you. They will use and abuse you to no end. So what you need to do is simple.
Start working out and get bug and strong. Then get mean. Tell him to shove his worthless jew on a stick up his ass with the other shit where it belongs.
If he approaches. Knock him the fuck out. Then when he wakes up, he will be very hesitant to try and walk on you.
He sounds like a little bitch trying to pick on a child or someone weaker then him. Beat the shit out of him as many times as it takes, usually only once. Then verbally assualt him worse.
Then he will want to be your best friend. Be all nice to you. I use to get the shit beat out of me in school. Like hockey stick beat downs. Then my mars activated and I tried to maim and kill them. Suddenly they were all my best buds.
Oh hey man, come sit with us. I would have went to jail if I grew up in this decade. There was only one I never could get back at. Tough motherfucker.
Then I had to keep learning this same lesson all my life. Be nice to people and they will treat you like a dog. You knock the fuck out of this motherfucker one time, he will shut the fuck up.
Theyre weak. Dont let bullies fool you. Ive had people I thought would kick my ass, tremble just from me getting angry.
I had two black guys try and jump me walkin down the street. They were good size and had like this piece of wood for a weapon. I was like finally. I can take my anger out on you. You couldnt have picked a better time. This was I think 07.
I was excited to fight. They stopped dead in their tracks and ran away. They want someone weak that will cower to pick on. So when you are all like I dont like violence, I like words blah blah blah.
That is what invites him to treat you like that. Dont hide behind your mom. Show him that your ready to beat his ass into the ground and believe me he will leave you the fuck alone.
Cowardly bullies do not take much. It might just be you not backing down to him. Charge forward at him. Yell.
Hes looking for a little mommas boy to pick on. You show him a man that could kick his ass. He will be done.