Today something very strange happened to me, I have already created some theories about it but I would like some opinions.
Today I spent the whole day having some emotional crises, from nothing I felt my emotional shaking and I felt like crying, even before noticing what was happening my eyes started to tear, this was strange for me, but I accepted it, until earlier today I went to the church (my mother made me) and I ended up starting to clean the aura there using Surya, only that completely out of nowhere came that desire again, but this time I automatically noticed that my kundalini released energy, and I simply felt at the same time very good and wanting to cry, then I realized that my throat chakra was preventing my kundalini energy from rising, so I opened my throat chakra, and I automatically noticed that the energy rose and then accumulated in the fetal chakra, then I opened the crown chakra and the energy just rose, even now I still feel it rising, and it made me exhausted and feeling sick, in fact I still feel exhausted, like I've run a marathon, and that's what I feel whenever I have too much energy in my soul from too much meditation, but I literally did nothing too much today.
I also realized that after coming back from church and trying to clean my aura with Surya I got even more tired, plus I felt like I had nothing to cleanse, which doesn't make sense because churches always dirty my soul.
So my question is, what can be happening? I have been meditating for about a year and 4 months, and it doesn't make sense to me to think that it is my kundalini awakening, but I also remember already reading some members talking about kundalini and saying that the most important thing to prepare the soul for kundalini, is not the strength of the chakras, but how clean and unblocked the soul is, and I cleanse my soul with Vi-Suddhi and have been doing some complicated cleansing for the last few weeks, plus I have recently started doing kundalini yoga daily, so I wonder if it is really possible to be kundalini awakening.
Today I spent the whole day having some emotional crises, from nothing I felt my emotional shaking and I felt like crying, even before noticing what was happening my eyes started to tear, this was strange for me, but I accepted it, until earlier today I went to the church (my mother made me) and I ended up starting to clean the aura there using Surya, only that completely out of nowhere came that desire again, but this time I automatically noticed that my kundalini released energy, and I simply felt at the same time very good and wanting to cry, then I realized that my throat chakra was preventing my kundalini energy from rising, so I opened my throat chakra, and I automatically noticed that the energy rose and then accumulated in the fetal chakra, then I opened the crown chakra and the energy just rose, even now I still feel it rising, and it made me exhausted and feeling sick, in fact I still feel exhausted, like I've run a marathon, and that's what I feel whenever I have too much energy in my soul from too much meditation, but I literally did nothing too much today.
I also realized that after coming back from church and trying to clean my aura with Surya I got even more tired, plus I felt like I had nothing to cleanse, which doesn't make sense because churches always dirty my soul.
So my question is, what can be happening? I have been meditating for about a year and 4 months, and it doesn't make sense to me to think that it is my kundalini awakening, but I also remember already reading some members talking about kundalini and saying that the most important thing to prepare the soul for kundalini, is not the strength of the chakras, but how clean and unblocked the soul is, and I cleanse my soul with Vi-Suddhi and have been doing some complicated cleansing for the last few weeks, plus I have recently started doing kundalini yoga daily, so I wonder if it is really possible to be kundalini awakening.