DreamWeaver
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When I was a young child... I drew a portrait of what I considered my "alter ego," at the time. I always had a subconscious preference to be blonde and blue-eyed. The image I drew had long blonde hair, pale skin, blue eyes. However, in this current lifetime I am an indigenous person with a few European great-great grandfathers and one Italian great-grandfather (most of my maternal predecessors being indigenous). I was never sure as to why, as a child, I'd rather not have brown eyes and brown hair.
After years of being "educated" about the world wars, self-researching world religions, and finally... I came across JOS website one day. All of my research has reached the same conclusion as what I find on JOS. I realize now, I had a past life during the second world war. As a teenager, I had a dream of Hitler kissing me on the cheek, as though he was telling me goodbye. I didn't know how old I was, or how I looked, but my current ego was confused as to why he would show me such care. I boarded a bus and saw many people sad. I was confused as to who they were? At the time I had this dream, I was still immature, ignorant, and maybe brainwashed (by the enemy). So as a teen educated to believe whatever they taught, I assumed I was a Jew put on a bus to be transported to a concentration camp... But then why would the fuhrer kiss my cheek? In that dream, I felt pleased to see the fuhrer, but sad that I was leaving... I guess we had to evacuate, or else.
Now, as for another oddity, and I don't mean any offence, as a teenager I was entertained in watching "Hitler rants parodies." So many people can't even laugh at these parodies, just because of the "Oh Hitler was so bad" mentality a lot of them are forced to have. But me? I've always had sympathy for Hitler since I learned he was rejected by an art university. I even wrote a short eulogy for Hitler in a history class. I wrote that what I see in Hitler was a man who was "too human" in the sense that he only wanted what's best for the world; that humans always go to great lengths to achieve their goals or ideals; and that he kept striving for success. As for the parodies I watched, I think the subconscious reason for enjoying them is because I knew the fuhrer in my past life. I feel bad for the implied mockery with such parodies, but it's only the subtitles that truly amuse me. Or rather, perhaps it is simply mockery of how the enemy falsely portrays him.
I was raised and partially brainwashed by a christianized community and family... Those cursed christians almost took away all of the indigenous pagan practices. These traditional ceremonies are slowly making a comeback. I was brainwashed as a child... As a preteen, I began learning how much hypocrisy and ignorance there is in spiteful religious people, particularly of the Abrahamic faiths: homophobia, stoning people, etc. I began questioning how could there be so much hatred in these people's hearts... Then I realized how corrupt these Abrahamic religions are.
In retrospect, I also realize I began having night terrors/sleep terrors the same age I began questioning the religion I was brought up in. I realize now it's the enemy. They were psychically attacking me because I was truthseeking on the internet. I've figured out the physical cause of my night terrors is low blood glucose... So, scientifically I have rid myself of night terrors by eating or drinking something before going to sleep.
I can perceive the entire picture now. Satan and the gods have helped me so many times. Since I was a preteen I've been interested in the occult and spiritual. I have always known there's more to life (and death) than as it seems. As a preteen I began believing that "Lucifer can be redeemed," but over time I came to learn and realize this so-called "devil" is really Father Satan/Lord Enki. It's unclear to me if Lucifer and Satan are the same or separate individuals or somehow aspects of each other. But I have always been skeptical of the whole "Satan = evil" narrative. It's all the more fascinating to me, that the truth is all gods, angels, and demons are ultimately immortal extraterrestrials.
For the past 12 years I have also been independently learning astrology and practicing psychoanalysis via the natal chart. I feel like astrology is a gift I have carried on from my past lives. My Sun conjunct Moon, and Mercury (not conjunct) are in the 9th House, going by most house systems.
After lurking through some threads, I realize it is essential I quit all my addictions, because I remember the last time I was at my most powerful was before I ever touched alcohol or weed. Unfortunately in childhood I was mishappeningly poisoned with aspartame, traces of mercury, and possibly a prescription pill. But I do remember my intuition being greater than that of my peers' and I was perceptive of the corruption of my home community. I intend to do a complete detox eventually. I admit as soon as I fell into the traps of substance abuse, I lost my integrity as a spiritual Satanist and forgot my bigger values of individuality, independence, inner strength, emotional honesty, etc.
I admit my shortcomings, but for the longest time I've been suicidal, and now I realize the ideation has never been my own... The enemy has severely weakened my mind and spirit. But I know now that I am better than what they tried to mislead me into being.
I once had a precognitive dream of my one and only ex, and he is an islamic who was curious of Satanism but never took it seriously... I think he's a Satanic soul I could have liberated, but he didn't treat me right and cheated once or twice... But I also think the enemy projected that dream to convince me to find him and be with him. I was so willing to eventually convert if we married, but deep down, it didn't feel right to me. But I think I did myself a huge favor leaving him.
The point to all this, is that I want to learn the truth about everything. The theology of JOS is the closest match to my skepticism of what the second world war was really about; my unification of many beliefs of world religions; that aliens were involved in the ancient times and even to this day; and more.
I also believe most of us have a common enemy. Because although Earth humans are capable of atrocious acts and wonderful deeds... If only one human ran the world, their followers would eventually turn on them. But if many aliens run the world, then it's more easy to dictate everyone, because they are intelligent enough to manipulate the masses.
