cedarwood82
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- Jul 14, 2005
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First off I am going to say that i have been meditating inconsistently since my sophomore year of high school. I guess I'm just not sure what I hope to gain from all this.I am really struggling with my reason fr going through all this. I had hoped Satanism would give me a purpose in life but I have been unable to meditate consistently. During the my senior year of high school it was really bad. I skipped school so many days. Teachers started calling my parents telling them I should talk to a doctor or a shrink. I am not suicidal. THAT THOUGHT HAS NEVER CROSSED MY MIND. But my even called the cops on me once to me to say hat was wrong. It didn't work cause they couldn't actually do anything. But now I just started my freshman year of college.Classes started about three weeks ago and I already feel overwhelmed again. I'm behind in homework and already skipping class.
I don't want to be lazy. There is nothing better for me to be doing at home whenever I skip class so I don't know why I do it. If greys are attacking me their going all out. I dont want do anything but sleep.I know the answer is to just meditate, clean my aura, etc. And I know that's going to help me feel better. I don't even know why I posted this. Just to vent I guess.
But please if you have any more advice,please help me.
I don't want to be lazy. There is nothing better for me to be doing at home whenever I skip class so I don't know why I do it. If greys are attacking me their going all out. I dont want do anything but sleep.I know the answer is to just meditate, clean my aura, etc. And I know that's going to help me feel better. I don't even know why I posted this. Just to vent I guess.
But please if you have any more advice,please help me.