I want to save myself from this programming

[Aunoir]

i've been into Satanism for a while now, born and raised xian for most of my life, naturally I've been able to communicate with things on the astral for a while now, mostly disgusting angels apparently and I've come to know the harsh truth just to short-form it and skip the long details.

through all of this I had been heavily indoctrinated into the xian programming and it sticks with this transition of psychic awareness. They lead me to harmful information, they taunt and laugh at me, they tell lies and try to falsely comfort and pretend to be demons to which I can't trust any form of communication whatsoever. I keep being flashes visuals and nightmares of churches, david's stars, crosses among other things, I have seen the greys faces, disgusting with large black eyes. I don't think having a direct and personal relationship with Satan is a good idea at the moment as they have pretended to be him many times and had constantly been tricking me, I refuse to trust even anything positive like comforting words, it's all been revealed to be lies and then they laugh at me, visuals and all even disgustingly cover Satan's face in my visual sights with the face of jesus, xians and jews that I knew from the past and other crap like that. I have astrally dedicated and physically dedicated, twice... I did feel something the first time, but I don't know if the gods are waiting for me to save myself and deprogram first which seems like some kind of step we have to take before anything further would happen... I don't see how Satan and the demons would be able to help me or guide me anyways if I'm so far from even being connected to them or resonating with them and the first things I seem to always psychically see or be drawn to are from (((them))) as tricks and lies.

i had strong emotional connection with xian household among other things unfortunately, one with my mother that seems to still be evident in which she still talks to me even though I alive alone and try to avoid her like the plague but there's very evidently something still there, I unwittingly picked up some of her habits a while ago and bought things she usually likes for myself thinking it was my own interest or something, upon a more clear head the next day I realized and saw her xian energy related to them and ended up throwing them out after I spent all that money. All of this has made me unfeeling, apathetic, miserable and virtually parasitic this programming and these unhealthy connections. I keep being drawn to the worst of things that make me miserable, even so much as looking for a job, everything I found to be 'positive' or like a good option turns out to have some hidden enemy connection to it, they keep pulling me to more harmful things without me even being aware because I'll initially be made to see it as something positive only to eventually realize the truth that it was just another trap, I have to make very conscious and logical deliberate effort to make sure I avoid things even like taking the bus instead of a cab because even the other fucking day I waited an hour for a cab in the freezing cold, miserable and at the verge of tears after a hard day only for the final cab to arrive being a jew behind the wheel tuned to a radio station of 22, 122 and 22, I kid you not I honestly have no words anymore for this shit. I don't want to resonate on their disgusting level, I want to be free, I want to be with Satan, the REAL Satan.

i live next a church and work next to a church in a place littered with xian people, the residency was one I had no other choice about, the job however was another of those traps in that I was urged 'positively' to it very strongly the second it came up as an option for me and ended up getting the stupid thing on the day I handed in my resume, far too easy, it has associations with the moon I've seen that makes that disgusting connection with my xian mother more evident apparently and I can't stand seeing that giant church out the windows all the time, I try not to even look at it even or try to close the curtains at work. I hate churches, I can't fucking stand them, I don't want to be like this! I don't want to be parasitic, I don't want to be so nonchalant to other's emotions, I know this isn't the real me! These freaks had kept stressing all my life about the heart, open your heart, love more, accept this, accept that, my heart chakra just doesn't seem to stop taking shit in the second I look at something and that's awful when this whole stinking world is corrupted to the bone with filth but I'm afraid if I work on seriously closing it that I wouldn't be able to get out or remove what's already there, so i hope someone more experienced can clarify on that and if it's true, it would be a huge relief if I could slam every damn astral door on my heart chakra and still be able to cleanse things out from out while it's closed like that, but I'll wait for a more educated response on that.

At this rate I have very dedicated plans to just work from home, never go outside again and just order all my stuff to my door, sanctify and purify the hell of my new home and virtually sandblast my soul, I only see things in this world getting worse from here anyways as I keep track of the forum, not a world someone like me should be out in the open to, I don't want to live like that but until this whole mess with me is fixed among other things I don't see much other options to really protect myself from further connections. this is also in my opinion the worse time of year for this, i know Yule is all about Satan but that's not what you see whith all those energies out there about christmas and those disgusting songs, the parasites also keep trying to make me think about xmas and puts songs in my head, all I do is try to tune out and distract myself.

