Blitzkreig [JG]
Head of Community
Primal said:....
The framework of the 40 day program, such as empowerment, cleaning, mind training, yogic asanas, etc are generally what you would do at all stages of your path. The only difference would be changing the activities which fulfill these goals. Look at the Satanic Meditations list for more.
Once you have stabilized your soul in the above way, this alone will provide a degree of prosperity. Yet, if you wish to fix certain problems directly, you must raise and apply energy, also known as witchcraft. Look at the Satanic witchcraft page to make sure you know the basics here, such as how to do it and under what conditions for the best result.
An example of how to improve your prosperity is found here: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=78950
This can be modified for other situations besides those described in the post.
Also, learning the basics of astrology will show you where and why you may face such difficulties in your life. For example, negative Saturn or Pluto aspects can show where limitations or trauma may lie.
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Overall, your emotions are grim, but this classification of disability also serves as a grand opportunity for free time. As SS, we are in the business of bringing advancement to all areas of life. Therefore, there is no shame in being paid to do this, especially in regards to your past suffering. Definitely take all the help you can get here.
For privacy reasons you may wish to keep your disability secret. However, in most cases you can overcome this, especially when you are advanced and able to pull off larger healing efforts, or much later in the future (like 15-30 years) when medical technology has exploded and can cover areas of healing which are hard with magic alone.
You are 31 and recently passed through your Saturn Return, a period of difficulty and trials. You are now being given housing and other necessities. Very soon, you will begin direct modification on your soul, which improves all aspects of life.
With this in mind, I would say things are actually looking up for you, especially if you approach this path (spiritual training) with the same mentality as your physical training.