AskSatanOperator said:
I would like to date, but I think that I am too ugly and ridiculous for that and that I need to be pretty to be loved. But I would like to have experiences and live this side of life a little..
I'm sure you're not *that* ugly. It seems more like a self-confidence problem and a lack of self-care. You have no idea how better looking you can get just by doing some changes in your life. What makes you think you're ugly and ridiculous? Besides, you don't have to be pretty to be loved.
But here are some things you can do: get a new haircut, trim your beard, change your style, go to the gym, eat healthy, have good hygiene, don't smoke, drink, or do drugs, don't dress like a cave man, have manners, ethics, you know, be someone a lady would be interested in. Unless you just want to get laid, in that case just go to your local pub or whatever and talk with someone, it's that easy, even if you're not confident, you can just act like you are.
Assuming you're meditating daily, perhaps you should consider doing some work on your Solar Chakra, either vibrating Sowilo, Raum, Suryae, or the Sun Square... you got the idea. The Solar Chakra Rules confidence. You can also go for the Venus Square as it rules beauty, but it seems more like a case of lack of confidence and social anxiety of some sort.