Everyone who comes here, is here because we have seriously doubted the enemy system, hated it, or disliked it. That is absolutely normal. It's filled with lies and inconsistencies as far as a system goes.
We all have a different beginning here. Personally, I was a very doubtful individual when I was beginning. It took months until I built up trust with the Gods, or even believed my own observations.
People sometimes ask me things personally and I don't focus a lot on personal matters unless these are of benefit to other people, but I'll do this more often in case people find this motivational and helpful.
My approach to this was that this may be irrelevant or just a random story to people, but I understand this is of instructional value so I'll try to be more open. The silence was necessary so that people try to form their own opinion. But it may reinforce your own faith to do this so I presume this is a good trade.
In the beginning I was a serious doubter and I did doubt the Gods, my own experiences, and to be frank, anything there is, including every individual. The mass betrayal of xianity had hit me deep as an individual and left my mind in shambles, questioning if there was anything real in this world anymore.
The only individual that won my trust and maintained this was HPS Maxine which I never will regret, but this took years in the beginning. I trusted in everything she said but I also needed my own experience to convince myself about things.
Because I knew what I read in the website was for real, but whether or not I would get there was a question I had to deal with by myself. I simply knew she was saying the Truth, but I had to elaborate on a personal basis.
Despite of a strong feeling that I belonged here and that this was correct, the feeling of doubt lingered for a very long time. I was never mindlessly swayed in anyway. At any interval I took a step back to question every experience.
In order to see for myself, I said I had nothing to lose, and decided to dedicate, meditate and so forth. Having experiences with meditation prior, I knew this was the correct thing to do. This went away by a long and arduous process as I was naturally a doubter by nature. This is the reason I escaped xianity in the first place. Because it was filled with inconsistencies.
In Satanism, reasonably speaking, I found none. The same goes for the generally well poised points of LaVey, which seemed generally sensible points without garbage in them.
To fill in with doubt, studying is essential, but also, one has to meditate. The philosophical aspect in Satanism is definitely appealing, but I was here for the other aspects primarily. Progressively, one has to work to the way where they open up with the Gods a little bit, and then, one has to learn to rectify the things they receive. Doubts will come the issue is that one has to have faith in their decision. Faith does not have to be blind like the enemy.
This is the only "doubt friendly" religion there is. I am very careful what I say and what I see because there is always a doubt here. This also stems from the fact I've been in the scientific field for closely a decade. Questioning becomes second nature, to the point this can develop into an illness if not controlled, where one loses faith in everything. This is why many scientists are nihilists which believe in nothing.
For the first 3 years, I was going back and re-reading the Joy of Satan, related sites, and my own journals so that I would remember what happened during these times. Then experience sets in and you're more confident about everything. Why re-read? Because the mind forgets.
It's important because human memory can be loose and forgetful, especially in the beginning, to keep a safe journal or notes of things. When you look at these, you will be more certain. After a while this may no longer be required.
The enemy is lying when they say Satanists are "sheep" and "easily convinced". Nobody here is. Most Satanists are rather paranoid because they are people who understood prior betrayal by xianity, and this naturally creates a doubter. If we were not we would be definitely elsewhere.
I also noticed that Satan or the Gods did not have any problem with my doubting and instead went slowly in the appropriate ways to establish trust. This was reassuring. They also did not have a problem that this was a disposition. Years later I understand this may even be necessary, but not in a self crippling form, but rather in a curiosity for exploration type of form.
While the enemy people get swayed merely based on emotion, such as "Getting Saved" and "Accepting Jewsus", or the penalty of torment, there is none like this in Satanism. Satanism does not use emotional extortion in this way, or irrational fear.
Satan and the Gods are really, really patient, provided you try to advance, in your own pace. They understand fully how it is to be human. Except of enemy curses, menial life getting in the way, and weaknesses or obstacles we encounter, they understand a lot of things that are not known to us. Astrology also ties into this.
We are living, not robots. So they understand that we cannot simply be used like remote drones. They therefore build and invest slowly in people as much as they invest in them. Not every mind or brain is the same. This is like in a school, some kids advance fast, others win as the last man standing.
Doubt also has another face where one is not doubting, but rather, subverting things and attacking them in order for them to prove themselves. I never had this kind of doubt as I was only with good intentions here and the Gods in general. They don't respond well to disrespectful behavior or at all. That's not doubt that is subversion.
I never demanded signs in a sense that the Gods had to prove themselves to me, because I did not have the illness of self entitlement and I generally understood that these beings are really great. So asking for their time should be done in an appropriate manner. This helped a lot in establishing one's self in an order of rank.
This mentality was created by the enemy who preaches "Every human is worth a gazillion dollars you're a princess by automatically and doing nothing".