Satan won't really accept me or even bother with me until I save my own soul as it seems, I have been aware that this is a meritocracy, otherwise I'm just another one of his disgusting enemies and I don't want to be, I can't be a Satanist with an xian programmed mind, and I can unfortunately see myself being undesirably disrespectful to them in some way if I try to get their help or summon them because this damned programmed behaviour so i've been strictly avoiding them and leaving them alone to try and fix this by myself. But I don't even know where to begin. How do I remove this filth, how do I truly undo it? How do I get it out of me COMPLETELY? does the RTR actually detach it from me and remove it? Does it reverse it? What does SATANAS really do, is it pure satanic energy? would that help? Do I have to detach things from each individual in my life I've connected strongly with like past enemy friends and my family? I'm definitely fully willing to if I have to. Do i have to powerwash my heart chakra, and if so what do I do, what do I use?. What are the purest most satanic energies I can work with? I don't want to be psychic at the moment anymore either until this is fixed, I don't want to communicate with anybody on the astral at all, it's all just tricks, lies and illusions and there's no way a demon would help me, I've whined enough already and why would they give someone like me the time of day anyways even if I'm trying, I have to actually be free first otherwise I'm sure they think they'd be at risk of wasting their time, I know I have to help myself... but what do I do? I need every possible tool, seriously, I can't live my own fucking daily life without this damned programming messing with me somehow, I want to put a stop to it and reverse it all, I don't care if I'm spending every hour of my spare time doing RTRs, just what will help me? What's most important to do first?

I try working with positive energies but it keeps feeling like it's (((their))) 'positive' energies or some false light or a mockery of it and it seems to only tie me further to them, I try protecting myself but it feels more like i'm trapping myself with them, so I'm mostly focused on deprogramming. Please, I need guidance, I can't be like this I don't want to live like this, I don't want to BE this.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I dealt with a lot of xtian programming too. My dad is an xtian pastor and my mom very strongly xtian to the point it's actually changed her soul structure unfortunately she has become unsalvagable her Chakras literally are tiny and half her soul looks empty. She has a lot of self hate and emotional issues too this maybe even rubbed off on me some growing up. I can't stand being around these people but sometimes I have too. These are the type of people that posted on Facebook after a house fire last year "we just lost half our stuff and we don't know where we will go tonight but Praise God" that is literally what they said.

This is the kind of stuff I mean. You honestly with xtians have to detach and unless they are atually good people with some hope (a few are) and help you in some way just don't care about them. My suggestion when you go to bed at night listen to the mp3s on Satans Library have your phone next to you or tablet or whatever. This will help you deprogram. This may be really hard it took years when I was younger of listening to various Athiest podcasts disproving the bible to deprogram from this (not as good cause some of these people are liberal but when I started this I wasn't even fully Satanist yet) also there are good people in the world. Try to ask the Gods to meet someone who is a good person even if they are not SS. You want to have someone to talk to. My girlfriend wasn't SS she was athiest with some xtian programming but she came around after a bit and dedicated she actually was a really good person who cared about others. Look for someone to talk to and hang out with sometime who is not xtian this will help.

Doing the rtrs each day is helpful.

But also this Ansuz Uruz 111 times Each Day say 9 times " I am Completely and totally free of all connections and influences of Christianity in every way right now"

This should bring to the surface a lot of the xtian energies stuck in you and help a lot. Make sure to cleanse a lot when they come out of you and adding the rtr when they are coming out of you will loosen them even more. Repeat this however long it takes moon Scorpio is the next best time to start not too long from now. This may be really intense but after a bit you should start to feel better.

Also Munka "I am completly and totally free of Christianity in every way and all Christian Programming" or the same affirmation can be used.

I literally had to do at least 10 40 day workings like this to get better. It took a lot of effort and a lot of energy will come out of you.

Do any spiritual warfare programs and the final rtr as often as you can. That is good.

If you didnt do this program you can do the last day https://www.ancient-forums.com/posting.php?mode=reply&f=24&t=44860 and do the communications rtr at least once that should help you with what you describe with spiritual communications in removing the curses.

Good luck.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

....

You will need to do RTR's, banishing ritual(s), good aura cleaning habits. Cleaning yourself and your house with blue demonic fire energy will also help. You should also seek to distance yourself as much as possible from anything enemy related, although the first step of this starts in removing their curses from your soul.

