Demonolater2023
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Hello, thank you for accepting me to the forum, I have been reading for many days and I thought it's polite to introduce myself and explain what share the journey that ledes me here (maybe this post will encourage other lurkers to join too?). Hail Satan, if I wasn't called I would 100% NOT be alive today. English is not my first language, so I apologize in advance for possible mistakes.
I grew up in the Bible belt, but ever since I can remember I knew that x-tianity was a bullshit and made no sense. My mother was extremely abusive growing up, she would physically hit me, push me, slap me as a kid and her favorite thing was to lock me in a room for days when I failed to be a straight A student. One time she locked me for 8 consecutive days in a dark room and didn't even let me shower and would only come and go to make fun of me. She alienated the extended family who feared her and turned a blind eye. My father is a hypocrite extreme X-tian, the type who constantly preaches forgive and forget and let bygones be bygones and if you don't do it, you ''disappoint god''. When I was 13 and my mother started her routine assault, for the first time I hit back. All the x-tians immediately ganged up against me to make ME apologize to her (!) for having the nerve to not turn the other cheek..blah blah you can imagine.
When I was 16 and with zero freedom, no friends, 9-10 hours of study daily she decided to be ''modern'' and enforced a vegan diet in the family which was essentially eating rice and roots because she couldn't bother to learn to cook proper nutritious vegan food. I developed extreme deficiencies and started to have panic attacks and my grades tanked. I was sent to psychiatrists who diagnosed me with ''anxiety'' and ''depression'' and gave me a bunch of poisonous pills. I am extremely anti-psychiatry today, I consider psychiatrists charlatans and not real doctors. Anyway, I was a minor and had no choice but to take the pills and I was becoming worse and worse by the day. I remember I started to fantasize my suicide and I had decided to jump off a bridge and I was looking up online where is the highest bridge in my area.
Long story short my mother has been abusing the medication and adding it to all of my food and drink without anyone knowing and that made me suicidal (the overdosing). I caught her one day in the act and showed the poisonous food to my father who kicked her out. She made a fake suicide attempt (took 2 xanax and drank a beer, yes literally), but in the hospital they wouldn't risk and pumped her stomach anyway and then my good x-tian father told me that we have to FORGIVE her again because she ''repented '' (because she said so) and at 17 I left home to avoid getting killed. I am extremely low contact now. I wanted to report her to the police for attempted murder but all the good x-tians ganged up and stopped me with threats because her life would be destroyed boo-hoo and the bible said to honor your parents. I was devastated back then, but looking back they look like such a pathetic bunch of subhumans.
Now, the more interesting part: Ever since I left and until 2019 that I found SS I could not catch a break from extreme misfortune. I developed several mysterious autoimmune illnesses, my teeth were cracking and had to be removed, every person who befriended me ended up a poisonous toad, every time I made more money something happened and I had to use it to cover expenses. I remember one month I was studying and same time working hard and in one month I had saved $900 and I was so proud of myself. The next day I went to shower and it's raining before I turn on the shower. It was an extreme experience, like raining inside the house through the roof. The boiler that was in the attic broke all of a sudden (the repairmen who came had no idea why) and the cost of a new boiler was...$900. Bye bye to my hard earned money.
At some point I turned to psychiatry and listened to several psychologists and psychiatrists and read many books, nothing improved. I tried to befriend Buddhists and former muslims and they were all backstabbing losers. There was a supposedly former muslim girl that I tried to be friends with that she would insist greatly I read their stupid book and listen to youtube verses and her entire family were schizophrenic and deformed from too much inbreeding and marrying their own first cousin and she was so nonchalant about it. Parasites who immigrated in Europe, never worked a day and spend their time plotting and trying to proselytize online. I cut her off and felt better the same day.
