Queen of the skies
Two days ago I have been experiencing something unusual that I would like to share with you to help me a little.
When I started this path, actually about two months later, I asked Father Satan for an unusual favor, to let me know who was the right person for me in terms of love, I told him that if that person arrived, that I would know how to recognize him/her, that he/she would give me a sign. It really popped out to me to tell her that when that person arrives to give me an energy discharge on the left side of my chest and see her sigil reflected. Well this is where it gets good.
This started weeks ago with a "harmless" thought for me, it turns out that suddenly the thought of the Goddess Astarte came to me, I started reading about her and I connected in an unusual way, as if she was the person I have been looking for for a long time, it may sound illogical but I felt that I had come to the right person so to say.
However I let the days go by and the intense thought dissipated, I continued very judiciously with the meditations. Exactly two days ago, the thought of her came back to me, I smiled in a casual way, I felt a warm but powerful energy in me. I started reading about her again.
The thought did not dissipate, I thought about her almost all night long, in fact I would wake up and think about her. Last night while sleeping I had a vision, I saw one of her symbols very, very real.
I checked the forum as I do casually and I found the rituals for this week, so I saw her name, her ritual and I entered to see it to perform it this day, and it turns out that when I read them, my legs had an energy and I smiled again, in an unusual way, as if I was invaded by a joy.
At the same time I received the discharge in my chest of energy and I saw the sigil of Father Satan and I remembered what I had told him, that he will help me to recognize that kind of right person.
Today, I had a sort of a casual orgasm, I really got a very abnormal sexual urge in me but I took it in stride, proceeded to have my intimate moment and it turns out that as I climaxed I see his symbol again very, very real.
The high priest wrote something about the sucubus/incubus that made me curious, it says this exactly:
"Between the two, one must understand that these feelings of affection, private sexual moments that one experiences when imagining the Gods, or whatever, are not really happening, but are figments of one's imagination and mind. If one does not understand this, and if one insists too much on it,
astral delusion or other nonsense is imminent."
Since I have been on this path , Father Satan lets me know of his presence with his sigil, it is always with his sigil, so when I saw a symbol of the Goddess Astarte I did not doubt that it would be her, but when I read what is at the top I was left wondering if it is really her.
I really don't know how to proceed. She embodies all that is beautiful and sublime, majestic, worthy of seeing and admiring.
I have written down every sign in these past two days and days, I have analyzed everything, her symbols, sigils and everything she causes in me that seems to be superior.
Is she not a negative entity? It's just that the high priest thing got me thinking.
That is my big doubt, can we fall in love with a Goddess? Could I fall in love with someone that I have not seen but that causes in me something superior?
Could I feel love in that way for a Goddess?
Note: Since yesterday I have addressed her as "My Queen of Heaven" this is something totally new to me.
Thank you all very much for answering.
Two days ago I have been experiencing something unusual that I would like to share with you to help me a little.
When I started this path, actually about two months later, I asked Father Satan for an unusual favor, to let me know who was the right person for me in terms of love, I told him that if that person arrived, that I would know how to recognize him/her, that he/she would give me a sign. It really popped out to me to tell her that when that person arrives to give me an energy discharge on the left side of my chest and see her sigil reflected. Well this is where it gets good.
This started weeks ago with a "harmless" thought for me, it turns out that suddenly the thought of the Goddess Astarte came to me, I started reading about her and I connected in an unusual way, as if she was the person I have been looking for for a long time, it may sound illogical but I felt that I had come to the right person so to say.
However I let the days go by and the intense thought dissipated, I continued very judiciously with the meditations. Exactly two days ago, the thought of her came back to me, I smiled in a casual way, I felt a warm but powerful energy in me. I started reading about her again.
The thought did not dissipate, I thought about her almost all night long, in fact I would wake up and think about her. Last night while sleeping I had a vision, I saw one of her symbols very, very real.
I checked the forum as I do casually and I found the rituals for this week, so I saw her name, her ritual and I entered to see it to perform it this day, and it turns out that when I read them, my legs had an energy and I smiled again, in an unusual way, as if I was invaded by a joy.
At the same time I received the discharge in my chest of energy and I saw the sigil of Father Satan and I remembered what I had told him, that he will help me to recognize that kind of right person.
Today, I had a sort of a casual orgasm, I really got a very abnormal sexual urge in me but I took it in stride, proceeded to have my intimate moment and it turns out that as I climaxed I see his symbol again very, very real.
The high priest wrote something about the sucubus/incubus that made me curious, it says this exactly:
"Between the two, one must understand that these feelings of affection, private sexual moments that one experiences when imagining the Gods, or whatever, are not really happening, but are figments of one's imagination and mind. If one does not understand this, and if one insists too much on it,
astral delusion or other nonsense is imminent."
Since I have been on this path , Father Satan lets me know of his presence with his sigil, it is always with his sigil, so when I saw a symbol of the Goddess Astarte I did not doubt that it would be her, but when I read what is at the top I was left wondering if it is really her.
I really don't know how to proceed. She embodies all that is beautiful and sublime, majestic, worthy of seeing and admiring.
I have written down every sign in these past two days and days, I have analyzed everything, her symbols, sigils and everything she causes in me that seems to be superior.
Is she not a negative entity? It's just that the high priest thing got me thinking.
That is my big doubt, can we fall in love with a Goddess? Could I fall in love with someone that I have not seen but that causes in me something superior?
Could I feel love in that way for a Goddess?
Note: Since yesterday I have addressed her as "My Queen of Heaven" this is something totally new to me.
Thank you all very much for answering.