Most people are worth gazillions of dollars in Zimbabwe dollars however which is equal to nothing. That's the delusion of this century everyone is worth gazillions in currency that does not even exist. I'll roast more on that one in another topic.
Generally this approach by the enemy is because the enemy hides the fundamental reality that most people are only numbers, because if people figure this out, they will want to stop being numbers and try to organize differently. This has to be overcome for any being that wants to advance as it's only a delusional projection.
Demons should be approached as investors in a dubious project which we call "Building ourselves up". They are very open and giving, but don't squander their money around. Humans are a high risk investment for them or their time.
And if you see them investing in you, try to also do what is required in the pace that is natural to you and return back on this. Then they will invest more and more into this. And you'll get better while you also, theoretically, do things back for them. That's a definition of a good relationship of equal footing.
In general doubts are rectified on the mental level, by studying.
On the level of the practices, by practicing.
And on the level of advanced understanding, by advancing and deprogramming from the enemy.
These are three types of levels of doubt that will gradually be replaced by more certainty as you advance.
You can be perfect in one of the above levels, but if you have not rectified doubts coming from another level, they will come to you. Doubt in this case arises out of lack of knowledge or experience.
Doubt will transform itself in the process into something more useful to you, such as a need to explore. Then depression will be replaced with joy, because after a point you'll know these things are true.
Oftentimes there are also idiots who call people here out on their loyalty, but why should not they be called instead for their lack of it? One may be crippled by doubt and lack of faith, and that is equally disastrous as it's blind counterpart.
I am at for a example, a circumstance, where doubting anymore our common work, would only be retarded and a lie. I am too far to doubt because doubt has been overcome in the same way the invention of the airplane happened, it flew, and one can never go back after seeing it and pondering if it will ever be true or not. There are no such things for someone after a point. But to reach to a said point you have to walk the whole mile until the higher end of the mountain.
Blind faith is, lastly, when one has no clue about something. Blind implies one knows nothing about the subject. There has been no interaction with it, and one does not understand the subject at all.
When there is experience in something, and you have observed it, and grind your doubts against it, but it comes on top, then the certainty that arises is not blind faith, but rather an accumulation of proof due to experience. And that is not to be dismissed. But not everyone is at the same level.
This cannot happen rapidly it can take years or decades, but it happens. And everyone can get there.
Doubt like all other human emotions is not unnatural in Satanism or hostile unless it has a destructive intent. Satanism opens their gates to the doubters to become believers through self discovery.
-High Priest Hooded Cobra 666
We all have a different beginning here. Personally, I was a very doubtful individual when I was beginning. It took months until I built up trust with the Gods, or even believed my own observations.
People sometimes ask me things personally and I don't focus a lot on personal matters unless these are of benefit to other people, but I'll do this more often in case people find this motivational and helpful.
My approach to this was that this may be irrelevant or just a random story to people, but I understand this is of instructional value so I'll try to be more open. The silence was necessary so that people try to form their own opinion. But it may reinforce your own faith to do this so I presume this is a good trade.
In the beginning I was a serious doubter and I did doubt the Gods, my own experiences, and to be frank, anything there is, including every individual. The mass betrayal of xianity had hit me deep as an individual and left my mind in shambles, questioning if there was anything real in this world anymore.
The only individual that won my trust and maintained this was HPS Maxine which I never will regret, but this took years in the beginning. I trusted in everything she said but I also needed my own experience to convince myself about things.
Because I knew what I read in the website was for real, but whether or not I would get there was a question I had to deal with by myself. I simply knew she was saying the Truth, but I had to elaborate on a personal basis.
Despite of a strong feeling that I belonged here and that this was correct, the feeling of doubt lingered for a very long time. I was never mindlessly swayed in anyway. At any interval I took a step back to question every experience.
In order to see for myself, I said I had nothing to lose, and decided to dedicate, meditate and so forth. Having experiences with meditation prior, I knew this was the correct thing to do. This went away by a long and arduous process as I was naturally a doubter by nature. This is the reason I escaped xianity in the first place. Because it was filled with inconsistencies.
In Satanism, reasonably speaking, I found none. The same goes for the generally well poised points of LaVey, which seemed generally sensible points without garbage in them.
To fill in with doubt, studying is essential, but also, one has to meditate. The philosophical aspect in Satanism is definitely appealing, but I was here for the other aspects primarily. Progressively, one has to work to the way where they open up with the Gods a little bit, and then, one has to learn to rectify the things they receive. Doubts will come the issue is that one has to have faith in their decision. Faith does not have to be blind like the enemy.
This is the only "doubt friendly" religion there is. I am very careful what I say and what I see because there is always a doubt here. This also stems from the fact I've been in the scientific field for closely a decade. Questioning becomes second nature, to the point this can develop into an illness if not controlled, where one loses faith in everything. This is why many scientists are nihilists which believe in nothing.