There are people who say that unlike x-tian religions, Satan and the Demons deliver, but for me, every time they helped me it exceeded even my wildest imagination (I have done the ritual). One of my biggest grievances before finding SS was that my tormentor never had any consequences. In less than 24 hours my estranged father called me horrified to say that they called from her work and she has been reported to the police for abusing her employees. Apparently a woman was assaulted by a client at her work and he was so brutal that he bit her and ripped off a bunch off her hair and my mother instead of helping just came and said ''why are you so dramatic, most of your hair were extensions anyway'' and degraded her. I was laughing at my father that day thinking wow you think that is extreme when I had 3 similar incidents per day my entire childhood. Her employees formed a team against her, hired a lawyer and she was convicted for 4 different crimes and has to pay thousands in compensation. I have been studying the tarot cards and the readings said she has been cursing me non-stop and I did a send the curse back to sender ritual and next week my father calls again and says she fell out of nowhere when they were walking on the street and broke her arm in multiple places and needed surgery.
Now she is an obese crippled locked up at home with ruined career and my father is convinced someone cursed her (I never did more than return curse spells, so it's all her shit coming back to her) and he goes to church all the time and -surprise surprise- the church isn't helping him. Shocking, I know.
I have received more help from Satan and the Demons in one year than from x-tianity in 20, always shamed for being human, for defending myself and for not just give up and be her slave and serve her until she dies. I don't know if this testimony helped anyone, but I felt that I should share it.
A few observations:
I watched the netflix series ''Brand new cherry flavor'' and it has an actual gray there stalking the protagonist and in forums like the vigilant citizen they say ''oh wow evil satanic movie'' and at the end of the movie the gray is the kind mother of the protagonist protecting her (facepalm).
I used to watch a psychologist on YouTube named s@m v@knin (writing it like this so he can't find this post) and supposedly he is a scholar with 200k subscribers and now he looks so repulsive and degenerate to me, half the things he says are curses to his audience and the morons can't even see it.
questions:
Is k-pop, anime and asian media/dramas in general ok for a SS? I don't want to watch anything from hollywood anymore.
how to break generational curses? (I believe my mother's ancestors were cursed and several people who are now dead also cursed her)
how to break a love curse? I remember her cursing me thousands of times ever since I was a child to never find anyone and instead be roommates with her (when I am in my 60s and she is in her 80s) so we can ''take care of each other''.
I want to completely undo the x-tian brainwashing of asking for help constantly like a spiritual beggar and I try to do everything mentioned here, but there is always room for improvement, or maybe there are more specific resources about these problems that I can study/follow?
Thank you in advance
Ever since
I grew up in the Bible belt, but ever since I can remember I knew that x-tianity was a bullshit and made no sense. My mother was extremely abusive growing up, she would physically hit me, push me, slap me as a kid and her favorite thing was to lock me in a room for days when I failed to be a straight A student. One time she locked me for 8 consecutive days in a dark room and didn't even let me shower and would only come and go to make fun of me. She alienated the extended family who feared her and turned a blind eye. My father is a hypocrite extreme X-tian, the type who constantly preaches forgive and forget and let bygones be bygones and if you don't do it, you ''disappoint god''. When I was 13 and my mother started her routine assault, for the first time I hit back. All the x-tians immediately ganged up against me to make ME apologize to her (!) for having the nerve to not turn the other cheek..blah blah you can imagine.
When I was 16 and with zero freedom, no friends, 9-10 hours of study daily she decided to be ''modern'' and enforced a vegan diet in the family which was essentially eating rice and roots because she couldn't bother to learn to cook proper nutritious vegan food. I developed extreme deficiencies and started to have panic attacks and my grades tanked. I was sent to psychiatrists who diagnosed me with ''anxiety'' and ''depression'' and gave me a bunch of poisonous pills. I am extremely anti-psychiatry today, I consider psychiatrists charlatans and not real doctors. Anyway, I was a minor and had no choice but to take the pills and I was becoming worse and worse by the day. I remember I started to fantasize my suicide and I had decided to jump off a bridge and I was looking up online where is the highest bridge in my area.
Long story short my mother has been abusing the medication and adding it to all of my food and drink without anyone knowing and that made me suicidal (the overdosing). I caught her one day in the act and showed the poisonous food to my father who kicked her out. She made a fake suicide attempt (took 2 xanax and drank a beer, yes literally), but in the hospital they wouldn't risk and pumped her stomach anyway and then my good x-tian father told me that we have to FORGIVE her again because she ''repented '' (because she said so) and at 17 I left home to avoid getting killed. I am extremely low contact now. I wanted to report her to the police for attempted murder but all the good x-tians ganged up and stopped me with threats because her life would be destroyed boo-hoo and the bible said to honor your parents. I was devastated back then, but looking back they look like such a pathetic bunch of subhumans.
