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My sister took 46 painkillers a few days ago
She went to the emergency room.
Fortunately, she is recovering.
And the will she wrote to me was like a child who only saw negative things in the world.
I think she can't decide on her career path
, seen too much negative information since she was young.
Her mbti is intp and
I think she is quite lazy and doesn't want to be responsible for her life because of her artistic side
This may have attempted suicide.
I think she has the negative side of Neptune.
I have two sisters.
My other sister also overdosed on sleeping pills a few years ago
I also tried to commit suicide a year ago, but I quit.
Is it a sin to be lazy, weak-willed, and not passionate about life?
Is it that great to be responsible for life?
My sister said that she had been thinking of suicide since the fifth grade of elementary school.
The negative content of today's society is very wrong.
Too many people commit suicide because of this.
I'm going to join the Marine Corps because I'm angry about this
But I quit.
I have no passion for life too, I will join the military next year
I'm going to run away.
Military service is mandatory in Korea.
I personally don't like to criticize the weak will
I hate it.
Being born to like to rest is not our choice, nor is it our choice to be born with this character
 
My sister took 46 painkillers a few days ago
She went to the emergency room.
Fortunately, she is recovering.
And the will she wrote to me was like a child who only saw negative things in the world.
I think she can't decide on her career path
, seen too much negative information since she was young.
Her mbti is intp and
I think she is quite lazy and doesn't want to be responsible for her life because of her artistic side
This may have attempted suicide.
I think she has the negative side of Neptune.
I have two sisters.
My other sister also overdosed on sleeping pills a few years ago
I also tried to commit suicide a year ago, but I quit.
Is it a sin to be lazy, weak-willed, and not passionate about life?
Is it that great to be responsible for life?
My sister said that she had been thinking of suicide since the fifth grade of elementary school.
The negative content of today's society is very wrong.
Too many people commit suicide because of this.
I'm going to join the Marine Corps because I'm angry about this
But I quit.
I have no passion for life too, I will join the military next year
I'm going to run away.
Military service is mandatory in Korea.
I personally don't like to criticize the weak will
I hate it.
Being born to like to rest is not our choice, nor is it our choice to be born with this character
What does an ideal life look like for you?
 
My sister took 46 painkillers a few days ago
She went to the emergency room.
Fortunately, she is recovering.
And the will she wrote to me was like a child who only saw negative things in the world.
I think she can't decide on her career path
, seen too much negative information since she was young.
Her mbti is intp and
I think she is quite lazy and doesn't want to be responsible for her life because of her artistic side
This may have attempted suicide.
I think she has the negative side of Neptune.
I have two sisters.
My other sister also overdosed on sleeping pills a few years ago
I also tried to commit suicide a year ago, but I quit.
Is it a sin to be lazy, weak-willed, and not passionate about life?
Is it that great to be responsible for life?
My sister said that she had been thinking of suicide since the fifth grade of elementary school.
The negative content of today's society is very wrong.
Too many people commit suicide because of this.
I'm going to join the Marine Corps because I'm angry about this
But I quit.
I have no passion for life too, I will join the military next year
I'm going to run away.
Military service is mandatory in Korea.
I personally don't like to criticize the weak will
I hate it.
Being born to like to rest is not our choice, nor is it our choice to be born with this character
This is actually very sad. Please if you don't want to risk making it worse, Talk to her if you can she is your sister. She shares the same blood as you. See where she is coming from instead of trying to jump to conclusion on things based off assumptions and help her get help if she is looking for. If she is looking for it.

Satan and the Gods love to see families thrive. Though unfornately in many situations its impossible because some don't want to listen to reason. Some are beyond a point and dont want to even help themselves. Forcing you to let go and move on.

Also,
Is she SS? Has she dedicated to father satan? IF NOT. I recommend to try and leave a trail behind for her to find satan. Don't let her know it was you. You can write the JoS logo on a piece of paper in a style of handwriting she would not recognize and place it somewhere where she can obtain the message without her knowing it was you. You can use some of the rtrs like ending confusion, serpent empowerment etc. To help free her soul. Even the final rtr.

I hope things get better. Hopefully she listens to reason. If not it's at least noble and honorable to walk a path knowing you did try your best. This is at least my opinion on things.

I've had family who didn't wanna listen to reason, some who did. Some kept doing me wrong over and over again...my situation was a little bit different but I cursed them to shit in the end for the things they put me through. That is when i realized in depth more from understanding/wisdom you guys were more of my family than most of my family. We also share a deep blood connection through the dedication ritual to father satan!