The FRTR alone completely reverses anything xtian from you, both things programmed deep into you and things more superficial. This will be the key to saving yourself. Do the RTR, then clean your soul with white-gold and/or demonic energy, and this will speed up the healing process.

Also, quit beating yourself up so badly. There is nothing wrong with you inherently; you are just dealing with enemy curses and energy. This does not reflect your true nature, and you deserve as much as we all do.

You, of all people, need to seek a close relationship with Satan, as this will expedite the healing process. He does not look down on you for these things, the same way he doesn't look down on all of us for not all being 100% perfected masters of the universe. You should meditate on his sigil and energy and ask him to guide yourself closer to him. Focusing on his energy alone will do this as well. You should always seek a closer relationship with Satan and the Gods, under all circumstances.

You are dedicated, right? I figured you must be, but I also thought I must ask you, since you think you are undeserving of being close to the Gods. If you are not, you must do this absolutely immediately and without any delay.

 

[NinRick]

How about you use runes and program yourself how you want to?

 

[Aunoir]

I dealt with a lot of xtian programming too. My dad is an xtian pastor and my mom very strongly xtian to the point it's actually changed her soul structure unfortunately she has become unsalvagable her Chakras literally are tiny and half her soul looks empty. She has a lot of self hate and emotional issues too this maybe even rubbed off on me some growing up. I can't stand being around these people but sometimes I have too. These are the type of people that posted on Facebook after a house fire last year "we just lost half our stuff and we don't know where we will go tonight but Praise God" that is literally what they said.

This is the kind of stuff I mean. You honestly with xtians have to detach and unless they are atually good people with some hope (a few are) and help you in some way just don't care about them. My suggestion when you go to bed at night listen to the mp3s on Satans Library have your phone next to you or tablet or whatever. This will help you deprogram. This may be really hard it took years when I was younger of listening to various Athiest podcasts disproving the bible to deprogram from this (not as good cause some of these people are liberal but when I started this I wasn't even fully Satanist yet) also there are good people in the world. Try to ask the Gods to meet someone who is a good person even if they are not SS. You want to have someone to talk to. My girlfriend wasn't SS she was athiest with some xtian programming but she came around after a bit and dedicated she actually was a really good person who cared about others. Look for someone to talk to and hang out with sometime who is not xtian this will help.

Doing the rtrs each day is helpful.

But also this Ansuz Uruz 111 times Each Day say 9 times " I am Completely and totally free of all connections and influences of Christianity in every way right now"

This should bring to the surface a lot of the xtian energies stuck in you and help a lot. Make sure to cleanse a lot when they come out of you and adding the rtr when they are coming out of you will loosen them even more. Repeat this however long it takes moon Scorpio is the next best time to start not too long from now. This may be really intense but after a bit you should start to feel better.

Also Munka "I am completly and totally free of Christianity in every way and all Christian Programming" or the same affirmation can be used.

I literally had to do at least 10 40 day workings like this to get better. It took a lot of effort and a lot of energy will come out of you.

Do any spiritual warfare programs and the final rtr as often as you can. That is good.

If you didnt do this program you can do the last day https://www.ancient-forums.com/posting.php?mode=reply&f=24&t=44860 and do the communications rtr at least once that should help you with what you describe with spiritual communications in removing the curses.

Good luck.

I'm afraid so much as hearing the word 'jew' causes me to freak out and focus or unwillingly tune to bad things psychically, so the mp3 idea is a bad option. I'm curious to wonder if listening to mp3 vibrations like this might somehow help me to also work in such, since I struggle to make vibrations and runes really manifest and happen, like would listening to an mp3 vibration of surya somehow just 'instill' it upon me, i don't know maybe im just being ridiculous. I don't have a lot of spiritual power to really do things at the moment apparently, I'm far too drained mentally to do something like ansuz and uruz 111 times alongside other things but i do have an ansuz working planned for deprogramming, I'm just waiting for the right planetary timing i have laid out now, i also dont think munka is a good idea now the last thing i want at the moment is anything to do with the moon

 

[Henu the Great]

I'm afraid so much as hearing the word 'jew' causes me to freak out and focus or unwillingly tune to bad things psychically, so the mp3 idea is a bad option. I'm curious to wonder if listening to mp3 vibrations like this might somehow help me to also work in such, since I struggle to make vibrations and runes really manifest and happen, like would listening to an mp3 vibration of surya somehow just 'instill' it upon me, i don't know maybe im just being ridiculous. I don't have a lot of spiritual power to really do things at the moment apparently, I'm far too drained mentally to do something like ansuz and uruz 111 times alongside other things but i do have an ansuz working planned for deprogramming, I'm just waiting for the right planetary timing i have laid out now, i also dont think munka is a good idea now the last thing i want at the moment is anything to do with the moon

If gaining power was as easy as listening to sounds and "instilling" then most of us would be whipping powerful entities with ease and those who wouldn't would in no time.

