Need Help Extreme Rage&Misery Attacks

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I hope this gets approved so I can get some help on the subject, because its what has held me back the most from advancing.I go into uncontrollable fits of anger and sadness. I cant explain it too well, but I haven't had a happy life, or childhood while growing up. I was born into a filthy dirt poor family. I cant afford toilet paper most of the time, sadly. Most of everyone in my family is addicted to drugs. The home I live in is full of bad energy, I cant 'feel' energy yet, but I know it has to be. Everyone is always screaming at each other, everyone is always in a bad mood. My mother is a total bitch. Shes so weak, I don't see her being reincarnated into another life. I don't think her soul has enough energy for it. Shes put me through so much misery, I hope she  suffers and dies horribly.I'm basically living from a check, from month to month. I'm waiting right now for a letter to come in the mail, to see if I even keep it, or not. If I lose it, its game over, period. I'm waiting for my internet to get shut off, along with my electricity right now. Things are looking pretty bad. I don't really want to summon any demon for help, because it feels so wrong to ask for something like money, even though its something I need the most. I'm not open enough to see or hear demons. So I don't know what I should give in return for help.Sometimes I get so happy and love life, then I get a burst of anger and pure misery come over me, and sometimes I hate seeing happy people in the world.I hate seeing rich people, I hate seeing celebrities, etc. I want these outbursts to end. Can anyone help me? What should I do? When these outbursts happen, I get extremely negative, and offensive thoughts about Father Satan and the gods, after the attack ends I wonder why I thought those things in the first place.Yesterday I had one of the worst attacks that Ive had. I actually cut myself. I haven't did that in a while. I try to ask for help from Father Satan, and I get nothing.A while back I asked Father Satan for a demon lover, twice. But it seems nobody wants something like me. I sit a think about all the people is happy relationships, and here comes the rage again.Its really bad. I'm stuck in a loop of Misery and jealousy. I want to break out of it. I'm starting to lose faith in Satan, because of the sadness I go through. Why am I suffering so much? I wish one of the gods would just show up and save me from all of this. I've been basically begging Satan for the past year so save me from all of the Sadness. I don't know what to do. As you can see its impossible to work and advance myself through all of this. I try to keep a positive mind, it never works. If I cant be happy in life, then Id rather not exist at all. Can anyone give advice on how I should deal with this? Its really tearing me apart. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. I need some help in the worst way. 

 

[HPS Lydia]

Hey there, you're not alone, many of us have been through bad situations.

First of all, clean your aura and chakras a few times a day. Don't ever skip this.

Secondly, build your aura of protection daily, twice a day. Don't ever skip this.

Close your chakras around negative people.

Do yoga and/or qigong. These will raise your energy levels so that bad luck and other crap don't affect you as much. The more the better. Seriously, I was doing 5 sessions a day to get through something. Even just a few minutes of the 5 Tibetans or the Sun Salutations will go a long way.

Next, obliterate your Saturn (bad karma). I made a post some time ago and can't find it in the groups now, so I will re-post it shortly.

You need to get out of your situation, and avoid negative people. This can be done through workings. You have the potential to get the life you want and deserve. You are a Spiritual Satanist, don't let anything stop you from improving your life and being happy!

 

[gbc4f6xau6kq3v3tmqkleqt2caxgpuqzbsckviit]

you are not experiencing fits, rage and anger are normal, Satan does not have a problem with anger, i wish i  personally had the capacity, but shit just doesn't get to me at all anymore.
it is perfectly fine to hate everything around you, if your life is fucked, then dont lie to yourself and pretend to be happy, its even ok to feel upset with the gods, with satan, our creator god wasn't strong enough to keep us all safe.
 remember that the gods are struggling as well, and nothing is ideal for anyone right now
being jealous of the piece of shit kikes that dont have to wok a day of their pathetic lives or worry an ounce about anything is PERFECTLY NORMAL!!!
those jews and their stupid goyim who have all the recognition, and riches do not deserve one bit of it.
you need to forget about the screaming drug addict family members, it is very easy for family to grab hold of your heart, if dirty trashbags are connected to your heart you cannot build any power for yourelf, it all gets siphoned off.
also the enemy ETs are likely constantly filling you with black and grey energy and they can also put thoughts into your mind.
the way to overcome this is to achieve more power, this can only be done through spiritual work.
i hope this reaches you in time before you lose internet access, however i do not know your level of spiritual advancement, so i cannot help you make a program, i can tell you you need to at minimum do kundalini yoga in the morning, a full chakra meditation sometime during the day or night, and then do hatha yoga before bed 

good luck, DO NOT LET THE ENEMY TEAR YOU APART, you are connected with all of us, and we practically share energies, you have the strength of many to use if you need.
but be sure to give back 

 

[Little Wolf1]

You are depressed and your mind is clouded.Try meditate, inhale, while inhale affirm yourself inhalig positive energy, and when exhale, imagine yourself exhaling negative energy.If you do it correctly, you will feel better. When you feel better, all the bad thoughts will disappear and you can think clearly of the things you should do. Good luck! Be strong!


