So, Im here hoping to find some answers to my questions I would appreciate if someone experienced or priest/priestess. When I was a child I was making objects turning to life. I mean they were talking to me and moving. (Not like cartoons). Also, i was meeting demons. I think they were watching my process as a child to this new world for me. The only thing i can remember was that we were having like meetings according to lunar phases.Also I was meditating/observing the sun and moon just from enstict just like the way I would know and practise the tibetan rites without my parents know anything about spirituality.anyways, later I met a woman in my life around 10 years old? She was on my room. She was tall like 2 meters height and white skin like a wall and black hair something like samara the movie.She was never talking to me she just was telling me on my dreams about teenage breakups and once She showed me a man who the next day was following me and then he seemed scared and left me alone.when I started checking your site I saw her one last time on my dreams she was with a couple demons (men and woman) the demons were riding something like white tigers. She told me not to join satanism ( and then they were whispering the three of them something) and when I was on high school she said that I'm an angel. When I turned sixteen, My birthday where near lunar eclipse and i was watching a naked man he was kinda chubby and on my sleep wishpering on my ear something.That period, I liked a boy and I visualised something I would like , I visualised that the lights of the center would all close and that he would kiss me. I dreamed about it and it happened. I closed the lights.This was also my way to seduce men to feed my energy need. I was making that energy to manifest things or make people feel better. I'm 19 to 20 now and some months before when I was meditating deep ( I was among sleep and wake phase) I saw a huge white rhombus like a huge portal i think i was able to see it and awake I'm not sure but the point is I was watching this thing giving me power and inside of my house (this is really important to me so please if anyone has any information about it tell me). Another meditation while sleeping again, i was charging my chakras from crown to feet and back. And I got connected with a creature, with a robotic voice. It told me the whole existance of people is nothing. That nothing of this world exists. I had heard people saying that before. But when that creature told me about it, I could feel that coldness of nothingness I was feeling like that "nothing" was making sense.... Can someone explain me why all these happens ? Also, I had many dreams of creatures telling me to join satan that I'm valuable to him. Also before that rhombus looked alike portal happened I heard a voice telling me that I have greater power even from a supernova. I am neutral about religions but as you see I feel a sympathy about demon gods. So, any answer would be valuable to me and sorry about the huge and disorganised text....