Question #270: the waite

[AskSatanOperator]

I have been committed to Joy of Satan for 7 years , I am so grateful for this site because it took me out of ignorance onto the path of immortality , My journey with the god Lucifer was special and I had many spiritual experiences , Throughout this period I have been reading about meditations, rituals, deities and everything on this site over and over again , My goal has always been to complete my studies, get a job, become financially independent, and leave the family home so that I can develop spiritually , Then I added to that work on the Internet, but so far I have not fulfilled my desire, but I continue to walk , The problem that happened to me is that I lost passion, I lost all my feelings, I became like a robot, working to reach my goal and only that , And the reason for that is that I used to start the meditation program and then stop and start again and stop thousands and hundreds of times , The maximum stage I reached in the 6-month meditation program is that I completed 2 months , This repetition and repetition shattered my soul and made me rigid without feelings, like a robot. I became wanting to create a comfort zone away from all the problems of life and start again , My biggest hindrance is that my enemies weren't ordinary people, they were witch Jews , As if the reptiles sent them to me on purpose and pre-planned , But the gods took incredible revenge on me and got me out of that quagmire , My family has moved out of that whole town , And I moved in with them , The last two years are much better than before , Now my way is safer to reach my goal , What I want from brothers is advice that makes me feel better , Is it normal for me to wait until I arrive and continue on my way without any feelings , I think in order to reach my goal it takes 3 years , All this time waiting, that's a lot , I do not see that during this period I will find rest for the sake of spiritual and physical development. 7 years ago it was like this, and from my experience I see that it still takes 3 years. I work as hard as I can and I will continue to work in this manner , And I will repeat the meditation until the coming years , I do not deny that I have felt the power of the gods many times. It will not be enough for me to write to you about that now , I know that the gods know what I suffer from, and I know their understanding, and always, every day and every minute, I act as if I am showing them my martyrdom , But my robotic way of thinking and my completely frozen feelings became a barrier in my communication with the gods , But I will work to awaken my soul again .

Thanks to all the moderators of this great site.All love to The Great father Satan Hail SatanHail Lucifer

 

[Hs666]

Yes, coolness can sometimes be a "quality" that is needed or must be developed to achieve one's goals, but this is "Dual".

It depends on what kind of "coldness" you are "developing". If you notice that it is "Negative" in nature, you must modify it, working on yourself and on the period in question you are experiencing.

Keep in mind that this is connected with Saturn, so you have to be careful in your assessment.
Keep meditating, don't try to overdo it, use the time available for essential things, spiritually speaking if time is short.

Let the Gods guide you, if you need it, to better deal with the situation.
Don't worry about your current communication "coldness" with them. As long as your intention is innocent, it's ok.
They already know everything.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I've done lots of repetitive tasks for my obligations without going insane. The important part is to not burn yourself out.

Runes like Nauthiz and Sowilo can give you the ability to be consistent and drive, respectively: Blitzkreig [JG]: Sowilo vs Nauthiz for Productivity

No, it is not normal to exist without feelings or anything like that. If this was due to damage from the enemy, then it will heal as you continue to clean and do other basic advancement activities. If it was due to overwork, then the above runes will make it easier for you to work without burning out.

Not sure if you have already tried Yoga, but I find it relaxing and the opposite of "work" that may make me feel robotic: Lydia [JG]: "What does Yoga do?"

It may be likely that you have some hangups in these areas of either your emotions or thinking patterns. Look at your natal chart and see if there are any major negative aspects to your Moon or Mercury. You may want to do a freeing working about this.