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theop.chipyx

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Heil to all brothers and sister, comrades and soldiers of Satan....I'm feeling like I'm in big big trouble , I think I've just caused myself an internal brain bleeding , that will eventually lead to the worst , I'm afraid but in the same time strangely counscious about it and calm , but still desperate ...I gerked very hard my head because of a psychic attack , not going to eneter into details ,but I felt a serious click* in my head and now I feel like its deadly serious problem , I also used runes to ask Satan if it's going to kill me , the major part of the answers were positive,  and now I'm feeling like runing against time , trying to do the RTRs and things but seriously, I really need an answer , ....I don't want to crack young ffs , I am serriously investing my life in Spiritual Satanism , and also did lots of work lately. ... I'm so down I even doubt I can solve the situation ...I'm not afraid of dieing , I'm afraid of the consequences and shit I'll let on the shoulders of others. If the moderator considers it to be too hard to be posted , than Do Not , but at least it would be really really great if somebody , I don't even know for what reason , would e-mail me, I mean I followed my gut feeling to write here , so it must be something to it , as always,  Satan never lied to me.
 
To calm your nerves a little, I have displayed below the symptoms of a hemorrhagic stroke or brain bleeding:

-total or limited loss of consciousness
-nausea
-vomiting
-sudden and severe headache
-weakness or numb feeling in the face, leg, or arm on one side of the body
-seizures
-dizziness
-loss of balance
-problems with speech or swallowing
confusion or disorientation

A stroke is a medical emergency. Without intervention people can die within minutes to a few hours.

If you are absent of the above symptoms then it would be greatly warranted for you to relax.
 
I'm fairly certain it isn't anything bad, because if you would have caused yourself internal bleeding in your brain you'd not be conscious enough to write this email, you'd have collapsed quite quickly and needed to be rushed to a hospital asap to get immediate surgery and treatment in order to have a chance to live.

One more thing, the brain itself doesn't actually have pain receptors, if you have an internal bleeding in your brain you won't feel it, it is much more likely that you pulled a muscle or perhaps jerked your jaw in an unpleasant way. The muscles of your neck and jaw run up to your skull, and the nerves run along there too, so jerking your head very hard can make it feel as if you hurt your head internally due to how the muscles are positioned.

It is also likely that your neck got strained from the jerk of your head, pain caused by a jerk of the neck can extend into the brain and be percieved as if you hurt something inside.

One more thing to take into consideration perhaps, for anyone that reads this. If you think you might have seriously injured yourself you should obviously call to your nearest hospital and ask them for advice before you post something here as it can take a while for people here to see your post and respond, in case of a real brain injury 30 minutes and in some cases much less is all it can take before it might be too late to succesfully treat the injury.

Aside from giving advice we cannot treat your injuries. Getting something checked out by a doctor is not all bad. Although the knowledgeable people here can give good advices for better medicines than what a doctor migth discribe for treatment, don't hestitate to go see a doctor if you think you might have hurt yourself in some way that needs treatment.
 
I highly highly (more high than the himalayas) think that you have no brain internal bleeding, and you are exagerating, feeling clicks in your brain if you meditate is normal if you ask me lol
 