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On Tuesday, September 12, 2017, 6:31 PM, thesatanictruth666@... [JoyofSatan666] <[email protected] wrote:

  I hope this gets approved so I can get some help on the subject, because its what has held me back the most from advancing.I go into uncontrollable fits of anger and sadness. I cant explain it too well, but I haven't had a happy life, or childhood while growing up. I was born into a filthy dirt poor family. I cant afford toilet paper most of the time, sadly. Most of everyone in my family is addicted to drugs. The home I live in is full of bad energy, I cant 'feel' energy yet, but I know it has to be. Everyone is always screaming at each other, everyone is always in a bad mood. My mother is a total bitch. Shes so weak, I don't see her being reincarnated into another life. I don't think her soul has enough energy for it. Shes put me through so much misery, I hope she  suffers and dies horribly.I'm basically living from a check, from month to month. I'm waiting right now for a letter to come in the mail, to see if I even keep it, or not. If I lose it, its game over, period. I'm waiting for my internet to get shut off, along with my electricity right now. Things are looking pretty bad. I don't really want to summon any demon for help, because it feels so wrong to ask for something like money, even though its something I need the most. I'm not open enough to see or hear demons. So I don't know what I should give in return for help.Sometimes I get so happy and love life, then I get a burst of anger and pure misery come over me, and sometimes I hate seeing happy people in the world.I hate seeing rich people, I hate seeing celebrities, etc. I want these outbursts to end. Can anyone help me? What should I do? When these outbursts happen, I get extremely negative, and offensive thoughts about Father Satan and the gods, after the attack ends I wonder why I thought those things in the first place.Yesterday I had one of the worst attacks that Ive had. I actually cut myself. I haven't did that in a while. I try to ask for help from Father Satan, and I get nothing.A while back I asked Father Satan for a demon lover, twice. But it seems nobody wants something like me. I sit a think about all the people is happy relationships, and here comes the rage again.Its really bad. I'm stuck in a loop of Misery and jealousy. I want to break out of it. I'm starting to lose faith in Satan, because of the sadness I go through. Why am I suffering so much? I wish one of the gods would just show up and save me from all of this. I've been basically begging Satan for the past year so save me from all of the Sadness. I don't know what to do. As you can see its impossible to work and advance myself through all of this. I try to keep a positive mind, it never works. If I cant be happy in life, then Id rather not exist at all. Can anyone give advice on how I should deal with this? Its really tearing me apart. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. I need some help in the worst way. 

 

[Little Wolf1]

It's not gonna dissapear in a one or two days, so bear yourself. Survive!Hail Satan!


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On Tuesday, September 12, 2017, 6:31 PM, thesatanictruth666@... [JoyofSatan666] <[email protected] wrote:

  I hope this gets approved so I can get some help on the subject, because its what has held me back the most from advancing.I go into uncontrollable fits of anger and sadness. I cant explain it too well, but I haven't had a happy life, or childhood while growing up. I was born into a filthy dirt poor family. I cant afford toilet paper most of the time, sadly. Most of everyone in my family is addicted to drugs. The home I live in is full of bad energy, I cant 'feel' energy yet, but I know it has to be. Everyone is always screaming at each other, everyone is always in a bad mood. My mother is a total bitch. Shes so weak, I don't see her being reincarnated into another life. I don't think her soul has enough energy for it. Shes put me through so much misery, I hope she  suffers and dies horribly.I'm basically living from a check, from month to month. I'm waiting right now for a letter to come in the mail, to see if I even keep it, or not. If I lose it, its game over, period. I'm waiting for my internet to get shut off, along with my electricity right now. Things are looking pretty bad. I don't really want to summon any demon for help, because it feels so wrong to ask for something like money, even though its something I need the most. I'm not open enough to see or hear demons. So I don't know what I should give in return for help.Sometimes I get so happy and love life, then I get a burst of anger and pure misery come over me, and sometimes I hate seeing happy people in the world.I hate seeing rich people, I hate seeing celebrities, etc. I want these outbursts to end. Can anyone help me? What should I do? When these outbursts happen, I get extremely negative, and offensive thoughts about Father Satan and the gods, after the attack ends I wonder why I thought those things in the first place.Yesterday I had one of the worst attacks that Ive had. I actually cut myself. I haven't did that in a while. I try to ask for help from Father Satan, and I get nothing.A while back I asked Father Satan for a demon lover, twice. But it seems nobody wants something like me. I sit a think about all the people is happy relationships, and here comes the rage again.Its really bad. I'm stuck in a loop of Misery and jealousy. I want to break out of it. I'm starting to lose faith in Satan, because of the sadness I go through. Why am I suffering so much? I wish one of the gods would just show up and save me from all of this. I've been basically begging Satan for the past year so save me from all of the Sadness. I don't know what to do. As you can see its impossible to work and advance myself through all of this. I try to keep a positive mind, it never works. If I cant be happy in life, then Id rather not exist at all. Can anyone give advice on how I should deal with this? Its really tearing me apart. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. I need some help in the worst way. 

 

[theunknownland]

My life is easier than yours. Still I have same feelings as you have (sorry English isn't my morher language).

"I don't really want to summon any demon for help, because it feels so wrong"

"But it seems nobody wants something like me"

Sounds like my thoughts.
I can't afford any advice. I do everyday a list about what I have to do, "10:00 rtr, 10:30 yoga, etc."' It helps little bit. I do little things, because I can't do big things. I wrote poems to deal with my feelings.

Stay strong bro/sis.

 

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This a ritual you can do to release your rage and all of your emotions in a great way. An SS gave me this ritual online I have no idea where he got it from or if he made it up. 
You do a standard Satanic ritual to Lord Satan, you state your request - that you want to give your energy and who you want to give it to (and possibly why): Satan, your God, another God, or another Satanist. Then you Raise your energies, and state when you are ready to give your energy. You would then imagine it being drawn out of you through a tube and into the God/Satanist and them becoming brighter with the energy you give, and you will become relaxed and return to a non-raised energy level.

You could also just imagine all of your rage and emotion going through the tube to the entity. Emotion is energy.
Standard Satanic Ritual: http://archive.is/HGpvu