I did lots of chord cutting and what ever stress they put me through I released it, broke free from it and send it back amplified. Some were stealing from me. Some were mistreating my daughter. Some tried throwing me to the dirt when I didn't have much. I survived because I dedicated to the gods years ago and made a promise. A promise to be strong and get through what ever obstacle I faced and I've been thriving since... thriving beyond measurable lengths you could imagine.

I would never wish what I went through onto a dedicated SS, but I'm letting you know as well if there is situations where other family keeps dragging you down. It's best sometimes to let go and do what you gotta do in life. IF your sister has ears to listen man, see how much she can listen and take in. You might end up help playing a role saving her in the end. The gods see these things. They will judge you based off the route you walk in life as well. They will judge you based off what's within your satanic heart.

It doesn't seem like you are phased much by what happen, but I can only imagine the toll it's actually playing. I know it would take time for me to know how to even cope with the situation or even handle it.. I hope my post helps.
 
Is it a sin to be lazy, weak-willed, and not passionate about life?
A sin no, but these are symptoms of depression.
Is it that great to be responsible for life?
What is "great" when you are responsible is that your energy is fully engaged in a way.
The negative content of today's society is very wrong.
Too many people commit suicide because of this.
Yes, societies are not lead by our friends, this is why the atmosphere is austere, it undermines us.

To be passionate, creative... is important. I'd say it's the own of the human.

Life in itself is at least combative and pro-creative. It's related to self-preservation, otherwise it's death.
Human needs material food and space but also in astral and mental forms to be healthy. So we must search for "passions" or any interest to stay awake and ready to search for the next enterprise, to want, to desire, to decide.
If you don't want or desire anything you think to vices, drug, suicide or about destroying others... the path of the "weaks", cowards, evils...

Yes, currently, leaders on Earth maintain conditions to drive the weakest to suicide, and these guys are not weak but evil.
They destroy our faith to get rif of us. Faith contains for sure combativity and creativity.

You and your sisters must rebuild your faith.
 
My sister took 46 painkillers a few days ago
She went to the emergency room.
Fortunately, she is recovering.
And the will she wrote to me was like a child who only saw negative things in the world.
I think she can't decide on her career path
, seen too much negative information since she was young.
Her mbti is intp and
I think she is quite lazy and doesn't want to be responsible for her life because of her artistic side
This may have attempted suicide.
I think she has the negative side of Neptune.
I have two sisters.
My other sister also overdosed on sleeping pills a few years ago
I also tried to commit suicide a year ago, but I quit.
Is it a sin to be lazy, weak-willed, and not passionate about life?
Is it that great to be responsible for life?
My sister said that she had been thinking of suicide since the fifth grade of elementary school.
The negative content of today's society is very wrong.
Too many people commit suicide because of this.
I'm going to join the Marine Corps because I'm angry about this
But I quit.
I have no passion for life too, I will join the military next year
I'm going to run away.
Military service is mandatory in Korea.
I personally don't like to criticize the weak will
I hate it.
Being born to like to rest is not our choice, nor is it our choice to be born with this character

Make sure that your sister won't do suicide by encouraging her in her artistic pursuits, rebuild your faith in Gods as well as do aura cleaning together.

As for laziness, it is only a "sin" if it is in your detriment, like what is defined as spiritual acedia. If you do your rituals, spiritual routine and work to the Gods and then take some breaks to re-energize yourself, for either other rituals or for your artistic pursuits (nice music you launched by the way), you don't need to be worried about "laziness".

And one thing. Don't worry about the military service. You should feel it as an honor as you are SS and protecting and serving your country.

It's the problem with governing not the soldiers after all.
 
What does an ideal life look like for you?
I can't accept the fact that I can't make a profit from metal bands today.
I used to be passionate about Satanism
I tried translate the joy website,
But I stop
My dream was to gather Satan believers in Korea to build the right Satan community and make a metal band, but now I have given up my life.
The translation is taking a break because of the slump.
I can't understand university lectures because of depression.
I want to quit university.
I understand that I don't think rationally when writing but I don't get a kick out of anything at the moment.
The ideal life I want is to play the electric guitar in a metal band.
When I watch metal band live videos these days, I often think, "Why can't I do that?"
I must to do a metal band because I'm artistry....
 
I can't accept the fact that I can't make a profit from metal bands today.
I used to be passionate about Satanism
I tried translate the joy website,
But I stop
You must accept and understand that things are difficult to setup, and why.
All your energy must be directed toward your goals, else it dissipates to end nowhere.