Anyway, I could elaborate more, but these points are peculiar to me. I mention the first two because of posts about the race of one's soul.
Hail Father Satan.
After years of being "educated" about the world wars, self-researching world religions, and finally... I came across JOS website one day. All of my research has reached the same conclusion as what I find on JOS. I realize now, I had a past life during the second world war. As a teenager, I had a dream of Hitler kissing me on the cheek, as though he was telling me goodbye. I didn't know how old I was, or how I looked, but my current ego was confused as to why he would show me such care. I boarded a bus and saw many people sad. I was confused as to who they were? At the time I had this dream, I was still immature, ignorant, and maybe brainwashed (by the enemy). So as a teen educated to believe whatever they taught, I assumed I was a Jew put on a bus to be transported to a concentration camp... But then why would the fuhrer kiss my cheek? In that dream, I felt pleased to see the fuhrer, but sad that I was leaving... I guess we had to evacuate, or else.
Now, as for another oddity, and I don't mean any offence, as a teenager I was entertained in watching "Hitler rants parodies." So many people can't even laugh at these parodies, just because of the "Oh Hitler was so bad" mentality a lot of them are forced to have. But me? I've always had sympathy for Hitler since I learned he was rejected by an art university. I even wrote a short eulogy for Hitler in a history class. I wrote that what I see in Hitler was a man who was "too human" in the sense that he only wanted what's best for the world; that humans always go to great lengths to achieve their goals or ideals; and that he kept striving for success. As for the parodies I watched, I think the subconscious reason for enjoying them is because I knew the fuhrer in my past life. I feel bad for the implied mockery with such parodies, but it's only the subtitles that truly amuse me. Or rather, perhaps it is simply mockery of how the enemy falsely portrays him.
I was raised and partially brainwashed by a christianized community and family... Those cursed christians almost took away all of the indigenous pagan practices. These traditional ceremonies are slowly making a comeback. I was brainwashed as a child... As a preteen, I began learning how much hypocrisy and ignorance there is in spiteful religious people, particularly of the Abrahamic faiths: homophobia, stoning people, etc. I began questioning how could there be so much hatred in these people's hearts... Then I realized how corrupt these Abrahamic religions are.
In retrospect, I also realize I began having night terrors/sleep terrors the same age I began questioning the religion I was brought up in. I realize now it's the enemy. They were psychically attacking me because I was truthseeking on the internet. I've figured out the physical cause of my night terrors is low blood glucose... So, scientifically I have rid myself of night terrors by eating or drinking something before going to sleep.
I can perceive the entire picture now. Satan and the gods have helped me so many times. Since I was a preteen I've been interested in the occult and spiritual. I have always known there's more to life (and death) than as it seems. As a preteen I began believing that "Lucifer can be redeemed," but over time I came to learn and realize this so-called "devil" is really Father Satan/Lord Enki. It's unclear to me if Lucifer and Satan are the same or separate individuals or somehow aspects of each other. But I have always been skeptical of the whole "Satan = evil" narrative. It's all the more fascinating to me, that the truth is all gods, angels, and demons are ultimately immortal extraterrestrials.
For the past 12 years I have also been independently learning astrology and practicing psychoanalysis via the natal chart. I feel like astrology is a gift I have carried on from my past lives. My Sun conjunct Moon, and Mercury (not conjunct) are in the 9th House, going by most house systems.
After lurking through some threads, I realize it is essential I quit all my addictions, because I remember the last time I was at my most powerful was before I ever touched alcohol or weed. Unfortunately in childhood I was mishappeningly poisoned with aspartame, traces of mercury, and possibly a prescription pill. But I do remember my intuition being greater than that of my peers' and I was perceptive of the corruption of my home community. I intend to do a complete detox eventually. I admit as soon as I fell into the traps of substance abuse, I lost my integrity as a spiritual Satanist and forgot my bigger values of individuality, independence, inner strength, emotional honesty, etc.
I admit my shortcomings, but for the longest time I've been suicidal, and now I realize the ideation has never been my own... The enemy has severely weakened my mind and spirit. But I know now that I am better than what they tried to mislead me into being.
I once had a precognitive dream of my one and only ex, and he is an islamic who was curious of Satanism but never took it seriously... I think he's a Satanic soul I could have liberated, but he didn't treat me right and cheated once or twice... But I also think the enemy projected that dream to convince me to find him and be with him. I was so willing to eventually convert if we married, but deep down, it didn't feel right to me. But I think I did myself a huge favor leaving him.
The point to all this, is that I want to learn the truth about everything. The theology of JOS is the closest match to my skepticism of what the second world war was really about; my unification of many beliefs of world religions; that aliens were involved in the ancient times and even to this day; and more.
I also believe most of us have a common enemy. Because although Earth humans are capable of atrocious acts and wonderful deeds... If only one human ran the world, their followers would eventually turn on them. But if many aliens run the world, then it's more easy to dictate everyone, because they are intelligent enough to manipulate the masses.
Anyway, I could elaborate more, but these points are peculiar to me. I mention the first two because of posts about the race of one's soul.
Hail Father Satan.
