irl support?

[rydden]

im making this topic because of the extreme change i need to make. i feel psychologically attacked as therefor that makes me aware of my weekness. i have no support for meditating in my home life, just drug usage. ive quit but then failed as my wifes birthday is this week and she asked me to partake this last time.. its not that healthy of a relationship, fell in love to fast and we arent very stable. stress is another great thung in my life. everyday or hour i feel almost a anxiety/heart pain. i cant currently visualize hardly at all. ive gotten good at ignoring emotions but idk how long that will last because it only started when i woke up feeling different this morning.
anyways i live in wellsville kansas, im 18 years of age. i need a friend.. a brother.. a sister to talk to to meditat with, to heal with. im a pisces i was born febuary 22 1994 in olathe medical center, im not a judging person except when obvious corruption is present.. i hate all xianity and i feel there disgusting putrid prayers in my head sometimes. ive questioned everything in my life except this one truth.
hail Satan/Enkil hail the four crown princes of hell. great power happiness and revenge to all beside our father in this war.

 

[Raven Lythrum]

You are being psychologically attacked because of the drug usage. Drug usage puts holes in your aura which leaves you open to enemy attack. 
Believe it or not, I was up until a month or so ago in the very same place you are at now, minus the drugs. What I did was move away. This not only brought peace of mind and clarity but I was also able to get rid of some of my own unhealthy hangups as well such as caffeine.
What you really need to do is get out of that environment. Because your environment can and DOES affect you. Make a plan to get out of there. When you do, you will find more clarity of mind. Get a job, save up money from it. Buy a one bedroom house. Also, you need to be strong. You need to learn how to say no to drugs. 
When you do, you will find that you will have a lot less trouble with visualization. Also, you need to do an aura or protection as well as clean your aura and you need to do this twice a day.
Aura of protectionhttp://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ction.html

Aura Cleaninghttp://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html

Imagine your aura looking like thishttp://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... htBody.gif
 Imagine your chakras like pyramids and being as bright as thishttp://www.spain-holiday.com/blog/wp-co ... 08/sun.jpg

And remember, if you don't do it, than no one can help you.
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Knowledge is power.
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From: rydden <tilerjs@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, July 12, 2012 1:28 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] irl support?

  im making this topic because of the extreme change i need to make. i feel psychologically attacked as therefor that makes me aware of my weekness. i have no support for meditating in my home life, just drug usage. ive quit but then failed as my wifes birthday is this week and she asked me to partake this last time.. its not that healthy of a relationship, fell in love to fast and we arent very stable. stress is another great thung in my life. everyday or hour i feel almost a anxiety/heart pain. i cant currently visualize hardly at all. ive gotten good at ignoring emotions but idk how long that will last because it only started when i woke up feeling different this morning.
anyways i live in wellsville kansas, im 18 years of age. i need a friend.. a brother.. a sister to talk to to meditat with, to heal with. im a pisces i was born febuary 22 1994 in olathe medical center, im not a judging person except when obvious corruption is present.. i hate all xianity and i feel there disgusting putrid prayers in my head sometimes. ive questioned everything in my life except this one truth.
hail Satan/Enkil hail the four crown princes of hell. great power happiness and revenge to all beside our father in this war.