My Thoughts.

[Herainette]

Greetings my family.

After a long time i get a time to write and a computer too. But only for mins. So here it is.

I am a person that already tried suicide( Before i was dedicated to Satan ). And right now this seems to make my mind busy. 'Cause i can't take this any more. i can't handle these. For all those years i lived the same shit over and over again. And you may know or don't my problems in my last threads. Or litteraly every of my thread. May gods will help ne for a new life ? I don't know. all i know is i got nobody no life no self respect because of my family. Only i have is JoS and i can't even go online here. Like i hid my tarot and griemorie in my ISLAMIC school. ISLAMIC. This is how things are worse. The safest place. ( Not safe at all ) is my fucking school. Please but please don't look to me in disappointment but this is the case. I love you.

 

[Herainette]

Greetings my family.

After a long time i get a time to write and a computer too. But only for mins. So here it is.

I am a person that already tried suicide( Before i was dedicated to Satan ). And right now this seems to make my mind busy. 'Cause i can't take this any more. i can't handle these. For all those years i lived the same shit over and over again. And you may know or don't my problems in my last threads. Or litteraly every of my thread. May gods will help ne for a new life ? I don't know. all i know is i got nobody no life no self respect because of my family. Only i have is JoS and i can't even go online here. Like i hid my tarot and griemorie in my ISLAMIC school. ISLAMIC. This is how things are worse. The safest place. ( Not safe at all ) is my fucking school. Please but please don't look to me in disappointment but this is the case. I love you.

After things i said here, it got worse.

 

[Silver Serpent]

Life is difficult. I hope you find inner strength and self respect. I know that it's difficult to keep the knowledge you've learned here to yourself. Its difficult to be suppressed by your environment. Instead of focusing on the negatives of life, also acknowledge the positives. Life is about balance. Like the Major Arcana card Temperance, how can you mix the bad and good in your life to bring happiness to yourself? If you are unhappy with your reality, what can you do to change that? Drowning in your misery will not bring you salvation.

I'm not one to bother the Gods with my issues. They have given the tools to handle it on my own. Yes, I ask for their guidance and support. But in the end, I have to want to help myself. I want to save myself. Cleanse yourself with meditation. Do an RTR ritual in your Astral temple. Do a deep cleansing. Rid yourself of the Islamic energy.

 

[UDDTHU]

My dear brother; I will read your other posts so that I can better understand your situation.
I understand your excitement and enthusiasm to continue this journey and path, and I completely understand you.
I think you are very lucky in a part of your life to have discovered the real truth about our God, Lord Lucifer.
All you need to do is simple meditation exercises. Such as aura cleansing, aura protection, and void meditation. These meditations take less than 20 minutes a day. But if you can, add other meditation exercises.
AND You should never have any physical items related to Satanism in this situation. NEVER!. Your safety is your priority. And you are under 18 and this is very dangerous for you, brother.
AND the next thing is to never, never, never tell even the closest people in your life about your SS and being a Satanist. And also watch your browser history. Stay close to the gods. You don't need to do a full-blown ritual to contact the gods. They are very kind and understand your situation. Just visualize their sigil or image in your mind and talk to them. Be sure that they are always listening to you. I guess you will be 18 in a few years; if so, you just need to fight a little less with your family and just pretend to do as they want. I am sure that in the future and when you are released from this situation, you will become a powerful person with a very bright soul.

 

[UDDTHU]

And I think reading this will help you:

Tips for Teens

 

[Herainette]

My dear brother; I will read your other posts so that I can better understand your situation.
I understand your excitement and enthusiasm to continue this journey and path, and I completely understand you.
I think you are very lucky in a part of your life to have discovered the real truth about our God, Lord Lucifer.
All you need to do is simple meditation exercises. Such as aura cleansing, aura protection, and void meditation. These meditations take less than 20 minutes a day. But if you can, add other meditation exercises.
AND You should never have any physical items related to Satanism in this situation. NEVER!. Your safety is your priority. And you are under 18 and this is very dangerous for you, brother.
AND the next thing is to never, never, never tell even the closest people in your life about your SS and being a Satanist. And also watch your browser history. Stay close to the gods. You don't need to do a full-blown ritual to contact the gods. They are very kind and understand your situation. Just visualize their sigil or image in your mind and talk to them. Be sure that they are always listening to you. I guess you will be 18 in a few years; if so, you just need to fight a little less with your family and just pretend to do as they want. I am sure that in the future and when you are released from this situation, you will become a powerful person with a very bright soul.

Thank you so much... i had a very bad day about my aunt saying '' You except that they will welcome you like this in to their lives ? ( Im gay ) '' and i was this close to live with my muslim uncle which basicly hates me. And these words made my day. Im still not sure about suicide 'cause a friend of mine said ( Which is one of us ) '' If you do kill yourself you will live these things you've been living for forever 'cause you will be defeated by them and it will hunt you forever '' and he is kinda right about being defeated and i can't accept that. Never. Also sadly i don't have any technologyical things that i can use to go in JoS. I've been a dedicated SS for 4 months now but since then i never been able to search properly and learn meditations sadly. And i still can't a astral temple would be awsome but it is so hard as i heard and i think i don't have enough energy for that. Any other suggestions other than pretending and doing meditations ? Thank you so so much.

 

[Silver Serpent]

Thank you so much... i had a very bad day about my aunt saying '' You except that they will welcome you like this in to their lives ? ( Im gay ) '' and i was this close to live with my muslim uncle which basicly hates me. And these words made my day. Im still not sure about suicide 'cause a friend of mine said ( Which is one of us ) '' If you do kill yourself you will live these things you've been living for forever 'cause you will be defeated by them and it will hunt you forever '' and he is kinda right about being defeated and i can't accept that. Never. Also sadly i don't have any technologyical things that i can use to go in JoS. I've been a dedicated SS for 4 months now but since then i never been able to search properly and learn meditations sadly. And i still can't a astral temple would be awsome but it is so hard as i heard and i think i don't have enough energy for that. Any other suggestions other than pretending and doing meditations ? Thank you so so much.

How are you able to access the forums but not the website?

 

[Fsihson666]

Greetings my family.

After a long time i get a time to write and a computer too. But only for mins. So here it is.

I am a person that already tried suicide( Before i was dedicated to Satan ). And right now this seems to make my mind busy. 'Cause i can't take this any more. i can't handle these. For all those years i lived the same shit over and over again. And you may know or don't my problems in my last threads. Or litteraly every of my thread. May gods will help ne for a new life ? I don't know. all i know is i got nobody no life no self respect because of my family. Only i have is JoS and i can't even go online here. Like i hid my tarot and griemorie in my ISLAMIC school. ISLAMIC. This is how things are worse. The safest place. ( Not safe at all ) is my fucking school. Please but please don't look to me in disappointment but this is the case. I love you.

i feel like ive had a rough life too and i think its very kind that you think to talk to us i havnt read your other post but you are on the right path my blood and i know Father Satan will guide you with protection to all of your desires. I BELIVE IN U!

 

[Herainette]

How are you able to access the forums but not the website?

No i can access both but i don't have any personal technological device to use it all-time. This is my cousins computer and im doing it secretly when no one is around and we are talking about 4-5 mins. So i don't think it would be effective for me to go on the website and read 1 2 lines. So im using this time to go online in forums.

 

[Herainette]

No i can access both but i don't have any personal technological device to use it all-time. This is my cousins computer and im doing it secretly when no one is around and we are talking about 4-5 mins. So i don't think it would be effective for me to go on the website and read 1 2 lines. So im using this time to go online in forums.

Like im probably gonna be able to check this tomorrow.