i tried to keep this concise but i have a tendency to yap for too long, apologies
so i have this friend, who i rarely ever got out with on my own, mostly due to what seems like zero overlap in our availability schedule. otherwise, we hang out as a part of a group every few months when time permits.
i knew he was a jew long before i started taking Satanism seriously. it always stayed somewhere in the back of my mind, but it always led to excuses, such as "surely he isnt genetically a jew, theres so few of them in this country, surely his family just converted" (not that thats ideal either). he himself is not yet officially converted, because there are no rabbis in our city that could do that, but his entire family "practices the religion".
since i started doing daily meditations, we've met only once, recently, and i could not shake off the feeling something was off. it started when he began laughing for like 5 minutes straight, but completely.. devoid of emotion. it would be more touching if an actual AI did the same. now, had it been the only thing that happened i would've forgotten about it already.
as we were walking i kept sensing what has to be the most off putting energy I've ever felt. not strong, but uncomfortable.
i kept seeing a weird blackish / dark greyish energy circling through him, similar to how a few drops of black ink would look a few seconds after they fall into a glass of water. i dont usually start seeing energies out of the blue, unless concentrated on it.
i know ive gotten better at it, but not drastically. so i cant believe this would be the first time it was so prominent, now leading me to not being sure whether im making it up or not.
I've read through other similar posts here, and I've seen i should "do the final RTR on him and see what happens" but i just dont know how i would see a change, given that that man has an immune system of an ant and would get unwell from a spring breeze if he went outside without a coat.
im also not really at a level at which i can communicate with Gods completely freely, it mostly consists of very simple answers, pointers and so on. so im not too sure i can expect a true meaningful or deep answer (dont get me wrong, im aware its a blockage on my end)
my biggest concerns being, firstly, he is a smart dude and we've had some truly interesting conversations in the past, so i now feel like im losing a friend, perhaps a bit naive of me.
secondly, how in the world do i do anything about this without shattering the friend group?
and thirdly, i think you figured by now i have no idea what my next step should be, let alone the road i should take, so im shamelessly asking for advice
so i have this friend, who i rarely ever got out with on my own, mostly due to what seems like zero overlap in our availability schedule. otherwise, we hang out as a part of a group every few months when time permits.
i knew he was a jew long before i started taking Satanism seriously. it always stayed somewhere in the back of my mind, but it always led to excuses, such as "surely he isnt genetically a jew, theres so few of them in this country, surely his family just converted" (not that thats ideal either). he himself is not yet officially converted, because there are no rabbis in our city that could do that, but his entire family "practices the religion".
since i started doing daily meditations, we've met only once, recently, and i could not shake off the feeling something was off. it started when he began laughing for like 5 minutes straight, but completely.. devoid of emotion. it would be more touching if an actual AI did the same. now, had it been the only thing that happened i would've forgotten about it already.
as we were walking i kept sensing what has to be the most off putting energy I've ever felt. not strong, but uncomfortable.
i kept seeing a weird blackish / dark greyish energy circling through him, similar to how a few drops of black ink would look a few seconds after they fall into a glass of water. i dont usually start seeing energies out of the blue, unless concentrated on it.
i know ive gotten better at it, but not drastically. so i cant believe this would be the first time it was so prominent, now leading me to not being sure whether im making it up or not.
I've read through other similar posts here, and I've seen i should "do the final RTR on him and see what happens" but i just dont know how i would see a change, given that that man has an immune system of an ant and would get unwell from a spring breeze if he went outside without a coat.
im also not really at a level at which i can communicate with Gods completely freely, it mostly consists of very simple answers, pointers and so on. so im not too sure i can expect a true meaningful or deep answer (dont get me wrong, im aware its a blockage on my end)
my biggest concerns being, firstly, he is a smart dude and we've had some truly interesting conversations in the past, so i now feel like im losing a friend, perhaps a bit naive of me.
secondly, how in the world do i do anything about this without shattering the friend group?
and thirdly, i think you figured by now i have no idea what my next step should be, let alone the road i should take, so im shamelessly asking for advice