Question #1957: I never said this to anyone

[AskSatanOperator]

I realized that after I entered Satanism and started doing meditations I am lighter, even more so that it helped a lot to release many repressed emotions and new ones are appearing that I didn't know I had and to tell the truth I am repressing out of fear. When I stay in the fertile period / ovulation, I feel much more like taking care of children and even HAVE children, I feel much more careful and affectionate these days and I DO NOT want children, I really like children but I don't feel like putting any in the world, I see myself much more focused on my career than staying at home taking care of children (I do not judge those who chose this path of staying at home because I know it is very difficult), not to mention that it is a lot of money invested, a lot of headache, it requires patience and I think the woman's body changes for the worse and I can't find anything beautiful about it ( obviously it will undergo changes because the body is adapting to a human being ) not to mention that aging accelerates and yes I know that we will not stay young forever but that is out of the question, not to mention that I am sure that I would reject the child and the whole process I would be a bad mother just like mine was.

 

[MiniMe3388]

If you honestly don't want to have children and it's not due to any trauma then you don't have to have them. You can find a partner who, like you, doesn't want children.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

and it's not due to any trauma

I realized that after I entered Satanism and started doing meditations I am lighter, even more so that it helped a lot to release many repressed emotions and new ones are appearing that I didn't know I had and to tell the truth I am repressing out of fear. When I stay in the fertile period / ovulation, I feel much more like taking care of children and even HAVE children, I feel much more careful and affectionate these days and I DO NOT want children, I really like children but I don't feel like putting any in the world, I see myself much more focused on my career than staying at home taking care of children (I do not judge those who chose this path of staying at home because I know it is very difficult), not to mention that it is a lot of money invested, a lot of headache, it requires patience and I think the woman's body changes for the worse and I can't find anything beautiful about it ( obviously it will undergo changes because the body is adapting to a human being ) not to mention that aging accelerates and yes I know that we will not stay young forever but that is out of the question, not to mention that I am sure that I would reject the child and the whole process I would be a bad mother just like mine was.

Nobody is forcing you to have children, but what you describe is your own karma involving how your soul deals with motherhood, emotions, nurturing, and children, all of which pertain to your lunar energies.

Yes, there are practical limitations in regards to having kids, which should not be ignored, but your overall perception of children is being warped by negative karma which is still holding you back, although it sounds like you made a lot of progress.

Even if we do not have our own children, our soul will find itself in situations where we nurture things, such as a hurt friend, the elderly, people who are below us in advancement or age. Even our own bodies need nurturing, and one's lunar energies reflect how we feel loved, comfortable, and how we physically nourish our own body with blood and other fluids.

It is very likely that your own relationship with your mother has negatively influenced how you view the idea of nurturing and lunar energy within the world. In a similar way, those with fathers who do not support them grow up with solar issues pertaining to low self-value.

So it is important to at least logically acknowledge where your thoughts on this subject may be coming from. Although you sound like you are making progress, I know other people who will restrict their advancement because they think they have somehow reached the final conclusion with that aspect of reality.

 

[General Yeager]

There will be no greater contribution that you will ever give to this world other than children. And that is a fact for most people.

 

[Aquarius]

You have tried convincing yourself that you don't want any, but you can't repress yourself no longer.