No, power has to be built on your own efforts. One part of the eight fold path is the use of vibration.

You can and deifinitely should start with lover reps. Something like 55 reps is more than enough to get you started, I'm sure. If that sounds a lot, then go with any multiple of 9 and build up from there. Same working can be repeated later on with higher amount of reps and / or longer working period (40/80/90 days). It's not like you do it once and it's all over. When it can be in some cases, but most things need to be worked on a lot due to cursed nature of human kind.

Ansuz working sounds good. Begin with that, and see what happens. Remember to clean aura and do aura of protection daily among other things. Breathe in white gold, and vibrate aum surya. That's one way to go about it. The very basic aura cleaning is simply breathing + visualisation of white gold, with no vibration. Remember, start slow and build up from there.

Last but not least; Do not doubt you abilities. Doubting the effectiveness and success will weaken the power or completely render the working useless. Stay strong and fight on.

 

[darkmonkey666]

I dealt with a lot of xtian programming too. My dad is an xtian pastor and my mom very strongly xtian to the point it's actually changed her soul structure unfortunately she has become unsalvagable her Chakras literally are tiny and half her soul looks empty. She has a lot of self hate and emotional issues too this maybe even rubbed off on me some growing up. I can't stand being around these people but sometimes I have too. These are the type of people that posted on Facebook after a house fire last year "we just lost half our stuff and we don't know where we will go tonight but Praise God" that is literally what they said.

This is the kind of stuff I mean. You honestly with xtians have to detach and unless they are atually good people with some hope (a few are) and help you in some way just don't care about them. My suggestion when you go to bed at night listen to the mp3s on Satans Library have your phone next to you or tablet or whatever. This will help you deprogram. This may be really hard it took years when I was younger of listening to various Athiest podcasts disproving the bible to deprogram from this (not as good cause some of these people are liberal but when I started this I wasn't even fully Satanist yet) also there are good people in the world. Try to ask the Gods to meet someone who is a good person even if they are not SS. You want to have someone to talk to. My girlfriend wasn't SS she was athiest with some xtian programming but she came around after a bit and dedicated she actually was a really good person who cared about others. Look for someone to talk to and hang out with sometime who is not xtian this will help.

Doing the rtrs each day is helpful.

But also this Ansuz Uruz 111 times Each Day say 9 times " I am Completely and totally free of all connections and influences of Christianity in every way right now"

This should bring to the surface a lot of the xtian energies stuck in you and help a lot. Make sure to cleanse a lot when they come out of you and adding the rtr when they are coming out of you will loosen them even more. Repeat this however long it takes moon Scorpio is the next best time to start not too long from now. This may be really intense but after a bit you should start to feel better.

Also Munka "I am completly and totally free of Christianity in every way and all Christian Programming" or the same affirmation can be used.

I literally had to do at least 10 40 day workings like this to get better. It took a lot of effort and a lot of energy will come out of you.

Do any spiritual warfare programs and the final rtr as often as you can. That is good.

If you didnt do this program you can do the last day https://www.ancient-forums.com/posting.php?mode=reply&f=24&t=44860 and do the communications rtr at least once that should help you with what you describe with spiritual communications in removing the curses.

Good luck.

