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Question #211: The Eternal Outcast

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It appears to be impossible for me to belong to any group in a meaningful way. Why? Even "fringe" groups that are supposedly based and filled with dissidents and heretics. It's not like I'm just mean to people or go out of my way to start shit with them, either. I just don't belong anywhere. I don't even belong with the people who don't belong anywhere. The groups filled with people who aren't accepted anywhere else won't accept me, either. It's crazy. I laugh at this, but it also brings despair and a sense of extreme isolation. Every time I enter a new group or mingle, I'm always aware that at any moment I will be rejected for any number of reasons. Am I just destined to be groupless? Or maybe I haven't "found my tribe"? Perhaps my tribe is here? As much as I want to, I can't seem to give up on the fact I need community and other people to socialize with in a meaningful way. I hate that I need other people, but I can't deny it either. So what can I do? I'm not even really that weird or creepy. If you met me, you'd think "this is a nice person" as I'm generally likable and friendly. I just don't fit any anywhere, though. The outsider in every crowd or party.
 
AskSatanOperator said:
It appears to be impossible for me to belong to any group in a meaningful way. Why? Even "fringe" groups that are supposedly based and filled with dissidents and heretics. It's not like I'm just mean to people or go out of my way to start shit with them, either. I just don't belong anywhere. I don't even belong with the people who don't belong anywhere. The groups filled with people who aren't accepted anywhere else won't accept me, either. It's crazy. I laugh at this, but it also brings despair and a sense of extreme isolation. Every time I enter a new group or mingle, I'm always aware that at any moment I will be rejected for any number of reasons. Am I just destined to be groupless? Or maybe I haven't "found my tribe"? Perhaps my tribe is here? As much as I want to, I can't seem to give up on the fact I need community and other people to socialize with in a meaningful way. I hate that I need other people, but I can't deny it either. So what can I do? I'm not even really that weird or creepy. If you met me, you'd think "this is a nice person" as I'm generally likable and friendly. I just don't fit any anywhere, though. The outsider in every crowd or party.

You shouldn’t think like that. Signs that you don’t fit anywhere is very Satanic thing actually in this world, because it means you are too universal for all those groups you was speaking about. By saying “too universal for those groups” I mean you look like person who are more conscious than others there. Maybe you are just more real than them, and in todays society if one is like that, that person is considered like outcast, because he/she has ability to think for himself/herself, and others for that reason don’t accept it, because they are hooked into jewtrix too much which has mind of its own, and they subconsciously feel that they are not like you and they can’t do anything for that, they know they are in prison and they see you like one who can break from this prison by his/her will. All they can do is to try to stop you from anything you do, because naturally anything you do may be your way to freedom.

I don’t know if you are troll, or jew, but I say all this with thought in my mind that you are neither one of them. If you have these thoughts like feeling too lonely, being not accepted anywhere. This may mean you are in a stage of life where change is trying to take place, but your mind is trying to stop you. Just go with that, be aware of what happens with you, be aware of how you go through all this, never surrender so you would be able to see what kind of possibilities can open out of this, it is not necessary negative thing what you was telling here, it also may just look like that.

Here in this forum people are not cold for sure, nowhere you can find others who would try to understand your words in true sense. Because Satan means Truth in Sanskrit. If you are not dedicated, I would suggest you to think about it, study about this path, meditate, yoga, do things which would empower you to understand more, with consistency and stubborness, so you would be able to get answers to your questions by your heart. With time you will be able to comprehend what was happening to you at this time.

If you care for your answers this is what I would suggest you to do. And in that case if you not doing any of these.

I was feeling alone like you. After I found what is right for me and at the same time what is right for world, I don’t feel alone anymore, because I know these people are moving same direction, everyone in his/her own unique way, but everyone here has the same enemy, goal, Father.
 

I thought I would give my piece on this, since it sounds similar to me back when I was younger. When I was younger, I was desperate for attention and was dying for the approval of others, I wouldn't do just anything, I wasn't THAT desperate, but after a while of being rejected and bullied from everyone I learned that the value of the people I was trying to associate with had no value and If I did get their respect, it would've been useless and would have no value. So, I stopped trying to appeal to others who were without, and my life was much better after that, since I no longer cared about what anyone thought of me.

I would say to stop worrying about fitting in with any group that is without, since it would most likely be a waste of time and energy. people nowadays are more likely to be shitty people that may be filled with bad habits. We shouldn't associate with them. Instead of appealing to them, appeal to the gods and work for their respect, as it is of much value. That's just my take on it. You fit in here.
 
With many social groups, people are forced to be fake and play a role within the group, and their existence in the group is dependent upon them playing that role. If they stop playing it or try to change their role then the group often abandons them.

Some people are just better at pretending, and you're not. Maybe you haven't learned how to adapt to being fake, and that's probably a good thing.

You could also be looking at the wrong groups. Keep meeting new people until you find those who accept the real you, and want to be around the real you. The people who don't want to be around the real you, they shouldn't matter to you.

Just know that everyone belongs somewhere. Different people are on different levels in society, and birds of a feather flock together.
 
AskSatanOperator said:
It appears to be impossible for me to belong to any group in a meaningful way. Why? Even "fringe" groups that are supposedly based and filled with dissidents and heretics. It's not like I'm just mean to people or go out of my way to start shit with them, either. I just don't belong anywhere. I don't even belong with the people who don't belong anywhere. The groups filled with people who aren't accepted anywhere else won't accept me, either. It's crazy. I laugh at this, but it also brings despair and a sense of extreme isolation. Every time I enter a new group or mingle, I'm always aware that at any moment I will be rejected for any number of reasons. Am I just destined to be groupless? Or maybe I haven't "found my tribe"? Perhaps my tribe is here? As much as I want to, I can't seem to give up on the fact I need community and other people to socialize with in a meaningful way. I hate that I need other people, but I can't deny it either. So what can I do? I'm not even really that weird or creepy. If you met me, you'd think "this is a nice person" as I'm generally likable and friendly. I just don't fit any anywhere, though. The outsider in every crowd or party.

You are perhaps having social difficulties in your life.

Be sure to always talk with the Gods and let them teach you how to bring better social skills in your life.

On a more physical way so to say, you can start building up your social skills and, even if you didn't found community A or B, or even community C, try and "dig up" until you find a community that suits you.

You should also note, as a side-note, that communities that are filled with dissidents and heretics aren't always good communities, and, especially if you are a Spiritual Satanist, you may have to face some challenges on your road.

Be sure to talk to the Gods and build your AoP.

It is vital.

P.S.: By this I do not want to scare you at all, but better be safe and sorry as a British Gentile once said.

Hail Satan
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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