More to my introduction

[aurora.borealis66]

  When I was young I have always felt different from the outside world. I felt disconnected. I learned to live in my own universe. My world was different from the World of Division (meaning unbalance – a break in masculinity and femininity). The World of Division is filled with unspeakable things. No understanding of the deeper things in life. The cruelty and harshness of this world was overwhelming. So, living in my own world, I had obtained the wisdom and knowledge of the deeper things of life – of the human spirit – more specifically my own spirit. In my Universe or world, I have acknowledged the feminine energy or woman within. She (inner Self) has always been there whispering words of wisdom and advising me on certain things - not letting others Oppress me. Also, not letting those old religious thoughts suppress my feelings – the female within. The divine female within has always been my comforter. As we know, the female is the gentle, compassionate merciful and Life Giving Being and She is perfection in the balance of life, whether it be a Luciferic light within or a companion – to create a balance in all areas of life. She has even manifested in poems and stories I have written and/or writing. So you see, the female within has been constantly present throughout my life and she begs to be freed – to come out from the prison that has kept her shackled for many years.    Being a transsexual woman is not a faze, but a journey towards self-recognition, respect, and most of all, self-discovery. It’s not a choice that one can just choose. I like to compare it to a diamond in the raw. It needs to cut out, grinded, and polished, and the beauty of that gemstone will surface.I have searched and been apart of many different religions and spiritual movements in my life. Now I make my own path. I am a Gnostic Luciferian. But I share somethings in common with JoS. So again, I am happy to be here. 
Cheers!Luci

 

[Allison Passino]

Welcome sister! ^

On 4/13/14, aurora.borealis66@... <aurora.borealis66@... wrote:

When I was young I have always felt different from the outside world. I
felt disconnected. I learned to live in my own universe. My world was
different from the World of Division (meaning unbalance – a break in
masculinity and femininity). The World of Division is filled with
unspeakable things. No understanding of the deeper things in life. The
cruelty and harshness of this world was overwhelming.
So, living in my own world, I had obtained the wisdom and knowledge of the
deeper things of life – of the human spirit – more specifically my own
spirit.
In my Universe or world, I have acknowledged the feminine energy or woman
within. She (inner Self) has always been there whispering words of wisdom
and advising me on certain things - not letting others Oppress me. Also, not
letting those old religious thoughts suppress my feelings – the female
within.
The divine female within has always been my comforter. As we know, the
female is the gentle, compassionate merciful and Life Giving Being and She
is perfection in the balance of life, whether it be a Luciferic light within
or a companion – to create a balance in all areas of life. She has even
manifested in poems and stories I have written and/or writing.
So you see, the female within has been constantly present throughout my
life and she begs to be freed – to come out from the prison that has kept
her shackled for many years.

Being a transsexual woman is not a faze, but a journey towards
self-recognition, respect, and most of all, self-discovery. It’s not a
choice that one can just choose. I like to compare it to a diamond in the
raw. It needs to cut out, grinded, and polished, and the beauty of that
gemstone will surface.
I have searched and been apart of many different religions and spiritual
movements in my life. Now I make my own path. I am a Gnostic Luciferian. But
I share somethings in common with JoS.
So again, I am happy to be here.


Cheers!
Luci

 

[Eugene Sp]

I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND! Thank you Luci for sharing part of your beautiful story with us. My journey is very similar to yours. I knew by the age of five that I was different and strongly felt the feminine within, even though at that age I could not explain or understand it. That was many decades ago; for in those days the word "Transgender" was classified as a mental disorder! Thus, growing up, the more I "suppressed" the more my true self wanted so desperately to "express" itself! It finally came to a point later in life that I had to allow it to be freed. My inner soul wouldn't take no for an answer. It was a feeling so euphoric I cannot describe it--if any of you have had this liberation, you know what words cannot describe. It makes me soooe happy these days to see the LGBT youth get the guidance, support, and assistance to express who they truly are, & not have to suffer as I have most of my life. It would be great to hear of others' stories from this
egroup such as yours Luci. Thank you my dear!!! friend jene.



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On Sun, Apr 13, 2014 4:36 PM PDT aurora.borealis66@... wrote:


When I was young I have always felt different from the outside world. I felt disconnected. I learned to live in my own universe. My world was different from the World of Division (meaning unbalance – a break in masculinity and femininity). The World of Division is filled with unspeakable things. No understanding of the deeper things in life. The cruelty and harshness of this world was overwhelming.
So, living in my own world, I had obtained the wisdom and knowledge of the deeper things of life – of the human spirit – more specifically my own spirit.
In my Universe or world, I have acknowledged the feminine energy or woman within. She (inner Self) has always been there whispering words of wisdom and advising me on certain things - not letting others Oppress me. Also, not letting those old religious thoughts suppress my feelings – the female within.
The divine female within has always been my comforter. As we know, the female is the gentle, compassionate merciful and Life Giving Being and She is perfection in the balance of life, whether it be a Luciferic light within or a companion – to create a balance in all areas of life. She has even manifested in poems and stories I have written and/or writing.
So you see, the female within has been constantly present throughout my life and she begs to be freed – to come out from the prison that has kept her shackled for many years.

Being a transsexual woman is not a faze, but a journey towards self-recognition, respect, and most of all, self-discovery. It’s not a choice that one can just choose. I like to compare it to a diamond in the raw. It needs to cut out, grinded, and polished, and the beauty of that gemstone will surface.
I have searched and been apart of many different religions and spiritual movements in my life. Now I make my own path. I am a Gnostic Luciferian. But I share somethings in common with JoS.
So again, I am happy to be here.


Cheers!
Luci

 

[aurora.borealis66]

Thank you. It's great to be apart of an accepting group. Like you, Jene, I would like to hear other people's stories. I have been reading the posts here and I am finding it very interesting. 
dark blessingsLuci