I'm afraid so much as hearing the word 'jew' causes me to freak out and focus or unwillingly tune to bad things psychically, so the mp3 idea is a bad option. I'm curious to wonder if listening to mp3 vibrations like this might somehow help me to also work in such, since I struggle to make vibrations and runes really manifest and happen, like would listening to an mp3 vibration of surya somehow just 'instill' it upon me, i don't know maybe im just being ridiculous. I don't have a lot of spiritual power to really do things at the moment apparently, I'm far too drained mentally to do something like ansuz and uruz 111 times alongside other things but i do have an ansuz working planned for deprogramming, I'm just waiting for the right planetary timing i have laid out now, i also dont think munka is a good idea now the last thing i want at the moment is anything to do with the moon

Your being way too over worried about things right now just relax. You need the opposite programming so thats what you need to give yourself. You can be around stuff and not tune into it you know. You shouldn't let the xtians drain you. Better yet do a visualization detachment working if you dont want to vibrate anything yourself on all xtians you know. You are giving this stuff way to much power. Also as far as i know Munka isn't related to the moon in any way its only suggested you start it on waning moon and during a sign that can deal with freedom in some way like Scorpio Aquarius Sagittarius Pisces and possibly Aries that's all.

 

[Aunoir]

I'm afraid so much as hearing the word 'jew' causes me to freak out and focus or unwillingly tune to bad things psychically, so the mp3 idea is a bad option. I'm curious to wonder if listening to mp3 vibrations like this might somehow help me to also work in such, since I struggle to make vibrations and runes really manifest and happen, like would listening to an mp3 vibration of surya somehow just 'instill' it upon me, i don't know maybe im just being ridiculous. I don't have a lot of spiritual power to really do things at the moment apparently, I'm far too drained mentally to do something like ansuz and uruz 111 times alongside other things but i do have an ansuz working planned for deprogramming, I'm just waiting for the right planetary timing i have laid out now, i also dont think munka is a good idea now the last thing i want at the moment is anything to do with the moon

If gaining power was as easy as listening to sounds and "instilling" then most of us would be whipping powerful entities with ease and those who wouldn't would in no time.

No, power has to be built on your own efforts. One part of the eight fold path is the use of vibration.

You can and deifinitely should start with lover reps. Something like 55 reps is more than enough to get you started, I'm sure. If that sounds a lot, then go with any multiple of 9 and build up from there. Same working can be repeated later on with higher amount of reps and / or longer working period (40/80/90 days). It's not like you do it once and it's all over. When it can be in some cases, but most things need to be worked on a lot due to cursed nature of human kind.

Ansuz working sounds good. Begin with that, and see what happens. Remember to clean aura and do aura of protection daily among other things. Breathe in white gold, and vibrate aum surya. That's one way to go about it. The very basic aura cleaning is simply breathing + visualisation of white gold, with no vibration. Remember, start slow and build up from there.

Last but not least; Do not doubt you abilities. Doubting the effectiveness and success will weaken the power or completely render the working useless. Stay strong and fight on.

thank you and you're right, i understand and i recognize I must build from my own efforts. the thing is I keep trying to experiment with different focuses of vibration and cant seem to get anything properly on myself, its like the vibrations have no effects and i try my best to focus them on myself but its like it wont centre upon my own being. its one of the most frustrating things with my efforts, i try to put in lots of very reall effort into myself but if i could just get the vibrations and manifestations to work properly i wouldnt be having any problems and would be well on my way to a progressive and certain recovery and freeing form all this. i have a lot of bioelectricity/vril or at least i seem to have a lot of energy because when i do manage to get something right for a brief moment im at least strong enough to feel it very undeniably.

what does it feel like to vibrate a rune or word like surya upon yourself? do you feel your chakras vibrate with it if the tone is proper because sometimes i feel like my heart chakra is 'humming' for lack of a better word in resonation with the exact vibrations, but i strugglea bit to pinpoint and focus properly to make this happen. or does your 'body' vibrate with it as well or is it just feeling energy. i dont know how im doing this properly and it worries me because i try to do the rtr to free myself from this and dont know how much is actually working or doing something, its like im more or less sending the vibrations outward than directing them to manifest upon or around me. i appreciate any and all guidance and advice though.

 

[Henu the Great]

thank you and you're right, i understand and i recognize I must build from my own efforts. the thing is I keep trying to experiment with different focuses of vibration and cant seem to get anything properly on myself, its like the vibrations have no effects and i try my best to focus them on myself but its like it wont centre upon my own being. its one of the most frustrating things with my efforts, i try to put in lots of very reall effort into myself but if i could just get the vibrations and manifestations to work properly i wouldnt be having any problems and would be well on my way to a progressive and certain recovery and freeing form all this. i have a lot of bioelectricity/vril or at least i seem to have a lot of energy because when i do manage to get something right for a brief moment im at least strong enough to feel it very undeniably.

