sublimesatanist
Active member
Hello all. I've been getting this very weird feeling with RTRs lately.
I keep getting flooded with negative emotions that make me feel anger, disgust and lament. I get this surprisingly powerful feeling from the Hebrew letters, yet it feels perverted and evil. I pondered why after an RTR today and I had this thought that popped in my mind that said "Egypt" so I Googled it:
Is Hebrew related to Egyptian?
Yes, Hebrew is related to ancient Egyptian. Both are Afro-Asiatic languages. Hebrew is more closely related to Modern Egyptian Arabic (both are Semitic languages).
They even stole elements of the ancient Egyptian language! Unreal... I thank you, our Father Satan, for this revelation.
I guess my question is are these feelings normal? It's getting to a point where doing RTRs is very unpleasant but I keep pushing through. It just sometimes feels like I'm hitting my head against a wall.
The only relief is after my affirmations and then after cleaning. During cleaning I'm noticing my energy doesn't flow smoothly like it normally does and I keep visualizing this sticky black stuff, almost like tar. It takes a lot of effort to get this stuff completely out of me.
Does anyone know where this stuff comes from? I'm thinking it must be daily exposure to people... I see a lot of people everyday.
One final question: Where should I visualize my chakra points? I'm finding it's easier to visualize them directly in front of the spine, near the centre of the body, yet I've read somewhere that they should be in the spine. I have this tendency to see that as the entry-point, same as the front/torso. Any thoughts there?
Thanks for reading and I'm sorry for so many questions.
I keep getting flooded with negative emotions that make me feel anger, disgust and lament. I get this surprisingly powerful feeling from the Hebrew letters, yet it feels perverted and evil. I pondered why after an RTR today and I had this thought that popped in my mind that said "Egypt" so I Googled it:
Is Hebrew related to Egyptian?
Yes, Hebrew is related to ancient Egyptian. Both are Afro-Asiatic languages. Hebrew is more closely related to Modern Egyptian Arabic (both are Semitic languages).
They even stole elements of the ancient Egyptian language! Unreal... I thank you, our Father Satan, for this revelation.
I guess my question is are these feelings normal? It's getting to a point where doing RTRs is very unpleasant but I keep pushing through. It just sometimes feels like I'm hitting my head against a wall.
The only relief is after my affirmations and then after cleaning. During cleaning I'm noticing my energy doesn't flow smoothly like it normally does and I keep visualizing this sticky black stuff, almost like tar. It takes a lot of effort to get this stuff completely out of me.
Does anyone know where this stuff comes from? I'm thinking it must be daily exposure to people... I see a lot of people everyday.
One final question: Where should I visualize my chakra points? I'm finding it's easier to visualize them directly in front of the spine, near the centre of the body, yet I've read somewhere that they should be in the spine. I have this tendency to see that as the entry-point, same as the front/torso. Any thoughts there?
Thanks for reading and I'm sorry for so many questions.