If university bores you and want create your metal band as guitarist to promote Satanism, stay focus on solfa and your technic, meditation, Satanic readings...
But keep in mind that is easier to learn mathematics and other important things while you are in university !

I failed on many plans all my life despite having miscellaneous skills many have not. I study, learn, realize but never terminate, never sell anything.
I know today why, difficulties in childhood make me psychically unbalanced and weaken.
The meditations provide by JoS are the most efficient and best way to correct and improve yourself.

If your Solar Chakra is weak, nobody is ready to trust you and this fact sink you in a new period of depression.
So to feel good and be able to realize something, the meditation program must be your priority.
 
I can't accept the fact that I can't make a profit from metal bands today.
I used to be passionate about Satanism
I tried translate the joy website,
But I stop
My dream was to gather Satan believers in Korea to build the right Satan community and make a metal band, but now I have given up my life.
The translation is taking a break because of the slump.
I can't understand university lectures because of depression.
I want to quit university.
I understand that I don't think rationally when writing but I don't get a kick out of anything at the moment.
The ideal life I want is to play the electric guitar in a metal band.
When I watch metal band live videos these days, I often think, "Why can't I do that?"
I must to do a metal band because I'm artistry....
You can have your dream, but you must also have the means to achieve this dream.

As an artist, you need a reliable and stable source of income as getting by, or better yet, making money as an artist is very difficult. So having a job while also doing the usual stuff the artists do is pretty much a must for as long as you are unable to make enough money with artistic pursuits (unless you have someone else providing for you in some capacity or another).

What are you studying at the university?
 
I'm studying cyber security.
Actually, I don't want to study at university
I went to college to delay my responsibility for the future.
In Korea, there is a culture in which adults brainwashed that they cannot live a human life unless they graduate from college.
Maybe You will know about this.
I didn't know about the world when I was 19 and just acted programmed and that's the result.
I haven't been thinking rationally lately due to depression.
I often keep spacing out, and the contents of the university lecture are not understood and it is difficult to concentrate.
Almost every night I experience tears or a desire to cry and an unknown anger.
After 40 days of power meditation,
it's maybe outpouring suppressed emotion
But the problem is that I don't know what the problem is.
My thinking skills decline, I have no will to live, and I am so lethargy
 
I'm studying cyber security.
Actually, I don't want to study at university
I went to college to delay my responsibility for the future.
In Korea, there is a culture in which adults brainwashed that they cannot live a human life unless they graduate from college.
Maybe You will know about this.
Do your parents force you to do this? Or is it just a cultural thing?
 
I'm studying cyber security.
Actually, I don't want to study at university
I went to college to delay my responsibility for the future.
In Korea, there is a culture in which adults brainwashed that they cannot live a human life unless they graduate from college.
Maybe You will know about this.
I didn't know about the world when I was 19 and just acted programmed and that's the result.
I haven't been thinking rationally lately due to depression.
I often keep spacing out, and the contents of the university lecture are not understood and it is difficult to concentrate.
Almost every night I experience tears or a desire to cry and an unknown anger.
After 40 days of power meditation,
it's maybe outpouring suppressed emotion
But the problem is that I don't know what the problem is.
My thinking skills decline, I have no will to live, and I am so lethargy
I am aware of how your culture approaches this topic to an extent, yes. The various challenges that result from in going the wrong direction can be alleviated by going to a direction that instead helps elevate and grow you. However, we must also count the potential suppressed emotions coming to the surface as a result of various events in your life. Since you are now in the adult age you can make decisions for yourself, although some decisions can potentially lead to your family disowning you if they are really hardcore about the cultural programming. So the decision of what route to take is something you have to weigh carefully considering the reaction from your family. Is there any way for you to provide for yourself which would then enable you to gradually move closer to your artistic goals? Maybe there is something else for you to study that can be your money-making thing on the side?
 
Our ss friends gave you the necessary advice; What I want to say is that running away from any event is not the way to get rid of that event or problem. You have to think and act like a warrior because life itself is a war. Please do not run away from any responsibility or incident. My next advice to you is that if my translator worked correctly, I understand that your sister is interested in art. You can get special art supplies for your sister and make her artistic talent flourish. Artists often struggle with bad feelings; So it is better to spend a little more time with her.
The next solution is that you can get help from the gods or improve in meditation so much that you can protect your family. How to do this is available on all jos websites.
And I'm sorry for my bad English, I use a translator.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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