I think vibrating AUM and SaTaNaMa could help you. Try em out.

S, is hissed. T is like TZZZ, Na is like NAH, and Ma is like MAH.

what does it feel like to vibrate a rune or word like surya upon yourself? do you feel your chakras vibrate with it if the tone is proper because sometimes i feel like my heart chakra is 'humming' for lack of a better word in resonation with the exact vibrations, but i strugglea bit to pinpoint and focus properly to make this happen. or does your 'body' vibrate with it as well or is it just feeling energy. i dont know how im doing this properly and it worries me because i try to do the rtr to free myself from this and dont know how much is actually working or doing something, its like im more or less sending the vibrations outward than directing them to manifest upon or around me. i appreciate any and all guidance and advice though.

Usually I feel my bioelectricity increasing, and quite often a slight spinning inside my head. Often times I feel my upper chakras strongly, but other chakras not so. I think it's up to the focus. I'm not super expierenced, but that's what I have got to share for now.

In any case, focus is the key and void meditation helps with that. Also rtrs remove curses from you, so it can indirectly help you focus better.

And one last note. Even if you can't feel anything from the meditations, just keep doing them. It's hard work, but it pays off and eventually you will get to a point where you can feel things more.

 

[Ravenheart666]

I had , and partially still experience some of the troubles you are facing. First things first , rationalize and understand that those visions and sensations are caused by high spiritual sensitivity and the ambient around you , and also the perpetual fear induced by those fuckers. Forget the kike on a stick thing and understand that at the end of the day is only an empty husk that survives on mental compulsion.

I, personally had proceeded in this manner and this is what I would advise:

1. Understand and rationalize the shit figure by studying about Mithraism and it's iconography and historical context. You need to embeed in your head that this illusion is an imposed MENTAL condition that 1700 years ago, low-life , dissatisfied and generally stupid slaves accepted as to escape reality and eventually ruin an entire Empire through political schemes ,murders and worship of their (((GOBLIN))) masters that so conveniently "proposed" this curse unto them in the first place.

Go and look at ancient imagery of the Gods ,sigils of Our DAEMONS and their Pantheon equivalents and try to resonate with them instead. Emulate their greatness ,their characteristics and invulnerability and you'll see your organism will comply and promptly adopt that OVER HUMAN attitude and qualities. You do your best and you'll understand then what the Gods want to see in a person in order to offer Their Daemonic help.

2. Stop your organism and mind from giving micro and after-reactions to attacks. Don't be too compulsive about it and ask yourself what is the MOST INTELLIGENT AND EFFICIENT thing to do with that worthless emotion and the anger that follows. Feeding it back mentally to the empty husk helps not one bit as it's only an illusion that feeds on any kind of feedback , like an AI, like a tasteless Videogame. Observe your own dissatisfaction and frustration and you'll discover that is there only because YOU ARE TRULY A TOTAL SATANIST AT YOUR CORE and eventually you'll take over and control all of your sensations and experiences because of it. As in even if you experience the shit just throw it away a second and remember that it's only an attack aimed to block the expression of your TRUE SELF. Also be aware those ugly moments are temporary and that there is space to recover.
In other words , it will never distort your SATANIC ESSENCE , but at most it will only make you suffer if you allow it too much.
"You are not what you think , You Are what you do!" "A man is not defined by his problems , but by how he confronts them!"

3. Impose a good daily meditation and cleaning routine for yourself. (This is what a SATANIST DOES)
I found out that if I start with the RTRs I can fuck the husk over and gain control over my meditations and cleaning. Becoming as Satanic as I want in my energetical and mental expession is way more easy after some direct combat. I also use variations of runic workings in combination of 3 or 4 runes with Ansuz and the affirmation "In the most satanic and positive way for me I am totally, definitively and constantly eliminating all the enemy influences from myself."

Do the returning curses aura cleaning and the deflecting curses aura protection posted by HP Maxine.
I also found that the Wunjio working posted by Lidia helps a lot with gaining mental stability.

Start building from doing the aura cleaning and protection all the way to recovering your mental faculties through healing workings and getting in contact with the GODS. Do not fear or doubt that They don't hear or see you. They do , and most of the times , because THEY ARE REAL BLOOD AND BONE IMMORTAL SUPER-EVOLVED BEINGS that work and interract with the infrastructure of Nature and the Universe itself.