@theop. Ref injury from attack
The only thing I can add is the not so obvious...
You've been attacked by the enemy! Clean your chakras and aura. Increase your AoP. And thank Father for allowing you to be used. Used so much that you're making the enemy nervous! Stay strong, brother.
Collection of links for help and how to:http://josministries.prophpbb.com/post83736.html#p83736Dealing with enemy attacks:http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16803.htmlAoPs by Ms Lydia:https://josministries.prophpbb.com/post97475.html
HS88
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On Sat, Jul 8, 2017 at 4:50 PM, theop.chipyx@... [SSHealth]<[email protected] wrote:   Heil to all brothers and sister, comrades and soldiers of Satan....I'm feeling like I'm in big big trouble , I think I've just caused myself an internal brain bleeding , that will eventually lead to the worst , I'm afraid but in the same time strangely counscious about it and calm , but still desperate ...I gerked very hard my head because of a psychic attack , not going to eneter into details ,but I felt a serious click* in my head and now I feel like its deadly serious problem , I also used runes to ask Satan if it's going to kill me , the major part of the answers were positive,  and now I'm feeling like runing against time , trying to do the RTRs and things but seriously, I really need an answer , ....I don't want to crack young ffs , I am serriously investing my life in Spiritual Satanism , and also did lots of work lately. ... I'm so down I even doubt I can solve the situation ...I'm not afraid of dieing , I'm afraid of the consequences and shit I'll let on the shoulders of others. If the moderator considers it to be too hard to be posted , than Do Not , but at least it would be really really great if somebody , I don't even know for what reason , would e-mail me, I mean I followed my gut feeling to write here , so it must be something to it , as always,  Satan never lied to me.
 
Guys I'm really sorry that I made you go through all the trouble to respond me , some minutes later yesterday after I created the post I've start calming myself down,  and realize it wasn't nothing lethal , I've written another post to the moderator to say that I'm okay and I was exaggerating. I know ! I shouldn't have been that scared , but it was insane , such a vicious attack , I mean , not even when I had seizures was I so scared ( in fact I wasn't , because I knew were because of meditations and stupid transits) , and normally I don't mind too much of these things , because I can feel my body and see if something is really wrong, but that was just crazy , they've had the upper hand , and it was almost like their intention was indeed to cause me a brain bleeding,  I still got the ichy/dull sensation in that part of my head as a result from the emotional stress so I know for sure , maybe it was just my fear, but I had a pretty damn of a reason. (I'll use the waning moon to get rid of the traumas , untill they're still fesh , lol XD)Anyway I do clean my aura on a daily basis,  sometimes I do manage to do it better than other times , and also the chakras , but not so easy as I've done it in the past , all because of the transits and because I didn't feel like I was in need of balancing my meditations (I would go like breathing energy from the sun for almost an hour sometimes , or using the element of fire more than I could support, and extremes like that, resulting now in seizures and problems that maybe I could have solved more easily if I was balanced) anyway none the less now I'm building up my routine in a manner that can bring only good , provided I don't get out of patience (as always).Thank you very much for the answers and again, I didn't want to waste your time , so I will take this as a lesson and start dominating my reactions . 
Heil Satan ! And all Gods of Hell! 

Thank you for the encouragement! 
 
In case you are still doing elemental meditations, you really shouldn't be doing them at all anymore if your energy is still unstable and you have had actual seizures recently.

Especially Fire, this can seriously harm you in irreversible ways if you aren't careful and the effects of over invoking fire can go unnoticed untill weeks later where it suddenly hits you all at once.

They are exceptionally powerful meditations, not something to play around with.

For aura cleaning, usually more is better, however you can burn yourself out if you don't build it up correctly and remain consistent. If you haven't been doing it very much for two weeks and suddenly you go all out doing an hour of absorbing solar energy and vibrating 108 or so times Sowilo without any prior build up you can easily overburden your soul and cause a burn out.

You need to slowly and gradually build this up and remain consistent with the amount you do, that is extremely important.

It is infact very likely that you didn't suffer from enemy attack, but you simply got this from overstimulation. They can feel quite similar at times.

This dull ache or itch inside your head can very likely be your chakra acheing because of the burn out, this can extend in actual physical pain due to the nerves literally burning out as a result of overstimulation.

In the past when I was a newbie I have burned myself out a few times and learned the hard way how unpleasant that can be.

Such as one time where I vibrated Maum more than 500 times into my crown chakra, I got a stabbing feeling in my head after I finished that hurt so much it knocked me off my feet, and a lingering headache for two weeks, also I was unable to meditate for two weeks, except for very light visualization meditations and the foundation meditation.

I was lucky I got of so easily.

As for elemental meditations, I also learned the hard way how dangerous they can be.

