AshStarIshtar_88 said:
Change begins with a change in attitude, and an acknowledgment of your past mistakes.
Looking at your history on the forum so far, it will take a while for people to trust or accept you indeed have changed if you have as you say.
You will have to show through your actions, for a long period that you have realized mistakes and have moved on from them.
It also comes with a part of realization on where you stand at present. At present, you are just somebody who has been attacking and trolling on many accounts for almost a year.
Then suddenly you tell us you are reformed now, without showing any change in attitude either, as you immediately resort to once again showing disrespect and insult to the people who are explaining kindly to you how things work around here, even HP HoodedCobra who has only treated you with extreme leniency.
As I said, change must be shown through action.
It is good you see you have made the wrong choices in the past, and seek to amend for that and change for the better, it also good to have ambitions and dreams for yourself.
All of this is excellent, and certainly a step in the right direction. What comes after is to put in the work and take the actions required to show you aren't just talking the talk, but also taking tangible steps towards change/transformation.
Imagine this.
There is this man you know out there. This man spends all day shit talking you and your friends. Occasionally he also looks at your wife funny, and insults your ancestors too for that matter.
He talks smack like this for a year, on any occasion he gets.
You address this multiple times and tell him this isn't welcome, however he doesn't stop at all. He just keeps going no matter what you tell him, despite showing tolerance towards this crap and not beating him black and blue over it.
Then, out of nowhere he one day approaches you and tells you "Look man, I didn't mean it bro, I'm sorry my dude, I'm reformed, we're friends now yeah?"
Does that sound like a realistic way to make up for the last behavior he's shown you? Does such a thing make you look at him differently just because he apologized a little?
To me personally, I have no interest in listening to such a person at all. If the apology is sincere, that is one thing, however I would never be that persons friend, as he has already ruined my impression of them.
Perhaps if not only this person does stop the behaviors after that apology,
doesn't act like a hypocrite that I should forgive him for everything now that he has apologized, shows genuine remorse,
and he spends a few years showing to be worthy of respect due to his actions showing not only that he has changed from the past stupidity but has grown as a person by leaps and bounds to become someone I can see eye to eye with,
Perhaps then I could consider sitting down with him and maybe even build a friendship.
Likely however, after such a first impression I'd never look at them as a kindred spirit, and at most I'd not look at them with disdain any longer.
Don't expect people to forget the crap you've done here in the past just because you apologized.
Show change through action and show genuine realization of the mistakes you have made.
Lastly, don't mane excuse or other bullshit. Accept it as it is, acknowledge the wrongs and don't present demands.
In the past, I have made mistakes as well. Some really dumb ones.
I didn't ask for anything or expected my apology to be accepted. I realized my mistake and apologized only out of courtesy, not to ask forgiveness, and certainly not to make demands.
I showed through actions rather than words that my apology is genuine, and as a result the mistakes were forgiven as I had more than made up for them with my actions and never fell back into the same errors again.
Hail Satan!