AskSatanOperator
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After I moved away from home, I haven't been doing the meditations properly, but I've taken part in the rituals with the effort I'd saved up. It's all been strange and I'm physically very weak and I'll probably start to get psychologically weak soon. I feel bad because I'm not speaking properly to Father Satan or my guardian, but there isn't a day that goes by that I don't remember them with love and I always try to send a message of love. I love Father Satan and I've always told him that no matter what I go through or anything, I'll never forget him or the gods. But I'm starting to get that feeling of guilt and that they're not with me anymore, I don't feel him anymore. I think I can hear him quite well mentally but I'm not sure because it might be my created mind. I never wanted or felt like leaving dad Satan or here, I am his daughter and always will be no matter what, but I don't know if he still wants me. I was reluctant to write this and send it but I'm exhausted