4. Do physical exercise to rehabilitate energy flow and connection to your natural power. Hatha Yoga will certainly do. Also start solving your the problems you have on the physical plane of existence such as health issues and or economical problems, whatever represents a disadvantage towards your goals.

5. Once started don't stop. Be fierce , be strong, be a fucking ram that buts his head hard against the limitations (although in an intelligent and efficient manner as described), and YOU'LL definitely reach YOUR AIMS. Allegorically speaking , Satan is there at the top of the mountain Olympus , and He threw down in the pit the rope for us to ascend , among all the instruments and climbing instructions necessary, sometimes even more than what is necessary.

Be BRAVE ! Life is WAR! It is an honor to fight among you! See you at the top! If you ever feel the need to converse with somebody , sometimes, feel free to mail me: [email protected]

 

[Aunoir]

I had , and partially still experience some of the troubles you are facing. First things first , rationalize and understand that those visions and sensations are caused by high spiritual sensitivity and the ambient around you , and also the perpetual fear induced by those fuckers. Forget the kike on a stick thing and understand that at the end of the day is only an empty husk that survives on mental compulsion.

I, personally had proceeded in this manner and this is what I would advise:

1. Understand and rationalize the shit figure by studying about Mithraism and it's iconography and historical context. You need to embeed in your head that this illusion is an imposed MENTAL condition that 1700 years ago, low-life , dissatisfied and generally stupid slaves accepted as to escape reality and eventually ruin an entire Empire through political schemes ,murders and worship of their (((GOBLIN))) masters that so conveniently "proposed" this curse unto them in the first place.

Go and look at ancient imagery of the Gods ,sigils of Our DAEMONS and their Pantheon equivalents and try to resonate with them instead. Emulate their greatness ,their characteristics and invulnerability and you'll see your organism will comply and promptly adopt that OVER HUMAN attitude and qualities. You do your best and you'll understand then what the Gods want to see in a person in order to offer Their Daemonic help.

2. Stop your organism and mind from giving micro and after-reactions to attacks. Don't be too compulsive about it and ask yourself what is the MOST INTELLIGENT AND EFFICIENT thing to do with that worthless emotion and the anger that follows. Feeding it back mentally to the empty husk helps not one bit as it's only an illusion that feeds on any kind of feedback , like an AI, like a tasteless Videogame. Observe your own dissatisfaction and frustration and you'll discover that is there only because YOU ARE TRULY A TOTAL SATANIST AT YOUR CORE and eventually you'll take over and control all of your sensations and experiences because of it. As in even if you experience the shit just throw it away a second and remember that it's only an attack aimed to block the expression of your TRUE SELF. Also be aware those ugly moments are temporary and that there is space to recover.
In other words , it will never distort your SATANIC ESSENCE , but at most it will only make you suffer if you allow it too much.
"You are not what you think , You Are what you do!" "A man is not defined by his problems , but by how he confronts them!"

3. Impose a good daily meditation and cleaning routine for yourself. (This is what a SATANIST DOES)
I found out that if I start with the RTRs I can fuck the husk over and gain control over my meditations and cleaning. Becoming as Satanic as I want in my energetical and mental expession is way more easy after some direct combat. I also use variations of runic workings in combination of 3 or 4 runes with Ansuz and the affirmation "In the most satanic and positive way for me I am totally, definitively and constantly eliminating all the enemy influences from myself."

Do the returning curses aura cleaning and the deflecting curses aura protection posted by HP Maxine.
I also found that the Wunjio working posted by Lidia helps a lot with gaining mental stability.

Start building from doing the aura cleaning and protection all the way to recovering your mental faculties through healing workings and getting in contact with the GODS. Do not fear or doubt that They don't hear or see you. They do , and most of the times , because THEY ARE REAL BLOOD AND BONE IMMORTAL SUPER-EVOLVED BEINGS that work and interract with the infrastructure of Nature and the Universe itself.

4. Do physical exercise to rehabilitate energy flow and connection to your natural power. Hatha Yoga will certainly do. Also start solving your the problems you have on the physical plane of existence such as health issues and or economical problems, whatever represents a disadvantage towards your goals.