Now, the more interesting part: Ever since I left and until 2019 that I found SS I could not catch a break from extreme misfortune. I developed several mysterious autoimmune illnesses, my teeth were cracking and had to be removed, every person who befriended me ended up a poisonous toad, every time I made more money something happened and I had to use it to cover expenses. I remember one month I was studying and same time working hard and in one month I had saved $900 and I was so proud of myself. The next day I went to shower and it's raining before I turn on the shower. It was an extreme experience, like raining inside the house through the roof. The boiler that was in the attic broke all of a sudden (the repairmen who came had no idea why) and the cost of a new boiler was...$900. Bye bye to my hard earned money.
At some point I turned to psychiatry and listened to several psychologists and psychiatrists and read many books, nothing improved. I tried to befriend Buddhists and former muslims and they were all backstabbing losers. There was a supposedly former muslim girl that I tried to be friends with that she would insist greatly I read their stupid book and listen to youtube verses and her entire family were schizophrenic and deformed from too much inbreeding and marrying their own first cousin and she was so nonchalant about it. Parasites who immigrated in Europe, never worked a day and spend their time plotting and trying to proselytize online. I cut her off and felt better the same day.
There are people who say that unlike x-tian religions, Satan and the Demons deliver, but for me, every time they helped me it exceeded even my wildest imagination (I have done the ritual). One of my biggest grievances before finding SS was that my tormentor never had any consequences. In less than 24 hours my estranged father called me horrified to say that they called from her work and she has been reported to the police for abusing her employees. Apparently a woman was assaulted by a client at her work and he was so brutal that he bit her and ripped off a bunch off her hair and my mother instead of helping just came and said ''why are you so dramatic, most of your hair were extensions anyway'' and degraded her. I was laughing at my father that day thinking wow you think that is extreme when I had 3 similar incidents per day my entire childhood. Her employees formed a team against her, hired a lawyer and she was convicted for 4 different crimes and has to pay thousands in compensation. I have been studying the tarot cards and the readings said she has been cursing me non-stop and I did a send the curse back to sender ritual and next week my father calls again and says she fell out of nowhere when they were walking on the street and broke her arm in multiple places and needed surgery.
Now she is an obese crippled locked up at home with ruined career and my father is convinced someone cursed her (I never did more than return curse spells, so it's all her shit coming back to her) and he goes to church all the time and -surprise surprise- the church isn't helping him. Shocking, I know.
I have received more help from Satan and the Demons in one year than from x-tianity in 20, always shamed for being human, for defending myself and for not just give up and be her slave and serve her until she dies. I don't know if this testimony helped anyone, but I felt that I should share it.
A few observations:
I watched the netflix series ''Brand new cherry flavor'' and it has an actual gray there stalking the protagonist and in forums like the vigilant citizen they say ''oh wow evil satanic movie'' and at the end of the movie the gray is the kind mother of the protagonist protecting her (facepalm).
I used to watch a psychologist on YouTube named s@m v@knin (writing it like this so he can't find this post) and supposedly he is a scholar with 200k subscribers and now he looks so repulsive and degenerate to me, half the things he says are curses to his audience and the morons can't even see it.
questions:
Is k-pop, anime and asian media/dramas in general ok for a SS? I don't want to watch anything from hollywood anymore.
how to break generational curses? (I believe my mother's ancestors were cursed and several people who are now dead also cursed her)
how to break a love curse? I remember her cursing me thousands of times ever since I was a child to never find anyone and instead be roommates with her (when I am in my 60s and she is in her 80s) so we can ''take care of each other''.
I want to completely undo the x-tian brainwashing of asking for help constantly like a spiritual beggar and I try to do everything mentioned here, but there is always room for improvement, or maybe there are more specific resources about these problems that I can study/follow?
Thank you in advance
Ever since
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