Don't use them untill you have maintained consistency for a long time and have a solid daily meditation program in place that incorporates yoga or an equivalent (like Qi-gong) and chakra meditations as well as one or multiple AoP techniques (from Lydia's post a while back). There is a reason the elemental meditations are listen under the advanced section and lower down the intermediate section, they are not for beginners who don't have the basics down, the first of that is a consistent daily meditation program that is gradually build up at your own pace and kept up daily.

I really advice you to take a good look at what you currently do for meditations and try to create a balanced meditation program for yourself, and also to scale back on repititions and just build them up properly as you most likely haven't recovered from that overstimulation you caused yourself in the past.
 
Wellfor now I do allways an aura cleaning +AoP in the morning (and at night before going to sleep) as instructed by HP Maxine , only that because of over stimulation I allways need a Demon's assistance,  often visualising Him/Her only to be sure my emotions and thoughts don't go rampant , a solar square (because  I need it) , hatha yoga so I charge myself fo an RTR (there are two types that one is longer and has 3 assanas more then the other , this particular one I do it between the RTRs, usually if not I do it later or none at all it depends if I'm feeling to bad in that particular day) , RTRs obviously, then some void meditation (now Iincluded SATANAMA mantra in it for 10 minutes, usually i can do it for 15-20 minutes , in wich I get something like 3-5 minutes of good void training) then rune chanting(but i do it allmost all of the time usually sowilo and uruz are the choice, but also thurs no more than 9 times a round ) , yeah I basically stay with runes and feeling them like it was the air I'm breathing....i don't affirm them though I just canalise the energy for the moment so to speak , usually o keep touch with reality , but also to charge for RTRs..In synthesis : aura cleaning+AoP x2hatha yoga (x1,×2)RTRs (in their order, sometimes assorted but usually in the succession writed in the post) also where I use runes to charge upvoid meditation ( roughly 20 min)Ah yeah and some physical exercises daily (pushups, abdominals, etc..) nothing really hard it takes around 13-15 min
 
@theop. Ref thanks
I'd rather that you post for help than stew alone. Glad it has worked out!
Still... Increase your AoP!
HS88

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On Sun, Jul 9, 2017 at 7:01 AM, theop.chipyx@... [SSHealth]<[email protected] wrote:   Guys I'm really sorry that I made you go through all the trouble to respond me , some minutes later yesterday after I created the post I've start calming myself down,  and realize it wasn't nothing lethal , I've written another post to the moderator to say that I'm okay and I was exaggerating. I know ! I shouldn't have been that scared , but it was insane , such a vicious attack , I mean , not even when I had seizures was I so scared ( in fact I wasn't , because I knew were because of meditations and stupid transits) , and normally I don't mind too much of these things , because I can feel my body and see if something is really wrong, but that was just crazy , they've had the upper hand , and it was almost like their intention was indeed to cause me a brain bleeding,  I still got the ichy/dull sensation in that part of my head as a result from the emotional stress so I know for sure , maybe it was just my fear, but I had a pretty damn of a reason. (I'll use the waning moon to get rid of the traumas , untill they're still fesh , lol XD)Anyway I do clean my aura on a daily basis,  sometimes I do manage to do it better than other times , and also the chakras , but not so easy as I've done it in the past , all because of the transits and because I didn't feel like I was in need of balancing my meditations (I would go like breathing energy from the sun for almost an hour sometimes , or using the element of fire more than I could support, and extremes like that, resulting now in seizures and problems that maybe I could have solved more easily if I was balanced) anyway none the less now I'm building up my routine in a manner that can bring only good , provided I don't get out of patience (as always).Thank you very much for the answers and again, I didn't want to waste your time , so I will take this as a lesson and start dominating my reactions . 
Heil Satan ! And all Gods of Hell! 

Thank you for the encouragement! 
 
That sounds good Theop, should not be too much. The AoP Maxine gave us is excellent and doesn´t overstimulate regardless of what level one is at either.

Stay safe and take are of yourself. Glad to hear you feel better again.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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