5. Once started don't stop. Be fierce , be strong, be a fucking ram that buts his head hard against the limitations (although in an intelligent and efficient manner as described), and YOU'LL definitely reach YOUR AIMS. Allegorically speaking , Satan is there at the top of the mountain Olympus , and He threw down in the pit the rope for us to ascend , among all the instruments and climbing instructions necessary, sometimes even more than what is necessary.

Be BRAVE ! Life is WAR! It is an honor to fight among you! See you at the top! If you ever feel the need to converse with somebody , sometimes, feel free to mail me: [email protected]

Your words are very strong and very true. thank you. i created a strict schedule for myself today looking to all the problems I'd been dealing with [and signed to fix and correct with stern guidance from the gods], I am putting more effort to be more self-sufficient and find the ways to really sink that mindset in in my soul, ive been signed i have problems with the base chakra in that its grown very weak and the enemies tricks upon me in passivity and stuff with such energies really mitigated its characteristics and health causing a large lack of selfdiscipline, hatred among other things.

with all the fear and terror and confusion and madness from all of it, i became a whimpering fool who was just always whining to the gods that i didnt know what to do or it was so hard to fight back or fix because i was trying [but not really trying if that makes sense] and struggling focus among many other factors, sometimes getting so frustrated on what to do that i stupidly would end up hurting myself somehow in tearing at my own skin and throwing things, even most of my emotions apparently were imaginary... i had many breakdowns... i hope nobody else has to ever experience the cruel things i had with the enemy laughing at you and tormenting you like that, i had such vivid nightmares every night. in dedicating sternly with focus to my schedule today and in starting that etv ritual and working on some chakras, i feel a confidence and pride in myself i hadnt felt in a very long time. ill remember your words here. thank you.

by the way, do you know if the colour red could be used on the heart chakra? or does anyone know if that's safe? I know its not its colour but id been wondering about that and if red could be used somehow on the heart chakra to mitigate how 'accepting' it is of hostile and bad things since red is said to be used for dealing with enemies and hatred and such.

 

[Aunoir]

thank you and you're right, i understand and i recognize I must build from my own efforts. the thing is I keep trying to experiment with different focuses of vibration and cant seem to get anything properly on myself, its like the vibrations have no effects and i try my best to focus them on myself but its like it wont centre upon my own being. its one of the most frustrating things with my efforts, i try to put in lots of very reall effort into myself but if i could just get the vibrations and manifestations to work properly i wouldnt be having any problems and would be well on my way to a progressive and certain recovery and freeing form all this. i have a lot of bioelectricity/vril or at least i seem to have a lot of energy because when i do manage to get something right for a brief moment im at least strong enough to feel it very undeniably.

I think vibrating AUM and SaTaNaMa could help you. Try em out.

S, is hissed. T is like TZZZ, Na is like NAH, and Ma is like MAH.

what does it feel like to vibrate a rune or word like surya upon yourself? do you feel your chakras vibrate with it if the tone is proper because sometimes i feel like my heart chakra is 'humming' for lack of a better word in resonation with the exact vibrations, but i strugglea bit to pinpoint and focus properly to make this happen. or does your 'body' vibrate with it as well or is it just feeling energy. i dont know how im doing this properly and it worries me because i try to do the rtr to free myself from this and dont know how much is actually working or doing something, its like im more or less sending the vibrations outward than directing them to manifest upon or around me. i appreciate any and all guidance and advice though.

Usually I feel my bioelectricity increasing, and quite often a slight spinning inside my head. Often times I feel my upper chakras strongly, but other chakras not so. I think it's up to the focus. I'm not super expierenced, but that's what I have got to share for now.

In any case, focus is the key and void meditation helps with that. Also rtrs remove curses from you, so it can indirectly help you focus better.

And one last note. Even if you can't feel anything from the meditations, just keep doing them. It's hard work, but it pays off and eventually you will get to a point where you can feel things more.

is satanama all one word vibration or do i separate them as in sa, ta, na, ma?

 

[Henu the Great]

by the way, do you know if the colour red could be used on the heart chakra? or does anyone know if that's safe? I know its not its colour but id been wondering about that and if red could be used somehow on the heart chakra to mitigate how 'accepting' it is of hostile and bad things since red is said to be used for dealing with enemies and hatred and such.

Red can be used against psychic attacks.

is satanama all one word vibration or do i separate them as in sa, ta, na, ma?

Separately. You can use mudras to accompany the vibration.

More info: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=17&t=43252&p=209160&hilit=satanama+mudra#p209160