For the first 3 years, I was going back and re-reading the Joy of Satan, related sites, and my own journals so that I would remember what happened during these times. Then experience sets in and you're more confident about everything. Why re-read? Because the mind forgets.
It's important because human memory can be loose and forgetful, especially in the beginning, to keep a safe journal or notes of things. When you look at these, you will be more certain. After a while this may no longer be required.
The enemy is lying when they say Satanists are "sheep" and "easily convinced". Nobody here is. Most Satanists are rather paranoid because they are people who understood prior betrayal by xianity, and this naturally creates a doubter. If we were not we would be definitely elsewhere.
I also noticed that Satan or the Gods did not have any problem with my doubting and instead went slowly in the appropriate ways to establish trust. This was reassuring. They also did not have a problem that this was a disposition. Years later I understand this may even be necessary, but not in a self crippling form, but rather in a curiosity for exploration type of form.
While the enemy people get swayed merely based on emotion, such as "Getting Saved" and "Accepting Jewsus", or the penalty of torment, there is none like this in Satanism. Satanism does not use emotional extortion in this way, or irrational fear.
Satan and the Gods are really, really patient, provided you try to advance, in your own pace. They understand fully how it is to be human. Except of enemy curses, menial life getting in the way, and weaknesses or obstacles we encounter, they understand a lot of things that are not known to us. Astrology also ties into this.
We are living, not robots. So they understand that we cannot simply be used like remote drones. They therefore build and invest slowly in people as much as they invest in them. Not every mind or brain is the same. This is like in a school, some kids advance fast, others win as the last man standing.
Doubt also has another face where one is not doubting, but rather, subverting things and attacking them in order for them to prove themselves. I never had this kind of doubt as I was only with good intentions here and the Gods in general. They don't respond well to disrespectful behavior or at all. That's not doubt that is subversion.
I never demanded signs in a sense that the Gods had to prove themselves to me, because I did not have the illness of self entitlement and I generally understood that these beings are really great. So asking for their time should be done in an appropriate manner. This helped a lot in establishing one's self in an order of rank.
This mentality was created by the enemy who preaches "Every human is worth a gazillion dollars you're a princess by automatically and doing nothing".
Most people are worth gazillions of dollars in Zimbabwe dollars however which is equal to nothing. That's the delusion of this century everyone is worth gazillions in currency that does not even exist. I'll roast more on that one in another topic.
Generally this approach by the enemy is because the enemy hides the fundamental reality that most people are only numbers, because if people figure this out, they will want to stop being numbers and try to organize differently. This has to be overcome for any being that wants to advance as it's only a delusional projection.
Demons should be approached as investors in a dubious project which we call "Building ourselves up". They are very open and giving, but don't squander their money around. Humans are a high risk investment for them or their time.
And if you see them investing in you, try to also do what is required in the pace that is natural to you and return back on this. Then they will invest more and more into this. And you'll get better while you also, theoretically, do things back for them. That's a definition of a good relationship of equal footing.
In general doubts are rectified on the mental level, by studying.
On the level of the practices, by practicing.
And on the level of advanced understanding, by advancing and deprogramming from the enemy.
These are three types of levels of doubt that will gradually be replaced by more certainty as you advance.
You can be perfect in one of the above levels, but if you have not rectified doubts coming from another level, they will come to you. Doubt in this case arises out of lack of knowledge or experience.
Doubt will transform itself in the process into something more useful to you, such as a need to explore. Then depression will be replaced with joy, because after a point you'll know these things are true.
Oftentimes there are also idiots who call people here out on their loyalty, but why should not they be called instead for their lack of it? One may be crippled by doubt and lack of faith, and that is equally disastrous as it's blind counterpart.
I am at for a example, a circumstance, where doubting anymore our common work, would only be retarded and a lie. I am too far to doubt because doubt has been overcome in the same way the invention of the airplane happened, it flew, and one can never go back after seeing it and pondering if it will ever be true or not. There are no such things for someone after a point. But to reach to a said point you have to walk the whole mile until the higher end of the mountain.
Blind faith is, lastly, when one has no clue about something. Blind implies one knows nothing about the subject. There has been no interaction with it, and one does not understand the subject at all.
When there is experience in something, and you have observed it, and grind your doubts against it, but it comes on top, then the certainty that arises is not blind faith, but rather an accumulation of proof due to experience. And that is not to be dismissed. But not everyone is at the same level.
This cannot happen rapidly it can take years or decades, but it happens. And everyone can get there.
Doubt like all other human emotions is not unnatural in Satanism or hostile unless it has a destructive intent. Satanism opens their gates to the doubters to become believers through self discovery.
-High Priest Hooded Cobra 666
